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Rating: R, for later chapters

Spoilers: Up to and through season 5

A/N: Sorry this chapter is short. Hopefully the next ones will be a bit longer.

Chapter One: A Message from Portland

She looked through the window of the restaurant. 'Why is he in there with her?' She thought. As tears fell from her eyes, the sky opened up and rain came pouring down. 'Why am I crying? Why am I so upset? It's not like we were together.' The sound of thunder broke her trance. She turned and started to walk back to her car. She needed to go home and home is where she headed.

"Bill, bill, junk, junk, bills more junk…….." She stopped and looked at the last envelope. "Portland, Maine?" She whispered. She dropped the other mail down on the table as she sat down. She closed her eyes and opened they mysterious letter.

Dear Sara,

It has been a long time, too long really. I'm so sorry I haven't got a hold of you until now. I guess I have been scared. Scared you wouldn't want to talk to me. Scared, you have forgotten me. I never forgot about you. So much has changed in the twenty years.

I got married fifteen years ago. We have a ten year-old son named Alexander Jamison, A.J., is what we like to call him. Our other son, Maxwell Domenic, just turned five. Then there is my princess, Sara Elizabeth, she is three months old. I hope you don't mind but as you can see, we named her after you.

I'm a police officer in Portland. Some days it's hard. The other day we got a call, our regular stop… I had nightmares that night. I often do on those kinds of calls. I see and hear you….

I am so sorry I couldn't save you. I hope you can forgive me. And I hope you will write back or call me. My work number is at the bottom just ask for me. My home number is there as well. I hope I hear from you.

Love Always,

Alex x x

P.S. Home number (905)555-4131 work (905) 550-9911

Sara didn't know what to think. 'Well it is worth a try. What do I have to lose?' She thought. Sara picked up the phone and dialed the number.

"Portland police station how may I direct your call?"

"Um…. Could…" Sara took a few deep breathes and regained her composure. "Alexander Sidle please." Sara fought the urge to hang up. After all it was her brother. The only real family she had left. Then she heard the click.

"Sidle." His voice was deep and powerful. Much more powerful than she could remember. "Hello, are you there?"

"Alex?" Sara sat down on her sofa; for fear she would faint hearing his voice again. "Alex is it really you?"

"Who is…" Alex stopped cold, then he swallowed hard. His throat closed tight and it seemed almost impossible to breathe. "Ssssaa… Sara? Sara is that you, sis?"

Alex and Sara talked for over an hour. She told him about moving to Vegas, Grissom, and the whole lab drama.

"Hey Sara, I should really get back to work. But, would you like to come and visit? If you'd like I can get you into the crime lab here. Robert Nelson is the Assistant Director. He's also my closest friend. He is a great guy and he knows all about…he knows about mom and dad."

"Thanks Alex. I would love to come see you and your family. I need to talk to my boss tonight. I will call you later and let you know."

Alex told Sara that would be great and he looked forward to hearing from her. It was the truth; he waited so long to hear her voice again. And he hoped she would make it to see him. He missed her more than he thought he did.

Sara hung up the phone and smiled. Something told her that she had to go see him. Somehow she knew things would be different. But how different this trip would be for the rest of her life; she had yet to find out. That was going to have to wait. For know she had to think about how to ask Grissom for time off so soon after her suspension.

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