The title is significant enough, I'm sure. Sirius is reminding Remus what was left behind...
rating: K
pairing: Remus Lupin/Sirius Black
genre: elegy/depressing
declaim: Not mine, we all know it. As much as I long for owning Remus J. Lupin (and Sirius as a bonus), they're not mine.
Sorry for any unintended mistake.
--
Long way to go
back to your heart,
long and tiresome
and sometimes vain
as you think just now.
--
I know what you think,
I always knew it
as well as you knew
what I did think
and feel.
--
So don't think
what I think
you think
and I promise
I won't read your mind any more
if you don't want me to.
--
Come here, sweetheart,
come to my body,
let me embrace you,
let me smooth your unkempt hair
the colour of savannah gras.
--
Don't be afraid of me any more.
--
Let my fingers touch you,
they won't make you any harm
as they sometimes did before.
--
I'm really sorry, love.
I'm sorry about my fingers,
about my eyes
(once you said they're too bright for you to look into them),
I'm sorry about my smile
and about my hair
(you loved them both, I know).
--
I'm sorry about my existence
because it caused you so much pain.
--
But still, come to me,
open yourself
to the pleasure of my breath.
--
You say it's rotten,
you say my hands are cold,
you say my eyes are transparent and blind,
you say I'm dead.
--
But I'm not,
I'm waiting for you
as alive as I was used to be,
I'm standing in front of you
and you still can't see me.
--
Oh, Remy,
be able to see me again,
please..