Soooo... Should update something. Really should. But one-shots are so... You don't plan them, you know? But once the idea's in your head, what can ya do? Well, thanks! SHQ
Oh! To avoid confusion:Horo's thoughts
p h o b i a
He hears Ren approach. He does not turn to face him.
"Are you afraid of me?"
Ren's voice is quiet, and Horo looks off to the side.
Get the hell away from me.
"No."
Silence.
"You're not a liar, Usui. Don't you fucking lie to me."
Horo doesn't answer. This time it's Ren who looks away, clenching his fists, callused skin pulling tight, and feeling the blood pulsing furiously underneath.
"I'm not afraid," says Horo, both to Ren and to the silence, but mostly to himself. Lying? No. No. Because. Say it aloud, and it's
I'm terrified.
true. Say it and you can believe
I am afraid of you.
the words. Aural reality. Vibrations to destroy the silence, because the silence
I want you. I need you.
rips the secrets away. Horo needs his secrets. Please, kami, just please let him have
Your lungs breathe my air. Your heart carries my blood.
these secrets... Ren hears the words, and, purposefully, does not listen. He's a warrior, after all. A fighter. Silence is just another blade.
Horo tries, feebly, to defend himself.
"I'm not-"
Your soul is my soul, clenched in my fist.
He tries again.
"I'm not-"
I am afraid that you will break me.
"I..."
His voice is swallowed by the silence of sound, and he could cry, he really could.
But my greatest fear,
Yellow eyes grow distant, weary. Ren's voice is strained and low.
"I trust you," Ren says.
Please, don't.
"Don't lie to me."
Please don't say that.
Horo misses the silence.
My greatest fear-
He hears the other boy take a step forward, and then another, and another, until he can almost feel the heat of him, so close, so close, too close-
"Are you afraid of me?" he whispers, and Horo feels the sweat slick his hands.
I am so afraid...
Horo turns around, and suddenly his world is gleaming, xanthic, warmth, the smell of wood and jasmine oil. His world is heat. his world is trembling, and the shaking keeps him steady. Ren is not speaking. No need for that. He, unlike Horo, is still, and Horo's lips, so cold, shiver like flurries of snow against the heat of his.
...that I will break you.
"I will not be afraid," whispers Horo, and embraces the silence that follows, because he has told the truth, and so it cannot hurt him anymore.
Besides. Ren's lips are fiery against his, burning the cold away.
Quiet noises in the silence.
There is nothing to fear.
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