I've been in love with the same guy for more than ten years, I know that sounds crazy considering my age is only 22. I met him through my best friend when I was only eight, at first it was just a small crush that lasted until I was 13 that was when I realized that I was completely, and hopelessly in love with Sasuke Uchiha. The only problem was that he was the most popular boy in the whole school, girls literally swarmed around him in the halls, at lunch and in class, he was never alone.
I tried everyday to get his attention, to get near him so I could at least say hi, I was part of his little group of friends but it was hard considering his fan club was always around, even out of school! I tried a lot, my best friend, Ino even tried to help me but every action was hopeless. But finally on graduation day I was able to get Sasuke alone, away from everyone and told him how I felt about, how I have been in love with him since the first day we met; he laughed at me, breaking my heart into a million pieces, just when I thought that all my sacrifices and actions were going down the drain, he kissed me! He actually kissed me, I was shocked and baffled. To this day he still hasn't told me why he laughed at me, he says he never will.
My life since then has only revolved around him, he never really returned most of my feelings for him; I would give and he would just take that's how it's always been. We've been together for such a long time; but it wasn't until recently I started to notice a change in him. He came home late almost everyday, boss me around and just push me away. I've talked to a few people about his behavior but they all said the same thing; 'It's Sasuke, he'll get over what ever is trouble him.' this time I don't think he will. I started wondering things, but I think I'm just over thinking it. I started thinking that what if he was seeing someone else? Maybe he didn't feel the way I did and he's just starting to show it now.
I sighed, turning off the tv. My eyes glanced towards the clock and then back down at my phone, he should have been home two hours ago? I quickly dialed a number but was sent straight to voice mail. I called Ino to see if she had heard from him, since she is seeing his older brother, Itachi.
"No, I'll ask Itachi to call him and then I'll call you back. Don't stress over it Sakura maybe he's just really busy with work?" That could be it, and his phone just died that's why he hasn't called or answered my calls.
"Thanks for listening to my crazy talk Ino, you're the best." We hung up after our goodbyes and I waited patiently for her to call back with an answer. But that was when I heard the door creak open, I quickly made my way to the front and saw Sasuke stumble inside, dropping his coat on the floor and just walk right past me. I called out to him, following him up to our room and watched as he grabbed some clothes and pushed me out of the way to the restroom.
I ran back to the living room and rang up Ino's number. I told her that he had finally came home and how he just ignored me.
"Sakura, really if Itachi ever pulled that shit with me I would not take it one bit." I giggled slightly, thinking about Itachi's face when Ino said that. "You should get the truth out of him, or I will." I heard the shower turn off and I quickly ended my conversation with her.
"Sasuke?" I questioned, peeking my head in the restroom, he wasn't in there. I walked to our room and saw him out the window smoking a cigarette on the roof. "You're going to get sick if you stay out here." I told him but there was no reply. "Sasuke, can you talk to me? I hate that you've been ignoring me."
"Then do something about it." He's words came out harsh, like poison in my veins.
"What the hell is your problem?" I demanded, surprising myself with my own tone of voice. I saw him smirk and take out the cigarette from his mouth.
"Since when did you grow a pair?"
"Since you've become a completely asshole with me. Not spit it out, what is going on in that head of yours?" He climbed back through the window, walking past me again.
"I'm tired."
"You're always tired."
"No, I'm tired of you always around." He laughed, the same laugh from the day I told him how I felt about him. "I've always felt pity for you, I just didn't think that I'd stick around you for this long." Bullshit, all the words in the sentence were utter bullshit. "Maybe I did have feelings for you, feelings of embarrassment and pity. I'm surprise it took you this long to figure out through, I always thought you were smarter then that."
"Stop lying!" Tears streamed down my face, from anger mostly. "You can't tell me you never had romantic feelings for me, that's why you stayed with me for so long. You do care about me, you just won't admit it."
"Sakura, why do you think I laughed when you confessed your feelings for me? I felt bad for you, you were so hung up on me it was sad. I knew you were never going to get over me unless I went out for you and if I didn't you were probably have just ruined your life." I clenched my fist tightly, this wasn't true, not of this is. "I only tried to help you, slowly get over me. But it was like you just got closer to me everyday, it got to the point to where I stop trying completely." I turned my back to him and made my way to the front door, leaving everything behind me.
They say that time heals wounds, if that's true then I need a hundred years to fix my pain. I had no idea where I was going, I ended up at Ino's house, in the middle of the night and she wasn't very happy to see me crying on her lap.
"Those Uchiha boys are a huge pain in my ass!" Itachi made a noise from his throat that brought Ino to his attention. "Don't look at me like that, you know it's true." He shook his head, and walked into the kitchen. "Sakura, don't go back to him. If he's going to be a complete asshole like that, then you don't need him." She carefully rubbed the back of my head and smiled. "Besides, Itachi has a friend who I know would be great for you. He doesn't talk much though, but he's pretty cute."
"Thanks Ino but I don't think I'm ready for that." I sighed, resting my elbow on my leg and my chin in the palm of my hand.
"Of course you're not, I'm just saying that you should meet him." I nodded my head, just to get Ino off my case. "Great, now come on, lets go to bed? Like when we were in high school. Itachi wouldn't mind sleeping in the other room for the night!" She pulled me and I saw Itachi stick his head out of the kitchen and sigh, Ino bossed him around so much; but I knew he actually cared about her, not like his brother who only cares about himself.
"Sorry I stole Ino away from you last night Itachi," I walked into the kitchen to find him slaving away on the stove. "She's a hand full, she kept smoldering me last night with her cuddling." I said in a yawn, I had to admit it did feel good though, Sasuke never held me while we slept.
"She's like that with me when she wants to be held."
"She's like a cat then?" I laugh awkwardly. I never really had a conversation with Itachi before, just hi and bye or just ask him a question; but he wasn't as I thought he was going to be. He was very welcoming and comfortable to be around, Ino was one lucky girl.
I let out a small whimper without noticing, seeing Itachi made me think of Sasuke. The dream I had last night, well it was more like a nightmare. Everything came back to me in the dream, our whole relationship was summed up in my dream.
"You know Sakura." Itachi placed down a plate of food in front of me. "I'm no where like my foolish little brother." Ino walked in to the kitchen, the tips of her hair sprinkled down water to the floor as she walked over to Itachi, kissing him gently on the cheek. He paid her no mind until she sat down and he placed a place down next to her. "Good morning Ino." She smile happily and then sighed dreamily at him. "He's young and stupid." Itachi continued with our conversation. "He's never been in love before, so he doesn't understand how it feels."
"It scares him to think about it Sakura." Ino chimed in, taking a bite from her food. "To think about losing the one person he cared deeply about in just one mistake. He's foolish like Itachi says, foolish people like him don't understand love and never will." The words Ino was saying were true, but it made me realize how foolish I was as well. "He's born to be alone."
"But that can change!" Ino blinked at me and nodded her head.
"Of course, if they truly want to though; but it's Sasuke you're talking about. He's stubborn, doesn't listen to reason from anyone." Itachi finally sat down with us. "Sakura honestly,"
"You don't need his ass anymore!" Ino finished Itachi's sentence, slamming her fist on the table.
"Yes, what Ino said. Listen to her, she's your best friend, right?" I nodded with a slight smile. "She wants the best for you."
"Oh, Itachi!" Ino squealed like a little girl, hiding her blushing face in her hands. I started feeling really jealous of them, they didn't look like they were be a loving happy couple but they were, they just kept to themselves.
A knock on the door disturbed our conversations, my heart started to pound in my chest and I held on tight to Ino's hand under the table. Her blue eyes gave me a worried look and then shot over to Itachi, he nodded his head slightly.
"Ino,"
"I doubt it's him Sakura." She reassured me. Itachi walked in a few seconds later, followed by two of his friends. I was a bit reviled but disappointed at the same time; I wanted it to be Sasuke just so Itachi would force him to sit down and Ino would interrogate him until he spit out the real reason he just dumped me.
I broke away from my thoughts when I noticed one of Itachi's friends was looking over at me from the corner of his eye. I smiled kindly towards him so I didn't seem rude. "Sakura, these are Itachi's friends; Deidara and Sasori." Ino leaned in closer to me, speaking in a small whisper. "Sasori is the guy I was talking about yesterday, cute right?" My eye's shifted back to the redhead who was looking at me when he walked in; he was really cute. "Ah, well we girls are gonna let you have guy time with your friends." Ino gently gave Itachi a kiss on his cheek followed by a whisper in his ear that made a light blush appear on his face. She quickly grabbed my wrist and pulled me away with her to another room. I couldn't help but to look back once more at the handsome redhead who watched as Ino and I made a escape.
"So what do you think?" Ino pushed me into her room, slammed her door and immediately started bombarding me with questions of the redhead. "Do you see yourself with him? Or in his pants?" Oh god, I groan mentally and gave her a light punch to her arm while she laughed. "Seriously though Sakura," I sighed already knowing what Ino was going to say to me. "I'm not going to push something on you that you don't want. I'll let time settle things for you before I try anything." I was taken back with Ino's sudden change in mood but was happy with her words.
"Thanks Ino." She gave me a sincer smile and patted me on my knee.
"Now get dressed, you can wear my clothes for now."
"Where are we going?" I asked while she looked through her closet.
"I'm going to take you to Hinata." I raised my eyebrow at her. Why Hinata, what was she going to do? "I'm going somewhere with Itachi, to settle someone straight." I saw an evil gleam in her eyes, Itachi and her were going to talk to Sasuke. I shook my head with disappointment and sighed, all I had to do know was play the waiting game and see if they could actually get through to him.