A/N: Hallo there! So, this is my first story and I'm really really new to writing, but I've always loved Cargan and wanted to get my ideas out there somehow.

This is a slash story between Carlos and Logan, so don't read if you don't like slash.

And without further ado, I present my story!

(I don't own Big Time Rush by the way)

Logie is so adorable when he's sleeping… Carlos smiled to himself as he watched the sleeping brunette from across the room.

Carlos had been caught by surprise when he realized that he had developed feelings for his best friend. After realizing this, he began to find it hard to sleep, always thinking about the pale boy in front of him every night.

Carlos' face fell as he continued to watch Logan sleep. Who am I kidding? It's not like he'd ever feel the same way about me. Logie is smart, stunning, and just… perfect! And I'm reckless, stupid Carlos. Why would someone as perfect as him want someone like me? Anyways, he isn't gay. No one as perfect as him could be. Carlos sighed. But still… I can't stop feeling this way about him…

Carlos was snapped out of his thoughts as he heard Logan mumble in his sleep, "If force buoyancy is equal to force gravity… Sum of forces is equal… Object equal to buoyancy…"

He's probably dreaming about winning a Nobel Prize or discovering some sciencey thing. Carlos thought, chuckling to himself as he imagined the pale boy accepting a blue ribbon in a white coat and glasses. If Big Time Rush doesn't work out, at least Logie'll have something to fall back on. Hell, he'll probably be more successful as a scientist or doctor than being in this band will ever be.

He began to think about to when he had asked Logan about his choice to join the band right before they left Minnesota.

"Logan, why did you join Big Time Rush?" Carlos had asked him.

"Well… Why did you join Big Time Rush?" Logan asked in return.

"I wanted to help James out with his dream! Plus! Being famous would be really fun!" He exclaimed.

Logan chuckled at his best friend's reason making the tanner boy pout. "What's so funny?"

"Oh nothing! It's just something I would expect you to say." The pale boy teased.

"What do you mean by that?" Carlos questioned, still pouting.

"I don't know, it's just something I thought you would say." Logan said with a smile.

"Well… What about you?" Carlos asked. "You never answered the question. Why did you join Big Time Rush? I mean you could be a doctor or some sort of scientist. You're always studying and you're really smart!"

"Hm… Well to be honest, I'd rather be in a struggling band with you guys than be a doctor and never seeing any of you." Logan said after some thought.

"But you're so good at the sciencey stuff! You don't have to do something you don't like for our sake!" Carlos protested.

Logan tilted his head to the side and gave him an amused look. "You, Kendall, and James are more important to me than being a doctor is. Don't worry about me!" Logan said quickly as he saw guilt begin to creep into Carlos' face. "Having the four of us doing something together for the rest of our lives is a dream I love more than being a silly old doctor!"

"But… You've been studying so hard…"

"Look Carlos," Logan said. "If I didn't want to do this, I wouldn't! Besides, I'm not just gonna give up on science just because we'll be in L.A.! They do have textbooks in California you know!"

Carlos smiled, "Oh shut up you nerd!" he joked, punching Logan's arm playfully.

Logan laughed and punched him back. "Hey I might be a nerd, but at least it could get me somewhere some day! Where do you think your stunts are gonna get you Mr. Garcia?"

"Oh I don't know. I could be a stunt double! Or a daredevil! Or be in the military!" Carlos said jokingly.

Logan's face suddenly darkened. "You better not join the military Carlos… You can't just leave me like that."

"I-.. I was just kidding! You know I'd never do something like that!" Carlos reassured him, shocked at the sudden change in mood.

"Good, because I don't know what I'd do without you" Logan said in relief.

Wait… Carlos snapped out of his memory. He said, "You can't just leave ME like that." At least, I think that's what he said... He looked at the sleeping boy. Logie… Could you-… Carlos sighed. No… It couldn't be. He must've said "us".

Carlos sighed again, looking at the clock: 2:30am. Crap.

He yawned and looked at the pale boy for the last time for the night. If you knew how I felt about you, how would you react? Would you hate me? Carlos began to feel his eyes begin to well up with tears as he imagined Logan moving out of their room and never speaking to him again. No… I can't handle that. Logie… Please don't hate me. A tear rolled down Carlos' face as he flipped over, away from Logan's bed and finally fell into a troubled sleep.

A/N: I know... Kinda disappointing isn't it? Please tell me what you think and how I can improve! I know it's not the best work, so rip it apart! I have no problems with harsh criticism. Please? I give you cookie!