O.K this is my first DragonBallZ fic, so if you review don't be gentle. Tell me what you think, even ifyou flame me i will take it into account. This is set after the Cell when Gohan is in school. Should be different to the usaual Gohan goes to school fics.

I don't own DragonBallZ but you know that.

(AN) None in this chapter
Thoughts
/Gohan's diary/
"speech"

Hopelessly Devoted To You

Chapter one

/I have never had an easy life. If I was not being forced to study by my overbearing mother, I was being forced to fight horrible monsters that were trying to destroy the world. Having Saiyan blood running through my veins meant that fighting itself does not bother me, in fact I never felt more alive when he was evading attacks and shooting off Ki waves and blasts. Having to face monsters to save the planet on the other hand did not bring me any joy. Having to witness my family and friends die simply because they were not strong enough to defend themselves have left me broken and alone.

I have been alone since the most destructive and menacing creature the Earth had ever known showed itself six years ago. This creature was cell. Cell was evil incarnate in its purist form. Cell had overwhelmingly power and an intellect to match./

"GOHAN! Stop writing in that book and get on with your English course work." Gohan's teacher said bitterly.

"Why should I bother to do this work. You, me and the whole bloody school knows that I will pass this with flying colours. So just leave me to my own devices!" Gohan harshly said.

There he go's again. Shouting at the teachers. He will get another detention again. Why does he treat everyone as his enemies? Videl thought to herself.

"Get out of my classroom! You will have detention on Monday and if you don't show up I will have you expelled!" The teacher yelled loud enough to rattle the windows.

Gohan picked up his stuff and placed them in his bag. He put on his long black leather coat and walked confidently and calmly out of the class room. The only way you could tell that he was pissed was how he slammed the classroom door shut, smashing the glass and nearly taking the door off of it's hinges.

"Gohan is such a hunk! You now what they say about bad boys." Erasa says elbowing Videl to gain her attention.

"And what's that Erasa? That they have big egos and small penises." Videl says sarcastically, knowing where she was taking this conversation.

"No silly. It's that there great in bed. And with a body like Gohan's I bet he could go on for hours." Erasa says in raspy voice.

"I swear Erasa, if you keep this conversation going any longer I will ruin your smile." Videl said threateningly. Erasa rolled her eyes, knowing that Videl would not follow through on that threat but so as not to hurt their friendship said nothing more.

/My fight with Cell should have ended when I ascended but when I did something happened to me. Something primal awoke in me, filling me with confidence and an erg to mess with or disgrace anyone that challenges me. And for that reason I hate my Saiyan side. If only I had more control during that battle, everyone I knew and cared about would still be alive.

Mother, farther, Piccolo, Krillin, Yamcha, Tien, Chiaotzu, Mira Trunks, Bulma and even Vegeta. They all died because I was week, not in body but in mind./

The school bell stopped Gohan from continuing his entry. Checking his watch he found it to be lunch time. Gohan packed away his diary and set off to the biggest tree on the school field. When Gohan reached his destination he decaped his food and eats at a human pace. Gohan would usually reflect on what happened up until lunch during this time but recently a girl keeps coming up to him and tries to get close to him, to find out why he hate almost everyone. He doesn't hate everyone, he just doesn't want to get close to anyone. The loss of more friends would break him beyond repair.

"Hay Gohan ... how are you?" Videl asks nervously and she came into what she thought was Gohan's hearing range, little did she know he could hear her from the other side of the school field if he concentrated. No matter how hard Videl tries though, Gohan would never give her more than one word answers unless he got angry at her at which he would shout at her and walk off.

"Fine" Came Gohan's short reply.

"So ... got anything planed for tonight, it is Friday after all." Videl said hinting that Friday nights were a social get together for teens. And although a teen, Gohan didn't do what most teens do on Friday night.

"No." Gohan said giving his quick short reply.

"Me, Erasa and Sharpener are going to a party. Do you want to..."

"No. Leave me alone." Gohan cut her off before she could finish her sentence. Videl tries her best to hide the hurt appearing on her face but is unsuccessful. Gohan notices this and sighs. He caps whatever is left of his food and leaves Videl standing their on what appears to be the verge of tears.

Gohan had never understood Videl. She was the crime fighter of Saturn City. A hero among teenagers and enemy to crooks everywhere. She only ever showed happiness or anger but whenever she was around him she would show a completely different side of herself. She would show him her weaknesses, her vulnerable side, a side that should should only be shown to a lover or parent. A side that Gohan had discarded long ago and wanted nothing to do with.

/Something else happened to me after they all were killed. An uncontrollable rage bore it's way to my surface. My whole body shook uncontrollably, my body became tense. My power rose above that of an ascended Saiyan. I lost my golden glow, my teal eyes and my muscles became leaner. I don't know what I became but I am grateful that I became it. Thanks to this new found power I was able to beat cell to a bloody mess then disintegrate every last molecule and revenge all the life he took!

I should have had fame and fortune but such thing no longer matter to me after everything that has happened. I left that graveyard that was supposed to be the ring and went home letting that bumbling oaf take all the credit. I didn't care, I just wanted to be left alone./

"Gohan how could you do that to Videl! She's the only one in the whole school that tries to be your friend and you throw it in her face! Why do you have to be such a jerk!" Erasa yells in Gohan's face.

Gohan raised his hand, Erasa closed her eyes awaiting the impact, and brought it down swiftly but stopped the strike before it hit. "Don't tempt me girl, I'm not to be messed with!" Gohan says in a threatening voice. Erasa open her eyes to see the back of Gohan's hand hovering miler meters from her face. Erasa turns and hightails it away before she makes Gohan angrier then he all ready is. Gohan had a reputation after all, everyone that crossed him was fair game, from the Jocks that tried to bully him, that will never walk again, the many girls that tried to seduce him for a bet, all of which left school with rather unrecognisable faces. Even a few teachers got a beating from him when they over stepped their bounds by trying to hit him with a riding crop.

Why must everyone meddle in my affairs? I stay out of theirs so why can't they leave me alone? Gohan thought to himself. Having enough of this school day Gohan decides to leave. Walking past his locker and down the hall his ears pick up the sound of sobbing. Becoming curious Gohan follows the sound. What Gohan finds is Videl crying in front of the school roof door. Gohan has been distant to everyone in the school so why would Videl be any different to the way he treats them?

"Why are you crying?" Videl looks ups to see Gohan's bored yet curious expression. Videl puts her head back down and tries to control her weeping. Seeing as he is going to get no reply he starts to walk to the door.

"Why?" Videl quickly spurts out.

Gohan stops and replies. "Why what?"

"Why are you always pushing people away?"

"I have my reasons. Leave it at that."

"Why wont you let me get close?"

"Why do you want to get close? You know I'm no good." And Gohan truly thought that.

"Because!... There must be a reason why you are the way you are! I know there is another side of you! I ... I want to meat that side." Videl said trying her best to hold back her tears, this was after all a very uncommon thing to have Gohan talk to someone for any reason, other then to a teacher.

"There are reasons for everything in this world, but that doesn't mean you have the right to find them out. And my other side died long ago, you are searching for something that no longer exists." Gohan said quietly before exiting through the doors and flying off before Videl can follow him out side.

"Gohan wai.. Gohan?" Videl steps onto the roof and finds it empty, Gohan long gone but how he does it she didn't know.

End of chapter one. Please be brutally honest with your reviews.