Title: Light and Dark
Author: NT
Warning: Yaoi, Angst.
Pairing(s): Ken/Takeru
NT: Well, this story is angst. No surprise there. This takes place after the death of Takeru.
TK: What? I died. *almost crying*
NT: I'm sorry. It was either you or Ken.
Ken: My angel... gone.
TK: *runs into Ken's arms crying*
Ken: *cries*
NT: Wah!! No, don't cry! I'm sorry!!! *changes attitude* I don't own Digimon.
Ken: Hey, we were having a moment.
NT: Well, I had to say it. Stop your crying anyways. It's only a story.
***
Chapter 1: Death of an Angel
I thought I could survive without you. I thought as time passed the pain would lessen and I would be able to move on. Never thought I would love another as I did you, but still. I could at least care for another. No. Since your death, my life has been a hell. It is a hell. I can still remember the day. The day I heard you for the last time. The moment your eyes lost its soul, its meaning. Where'd it go? Where did you go? I never thought that when you left, you would take my soul with you. We were one. We are one. We are the two halves of a whole. You were the light while I was the dark. The angel and the devil. Complete opposites, but we belonged together.
**Flashback**
"Ken-chan!!! Ken-chan!!" I heard you call my name. I never liked that name, but no matter how many times I asked you to stop, you didn't. I didn't love you less because of it. Maybe it was the way you would always smile when you said it.
"I told you not to call me that."
"Ken-chan! There you are."
I sat under my favorite tree reading a book. The same tree that we had our first kiss under. When you had tackled me to the ground and forced your lips on mine. I loved that day. It replayed over and over in my mind.
"What are you doing, Koi?"
I loved how you called me koi. I was your koi and you were mine.
"Just reading a book. Hm?"
You pushed way underneath my arms and sat on my lap.
"What do you think you're doing?"
"I think I'm trying to get comfortable."
You looked at the book I was reading with that cute confused face. You looked up at me with those two wide blue eyes.
"It's for school."
I could hear you sigh, but it was a happy sigh. I felt you move around as I tried to concentrate on my book. You, of course, always ended up distracting me. You turned your whole body somehow so you were facing me and closed the gap with a kiss.
I loved how you taste. You were sweet. I miss that taste.
"Let's go get some ice cream!"
"But I have to finish reading this book-" You pouted. It was adorable. "Awww.. don't do that, please." You kept on pouting and looked down as if you were to cry. "Okay, okay. We'll go get some ice cream." You looked back up at me, a smiled brightly. I could never say no to that face.
I watched you hope around like a small child with such innocence. I loved how little things made you happy. You were amazed with everything, as if you were seeing it for the first time. The flowers smelled wonderful this time of years and the sun was high with a few scattered clouds. No matter how beautiful everything looked, you always caught my eye first. You were the center of it all. Everything was the background while you were the fallen angel in the middle making everything look the way it had.
As I brushed the grass off of myself, you ran to me. You leaned into my chest as your hair brushed in my face. Then, as quick as you came, you ran off with the widest smile you could make. I knew you loved spending time with me how I did with you.
I slowly followed behind my fallen angel. You stopped outside of the park's entrance, as you waited for the walk signal. As it had, you started to cross and looked back to see me.
"Ken-chan!!! Hurry!!!"
I didn't understand why you always wanted to get there fast, but you had. I picked up my speed, but my book had fallen out of my grip. As I bent down to pick it up, I heard the swerving of a car and someone yelling. I quickly looked back to where you were to be and my heart completely stopped. You weren't smiling. You weren't standing there calling me. No, you weren't the way I wanted you to be.
The ambulance came in what seemed like forever. They picked up your fragile body and rushed you to the hospital. I road by your side, holding your bloody hand. This image would haunt me forever, but I didn't think of that. I wanted you to stay alive. I wanted you to be okay. I wanted you to tell me that everything would come out all right and we would get some ice cream.
But that never happened. You stayed in the hospital unconscious for days. I sat by your side the entire time. Even when I was supposed to leave. No one was going to separate me from you. Your older brother and parents had stopped by every chance they could. The other Digidestineds also came, but they didn't say anything. They didn't know what to say. I could feel their sympathetic looks on me, but mostly there sorrow and worry for you. They wanted you as much alive as I had. No, I wanted it more. I wanted it much more.
You weren't getting better. No matter how hard the doctors tried, you stayed in the same condition. That is, until the last day. The last day of your life... and mine.
I had just woken up as I felt a pressure on my hand. I had never let you go. Your eyes were open. Those beautiful blue eyes. But they were different. They looked so pained and sad. I couldn't stand to see you this way.
"K-Ken-chan?"
"Yes, I'm here, my love."
"I-it hurts."
I almost broke into tears, but I held them in. I didn't want you to see me cry. I had to be strong , for you.
"I know, koi. I know."
"Do you- do you believe in... angels?"
My eyes had widened. What were you saying? "Takeru, you're going to live, you know that right?"
All there was was silence. You turned your head away from me. When you looked back at me, tears were in your eyes.
"Takeru."
I gripped your hand tighter. I wasn't going to lose you now. But could I really decide that? I have no power over that.
A few tears had passed my barrier and left my eyes. You brought your weak hand to wipe them away.
"Ken... I won't ever leave you, but it hurts so much. I'll always love you, no matter what."
"Takeru!! You're not going to die!! You're going to live!! Please, don't leave me!! I don't want to be alone again!!!!" I broke down. All those tears I had tried to hold back were now free.
Your voice at grown to a whisper. "Ken... you won't be alone. I'll always be with you."
You lifted my head up so I was looking at you. I leaped at you, making sure I didn't hurt you more. I brought our lips together as the tears from both our eyes fell. You would always taste as sweet. I knew we'd always be together, but I needed more than that. I need you in my arms forever. Always looking at me with those eyes and always smiling.
Without you, the world won't look as bright. You were the center of the picture. Everything would fall apart without you. The flowers would lose its smell and the clouds would block the sun. Once bright day, now gray clouds.
You were in pain. I didn't want you to be, so you had to let go. You had to stop holding on. Before your eyes had closed, I sat by your side.
"I believe in angels, Takeru. I love you." My voice was soft, but I knew you heard me. I could tell from that smile on your face. Your eyes slowly shut, as I knew the last thing you saw was me.
That sound would haunt me. The sound of your heart stopping. No more beating. No more you. You had left. You had turned into that angel I always knew you were. You were with me, but it didn't feel enough. Not enough for me to smile. Not enough for me to see everything the way I had use to.
**End Flashback**
You are gone. The balance is gone. It's only me and the darkness. I didn't turn out the way I had when my brother died, but I felt the same. I felt I lost more than just a love. I lost a part of me. I lost my other half.
I walk through the park. It isn't the same. The sky is dull and everything is just gray. I've been seeing gray ever since you left. I don't know why. The other colors left me the way you had. The flowers didn't smell sweet. They had no smell at all. The clouds had taken over the sky. Gray clouds. Nothing but an endless gray.
Everyone saw the way I had changed, but no one said anything. They all knew why. They all knew Takeru and I were in love. Are in love. He may be an angel, but I know he still loves me.
Maybe I'll never get over this. The truth is, I don't. I don't want to. I don't want to forget him. I could never do that. He is mine and I am his. It will be that way forever.
***
NT: To Be Continued...
TK: That was too sad!! Why'd you have to do that to my poor Ken-chan?!?!
Ken: Why'd you have to kill me angel?!?!
NT: No comment.
Ken: What?! No comment?!
NT: Yup. No comment. Please r/r. Please stop crying!!!
TK and Ken: *still crying* WHY?!?
NT: *sighs*
Author: NT
Warning: Yaoi, Angst.
Pairing(s): Ken/Takeru
NT: Well, this story is angst. No surprise there. This takes place after the death of Takeru.
TK: What? I died. *almost crying*
NT: I'm sorry. It was either you or Ken.
Ken: My angel... gone.
TK: *runs into Ken's arms crying*
Ken: *cries*
NT: Wah!! No, don't cry! I'm sorry!!! *changes attitude* I don't own Digimon.
Ken: Hey, we were having a moment.
NT: Well, I had to say it. Stop your crying anyways. It's only a story.
***
Chapter 1: Death of an Angel
I thought I could survive without you. I thought as time passed the pain would lessen and I would be able to move on. Never thought I would love another as I did you, but still. I could at least care for another. No. Since your death, my life has been a hell. It is a hell. I can still remember the day. The day I heard you for the last time. The moment your eyes lost its soul, its meaning. Where'd it go? Where did you go? I never thought that when you left, you would take my soul with you. We were one. We are one. We are the two halves of a whole. You were the light while I was the dark. The angel and the devil. Complete opposites, but we belonged together.
**Flashback**
"Ken-chan!!! Ken-chan!!" I heard you call my name. I never liked that name, but no matter how many times I asked you to stop, you didn't. I didn't love you less because of it. Maybe it was the way you would always smile when you said it.
"I told you not to call me that."
"Ken-chan! There you are."
I sat under my favorite tree reading a book. The same tree that we had our first kiss under. When you had tackled me to the ground and forced your lips on mine. I loved that day. It replayed over and over in my mind.
"What are you doing, Koi?"
I loved how you called me koi. I was your koi and you were mine.
"Just reading a book. Hm?"
You pushed way underneath my arms and sat on my lap.
"What do you think you're doing?"
"I think I'm trying to get comfortable."
You looked at the book I was reading with that cute confused face. You looked up at me with those two wide blue eyes.
"It's for school."
I could hear you sigh, but it was a happy sigh. I felt you move around as I tried to concentrate on my book. You, of course, always ended up distracting me. You turned your whole body somehow so you were facing me and closed the gap with a kiss.
I loved how you taste. You were sweet. I miss that taste.
"Let's go get some ice cream!"
"But I have to finish reading this book-" You pouted. It was adorable. "Awww.. don't do that, please." You kept on pouting and looked down as if you were to cry. "Okay, okay. We'll go get some ice cream." You looked back up at me, a smiled brightly. I could never say no to that face.
I watched you hope around like a small child with such innocence. I loved how little things made you happy. You were amazed with everything, as if you were seeing it for the first time. The flowers smelled wonderful this time of years and the sun was high with a few scattered clouds. No matter how beautiful everything looked, you always caught my eye first. You were the center of it all. Everything was the background while you were the fallen angel in the middle making everything look the way it had.
As I brushed the grass off of myself, you ran to me. You leaned into my chest as your hair brushed in my face. Then, as quick as you came, you ran off with the widest smile you could make. I knew you loved spending time with me how I did with you.
I slowly followed behind my fallen angel. You stopped outside of the park's entrance, as you waited for the walk signal. As it had, you started to cross and looked back to see me.
"Ken-chan!!! Hurry!!!"
I didn't understand why you always wanted to get there fast, but you had. I picked up my speed, but my book had fallen out of my grip. As I bent down to pick it up, I heard the swerving of a car and someone yelling. I quickly looked back to where you were to be and my heart completely stopped. You weren't smiling. You weren't standing there calling me. No, you weren't the way I wanted you to be.
The ambulance came in what seemed like forever. They picked up your fragile body and rushed you to the hospital. I road by your side, holding your bloody hand. This image would haunt me forever, but I didn't think of that. I wanted you to stay alive. I wanted you to be okay. I wanted you to tell me that everything would come out all right and we would get some ice cream.
But that never happened. You stayed in the hospital unconscious for days. I sat by your side the entire time. Even when I was supposed to leave. No one was going to separate me from you. Your older brother and parents had stopped by every chance they could. The other Digidestineds also came, but they didn't say anything. They didn't know what to say. I could feel their sympathetic looks on me, but mostly there sorrow and worry for you. They wanted you as much alive as I had. No, I wanted it more. I wanted it much more.
You weren't getting better. No matter how hard the doctors tried, you stayed in the same condition. That is, until the last day. The last day of your life... and mine.
I had just woken up as I felt a pressure on my hand. I had never let you go. Your eyes were open. Those beautiful blue eyes. But they were different. They looked so pained and sad. I couldn't stand to see you this way.
"K-Ken-chan?"
"Yes, I'm here, my love."
"I-it hurts."
I almost broke into tears, but I held them in. I didn't want you to see me cry. I had to be strong , for you.
"I know, koi. I know."
"Do you- do you believe in... angels?"
My eyes had widened. What were you saying? "Takeru, you're going to live, you know that right?"
All there was was silence. You turned your head away from me. When you looked back at me, tears were in your eyes.
"Takeru."
I gripped your hand tighter. I wasn't going to lose you now. But could I really decide that? I have no power over that.
A few tears had passed my barrier and left my eyes. You brought your weak hand to wipe them away.
"Ken... I won't ever leave you, but it hurts so much. I'll always love you, no matter what."
"Takeru!! You're not going to die!! You're going to live!! Please, don't leave me!! I don't want to be alone again!!!!" I broke down. All those tears I had tried to hold back were now free.
Your voice at grown to a whisper. "Ken... you won't be alone. I'll always be with you."
You lifted my head up so I was looking at you. I leaped at you, making sure I didn't hurt you more. I brought our lips together as the tears from both our eyes fell. You would always taste as sweet. I knew we'd always be together, but I needed more than that. I need you in my arms forever. Always looking at me with those eyes and always smiling.
Without you, the world won't look as bright. You were the center of the picture. Everything would fall apart without you. The flowers would lose its smell and the clouds would block the sun. Once bright day, now gray clouds.
You were in pain. I didn't want you to be, so you had to let go. You had to stop holding on. Before your eyes had closed, I sat by your side.
"I believe in angels, Takeru. I love you." My voice was soft, but I knew you heard me. I could tell from that smile on your face. Your eyes slowly shut, as I knew the last thing you saw was me.
That sound would haunt me. The sound of your heart stopping. No more beating. No more you. You had left. You had turned into that angel I always knew you were. You were with me, but it didn't feel enough. Not enough for me to smile. Not enough for me to see everything the way I had use to.
**End Flashback**
You are gone. The balance is gone. It's only me and the darkness. I didn't turn out the way I had when my brother died, but I felt the same. I felt I lost more than just a love. I lost a part of me. I lost my other half.
I walk through the park. It isn't the same. The sky is dull and everything is just gray. I've been seeing gray ever since you left. I don't know why. The other colors left me the way you had. The flowers didn't smell sweet. They had no smell at all. The clouds had taken over the sky. Gray clouds. Nothing but an endless gray.
Everyone saw the way I had changed, but no one said anything. They all knew why. They all knew Takeru and I were in love. Are in love. He may be an angel, but I know he still loves me.
Maybe I'll never get over this. The truth is, I don't. I don't want to. I don't want to forget him. I could never do that. He is mine and I am his. It will be that way forever.
***
NT: To Be Continued...
TK: That was too sad!! Why'd you have to do that to my poor Ken-chan?!?!
Ken: Why'd you have to kill me angel?!?!
NT: No comment.
Ken: What?! No comment?!
NT: Yup. No comment. Please r/r. Please stop crying!!!
TK and Ken: *still crying* WHY?!?
NT: *sighs*