Shouts, screams, anger curses, blurred up faces, all and so many more that I can't put into detail or words. Or maybe I can. I don't know anymore. I lost whatever common sense I had long ago, thrown away along with my pride for my people. Though now I'm not even sure I was one of them from the beginning of it all. I mean, I defied the one thing that we have been doing for ten thousand years. Wait, no. I was never one of them.
The pounding in my head grows louder, hurting more and more each second that passes. It hurts. It hurts so bad. It increases to hurt as the shouts get louder. It hurts more just to think. Just to think I could be something I never was. How could I have ever thought I could be like them? I never fitted in with everyone for as long as far I can think back. Was it ever possible for me to be like them from the start? No. It was never possible. Even at the beginning there was no hope.
But now what am I? A traitor? A villain? A monster? A dark curse? I must be. I've already threw away my place among them. Tossing away the honor that few had ever accomplished in achieving like garbage. Honor. That was all I ever wanted. It would have made me fit in…but now it's just another star far out of my reach. Another dream never to come true. Just like all my other dreams. All never to fully take flight, to never see the magic that could have been their destiny. All of them. Dust.
…no.
Not all of them.
One. One dream. One dream, out of all of them. The tiniest, smallest, dust size, tiny, unnoticeable dream. That one had seen the light. No. It had seen the sun. No. It was bigger than that. It was a bond. A miracle. A wish come true. A star that out shined the rest. My one big defiance, that one big change, that one history breaker, had turned out to be my greatest accomplishment that I have ever done right in my whole life. It was the greatest thing that I could not comprehend to think it could be true.
But it is true. And now, my dream, my biggest secret, is here. Protecting me. From those who I thought I could fit in with.
Now I know that I was never one of them to begin with. All because I can never kill my greatest enemy who turned out to be my best friend I could ever ask for.