"Shal, can I ask you a question?" Emma sat down beside the feral in the sofa.

Shalimar looked surprised at her team mate. "Of course Emma, is something wrong?"

She watched the younger woman tremble a bit and started to get worried.

Emma looked into Shalimar's eyes, and the familiar feeling appeared again. This unexplainable feeling she'd been starting to get lately just by being close to the feral. She swallowed hard. "If you got the chance to ever live a normal life…"

"Emma, I think I know where this is going. And no. There's no way I would choose a normal life in front of this." She watched the younger woman. "Whatever normal is." She added.

Emma didn't really settle with that answer. "But if you got a chance to help change the past? Would you do it?" She asked without looking at Shalimar. "I mean, if you could stop them from experimenting on us…"

"Emma, I can't think like that. This is normal for me, this is me, this is who I am, and I don't want to change myself." Shalimar looked at Emma and their eyes met. "And I don't want to change you either."

Emma was hit by the familiar feeling again, but so much stronger than before. She looked deep into Shalimar's eyes. "What are you doing to me?" Emma asked whispering.

Emma leaned forward a bit, but then realized what she was doing so she pulled back and rose from the couch. "I- I have to go." She hurried back into her room, leaving Shalimar completely puzzled, looking after her.

"Why was Emma in such a hurry?" Brennan sat down beside Shalimar.

"I don't know." The feral was still looking after Emma, even though she couldn't see her anymore. "But I'm gonna go talk to her." She left Brennan and walked after Emma. She knocked on the door waiting for the psionich to answer. But no answer came so she knocked again. "Emma, it's me, Shalimar, can I come in?"

Shalimar waited a few seconds before she opened the door to realize that Emma wasn't there. She looked around the room and realized that Emma had left her com link on the drawer.

Shalimar ran around the sanctuary looking for Emma, when she didn't find her she ran down to the lab. "Adam!"

"What is it Shalimar?" Adam had a worried look in his eyes.

"I can't find Emma, and she's taken off her com link" Shalimar told the older man.

Adam looked worried. "Do you know what happened?"

Brennan came into the lab "Where's the double helix?" he asked.

"Jesse" Adam shouted out to Jesse in the other room. "Emma's in the double helix, can you try and get contact with her?"

Jesse called for Emma in the double helix. "Emma, it's Jesse. Are you there?"

Emma heard Jesse's familiar voice, for a few seconds she thought about turning back. But then she realized that there was no turning back. She just couldn't go back, because going back would mean that she'd have to face Shalimar, and that was something she just wasn't ready to do. Something had happened in their relationship to each other lately, they were friends, of course. But there was something else, something more. These days every time Emma saw or heard, or thought she saw or heard, the older woman her heart skipped a beat. The sight of Shalimar sent a happy jolt through her chest, and she just wanted to be close to her all the time. But how could she explain that for Shalimar? How could she tell her best friend that she was having these feelings? Everything had been so confusing lately, and she couldn't remember when she started to get these feelings. Maybe they had always been there, hidden somewhere underneath the surface. Emma didn't seem to find a way to stop the train of thoughts that had been running through her mind the last weeks. And that had made it hard, almost impossible to focus on their mission. The last weeks she just hadn't been able to connect to anyone. She hadn't told anyone about it, how could she? They'd ask so many questions, question she couldn't answer. Not cause she didn't want to, but because she herself didn't have the answers.

"Hello? Emma?"

Emma started to come back to reality, she heard the worry in Jesse's voice and started to feel guilty. But right now there was nothing she could do about it, she was on a mission…