"Edward, leave me alone! I don't want you. You are so much of a danger to me as to my family and friends. Get away" I said this while running towards my truck, with a pain in my heart. I felt like I had to do this. It was for the best. He was a danger to me. I can't have him around in my life and act like he is just a normal human being. The fact that he is a vampire, makes things worst.
"Bella, stop!. I need you in my life. You are my soul mate. You have no idea how much I love you. I have been alone for more than a century. You are my life now. Bella! Please don't go!.." I heard him say this words with so much pain that I swear I could feel the pain radiating towards me. It was so much to take in. I needed to get away. I needed to get this over with and make him go away.
"Edward, I can't be with you anymore. I am always in danger. When I'm with you, is like I'm not safe. I'm always trying to be as careful as I can, but I can't do it any longer. So, please just go away. I hate you! Edward Cullen! I don't love you! Anymore." this was completely going to make him go away. I had to get rid of him. With this last words, I got in my truck and sped away towards the La push reservation. I needed to get to Jacob. He is the only person that I can be safe with. Being around Edward made me be a lot more careful than I should be in life. I had to watch every move I made around him so I couldn't make him want to kill me. I loved Edward with all my life, but having him around, puts me in worst conditions than I was before I met him. I fall and trip and break bones with only air. I am the most clumsy human alive. The other reason why I had to make Edward go away is because I love him too much. It makes me do things without giving it a second thought. It makes me scared of my own self. I could end up hurting somebody that I love very much, like Charlie or mom or even Jacob. I had to make a sacrifice for the people around me. I had to make Edward go away.
Suddenly I felt cold tears coming out of my eyes. It reminded me of Edwards skin. This has been the most terrible decision I had ever made in my entire life. I knew that I was not going to live like if anything had never happened between Edward and me. I had an idea of the fact that I was going to have to get use to this, NOT having Edward around anymore to protect me.
I parked in Jacob's driveway and grabbed my purse out of the back seat. I had to do this. I needed to tell him why I had to break up with Edward. He had a right to know. I forced myself out of the truck and walked towards the door. When he came to view I ran to him and hugged him like if I was never going to see him again. "hello to you too, Bella." I heard him say this from my shoulder. I let go of him. "hey." I couldn't come up with something else to say but just look vulnerable. I wiped my tears from my eyes and said "can I talk to you?" his eyes looked surprised and worried. "what happened? Are you okay? Did he hurt you? Tell me and I will be glad to kill him." he asked these questions very fast, I was barely able to tell of what he had said. "I'm fine. I think. Let's go in and I'll explain."
He walked me to the only couch that was available in his house. There was an open book in his coffee table, and a glass of milk. Seeing the milk in the table made me hungry. I had forgotten to eat this morning. I had been so nervous lately that I haven't been eating like I should be doing everyday.
"are you hungry?" ironically, Jacob asked. "no. thanks." I didn't wanted to be rude. "okay, then. Tell me what happened?" he continued sitting me down on the couch. " I broke up with Edward." I saw the change in his face. He went from shock to happiness, to shock again. "YOU broke up with Edward?"
He asked slowly wide eyed, holding back a smile. "yes, I did" I replied, holding back my tears. "oh" he said with a pause. "are you okay?". "no…" I said and threw myself at him. I can't deal with this anymore. The pain was so strong. I needed to do something to take my mind off it. "I have to go" I said walking and sobbing towards the door at the same time. "wait, you can't go like that." Jake grabbed my hand and pull me close to him. It was way too close. I found myself starring at him directly in the eyes. I felt getting closer. He got closer. We both moved closer and closer until we kissed. It was a great sensation. His lips were so warm and soft. He cupped my face in his hands. I hugged his shoulders. I noticed that we were moving. I touched the sofa cushions. He laid me on my back and got on top of me. Still kissing me he unbuttoned his shirt. Then, went for my shirt. I couldn't think straight. I could only think of the lust that had formed between us. Oh no, what was I doing. "stop!" I said pulling away. "what! are we doing?" I said with exasperation.