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Chapter 1

It has been five years since Edward left. Five years since I have been changed by Victoria. Five years since I have finally felt alive… well not fully just yet. The main reason for my existence is still gone, but I feel a little hope something I haven't felt in a long time. A young man name Ricky found me while Victoria had attacked me. He got her off just in time before she fully drained me of all the blood left within me. That had been just six months after Edward left, but even with Ricky and his family there to take care of me I don't feel anything. Just a little glimmer of hope.

The coven I am with is just like the Cullens and the Denalis. They survive off of animal blood. I am grateful for this because at first before I looked into there eyes I was scared. I was scared of what I would see. Would I see the bright blood-red eyes in my nightmares or would I see the ones that comforted me? I was scared I would be alone if I saw red. Luckily I saw golden brown.

"Hey Bella? Can you come help me over here for a moment?" I heard Alexis say from the other end of the room.

"Sure." I replied just above a whisper. I called Alexis Alex just for short like mostly everyone. She was like an older sister to me. You see this coven is just like a family like the Cullens. There is Ricky, Alexis, Brandon, and Scarlet. We go to school just outside of Cleveland, Ohio that is also where we live. We have Brandon being the oldest out of all of us being changed at twenty one the guardian. Our parents died in a car accident and before they past they had Brandon and Scarlet then adopted Ricky, Alexis, and I.

"Come on Bella I am not getting any younger here!" Alex yelled.

"Coming!" I yelled back. I ran over to her by the front door. I didn't understand why she needed my help lifting this box considering we were vampires, but then I realized a human at the door waiting for someone to sign the papers for the shipment.

Alex signed the papers and then we lifted the box inside. "What is this?" I asked.

"This my friend is a piano and do you want to who it is for?" She asked with a devious smile.

"Who?"

"You silly! You like to play the piano and guitar so it is a gift from me to you now we just have to put the legs and bench set up for you and you can play! Aren't you happy?" I gave her my best smile that I could to say yes.

After we had set it up Brandon had gotten home from work along with Rickey. Brandon was a writer for some news paper columns for his "amazing and inspiring words". And Ricky worked at a car repair shop.

"Hey guys what's up?" Brandon asked with his black shaggy hair seeping slightly over his eyebrows. He was about six foot maybe six foot one. And standing behind his trailing behind was Rickey. Now Rickey had light Brown hair and the cut kind of reminded me of Edwards just a little more cleaned up, but I preferred bronze and messy of course nothing was more beautiful that Edward.

"We just finished putting a piano together. The guys that were shipping were offering to put it together, but we said that we could do it ourselves. Now we have a brand new piano. Lets just hope Bella doesn't have another one of her mood swings and get angry and go at it." Alex said with a smile while everyone else laughed. Well for me it wasn't that funny. That day was the day I had so many memories come to my mind all at one of Edward and I couldn't take it I had to let my anger out somehow.

"Ah yes lets hope I liked that piano I loved it." Rickey frowned. "Till this day Bella still hasn't told us what all about."

" I did to. I told you it was Victoria." I said not looking up afraid to look in their eyes.

"Bella you know none of us believe that you are a terrible liar."

"Well you should because it is true." I said still not looking up.

"Whatever I will drop it." I finally took a glance at Rickey, his hands were up in defeat showing he was truly going to leave it alone. I sighed grateful that he had. I stood up quickly and ran to the door.

"I'm going to go hunt I will be back in about twenty minutes." I said as I started to head out the door.

"I am coming to!" I heard Rickey shout from behind. I slowed my speed so he could caught up. I was always just a bit faster that him. The place that we would hunt was just about five minutes away and I guess he did not want to run in silence.

"Bella please tell me about it. I can't help you if you don't tell me. You are always depressed and I want to know what is gong on. What could have happened that you are like this. Sometimes you have mood swings. Some you are happy, but those are always just when you seem to be remembering something. Then there is anger and sadness. I need to know." He stopped a bit more than halfway there when I hadn't reply and grabbed me by my arm and sat me on a tree trunk that had fallen over possible due to a storm.

He took both of my hands in his and looked me in the eyes. "What is wrong?"

"I-I can't tell you." I said trying to look away from his intense stare.

"I know there is Isabella don't lie to me. You know you can't. Right now I could just search you brain and find the answer myself , but I respect you to much to do so." He said still looking at me. Rickey had this special power. If he really truly wanted to know the answer about a question had and knew that someone knew the answer to it, he could touch you and the answer would pop right into his brain in vision for. He could see the memory or memories the answer was in.

"Ya, I know you could, but I am not ready to tell you I have told you that before." I said looking into his eyes pleading for him to let it go like I had before, but this time it didn't work.

"Bella I had waited five years you can trust me. You need to let is out." I started to sob. I didn't like hiding things I wanted to tell him I did, but I didn't know how.

"Okay well this is what happened…" I began. I told him everything about Edward his looks his personality, everything I had fallen in love with him about and that was everything. I told him some memories I had of him saving my life and then finally when he started acting funny to when he left.

"What? Bells no that is horrible I don't know what to say except that he made a big mistake. Also I looked through your memories to see the leaving part. Usually I only see how that person saw it and their perspective, but this time I saw everything he went through. It is like you life is his and his your and your memories or in you and you in his it is fascinating, but I can tell you this. He didn't leave you because he didn't love you. To his you were his life. He left for another reason. A great reason, but this reason did not work." After Rickey said this I was so confused. What does he mean he still loved me and had a reason for leaving that was great but not work or not possible? "I couldn't tell what the reason was exactly just that I could feel it. And I could also feel that he felt horrible when he was telling you goodbye. Just don't give up on his okay Bella? He seems great." Rickey gave me a small, but reassuring smile and I smiled back. He picked me up from the tree trunk. "Lets go hunt."