A.N./ WHAT THIS ISIN'T A WARRIORS POEM, WHAT IS THIS MADDNESS!? I know, but with Easter coming up, I want to upload a poem. If you see that cover picture, yeah, it took me about A HOUR AND A HALF to draw in MS (Microsoft) Paint! The dog, hopefully you know this, if not let me tell you who that is, it's my avatar and it is like the representation of me :) since, sorry, but I don't want you guys to know what I look like :3. But its name is Maple (so when I say Maple, I mean me) so yeah.
This poem contains a part of my story with Christ so please realize that the main idea events that are told in this poem are things that have happened to me, some other things are just representations (you should be able to tell what they are when you see them) so please beware of that before reviewing, thank you :} )
Now I present you with my poem...
What Lies Outside The Shadows-
My life is not the same as other kids at my school
No, I lived a pretty good life
I grew up in the Church
I loved the Lord with all of my heart
But I shall admit it
I was always in the shadows
I never felt, never experienced the real, cold world
That's the way I liked it
But I was dragged out
In 2nd grade
When I was little, there was a boy
While I was the shy girl who usually sat alone at lunch
I never spoke a word unless I was with my only friend
The friend who was in another class
The boys always played a game
That they thought was funny
While I thought it was mean
The one boy who played the bad game
Would always picked on me
Whenever they said "Who would you ever like to do this?"
He said me
The things he said were not nice
"Who would you like to tell their most embarrassing secret?"
Me
"Who would you like to hear that person say they were dumb?"
Me
I felt terrible inside
So I went to my Bible
Read a few verses and stories
Then felt better
Eventually the teacher stopped the kid one day
After I told my parents about it
I then went back into the bubble
My bubble?
When I was little
I would never talk
You were lucky if I even talked to you
Even if it was as simple as
"What's your name?"
I always had that problem
Too shy, too quite for my age
Wanting to hide from the world
Stay in the shadows
But kids like to take people like me from the shadows
Flash forward many years
I met some friends
In an after school program
I didn't realize
That one of my friends
Was really not my friend
Until my one true friend opened the curtain
She told me that she talked bad about me
After I left to go home
I felt sad
I read a verses at home
Then left th Bible there again
Not to be again opened
Unless it was Sunday morning
One thought went through my head
"I thought she was my friend"
After I left to go home the day before
The friend who told me told the leader of the after school program
But when the leader asked who was the person
Who talked bad about me
Only one raised her hand
The one who I knew wasn't the girl
She said she knew who it was
for she was friends with her and me
But she first pleaded
"Forgive me"
I replied "I do"
But I still wanted the girl
To admit guilty of her faults
Nothing
But I forgave her in my heart
Even without her confessing
Now another year into the future
The girl who once talked bad about me
Seats on my bus
But she isn't a character now
For many more come in her place
I was now in a time where kids
No longer are as pure
They cursed and swore
And I hated it
When we got our new classes that year
One of my classes I didn't know anybody
The others I had all of my true friends with me
The kids who were in the one class that I knew nobody
Cused and swore
Again, my bubble was broken
I told them to stop it
But they only laughed
After that they teased me
And by then I was sick of being nice
I told them to back off
But they only laughed more
I felt like I was falling
Deep into an endless pit
Of sadness and betrayal
"Why Lord, why again!?"
I would cry out at night
Slowly the year passed by
The teachers who saw the teasing
Were as blind as bats
For they thought we were all friends
Since whenever they came nearby
The kids smiled and pretended to be my friend
I was alone
For if I told the teachers the kids were faking it
They would think I was the bad kid
Who tried to look down on their favorite students
I felt sad and depressed
"Why Lord, why again!?"
I would cry out at night
Then one day
After that school year
I went to a church event
That lasted all weekend
When I heard the sermons
My eyes were opened
I figured why
The bullying always happened
For I would only care and listen to God
When I was being bullied
After that event
I made a commitment
To read my Bible every night
And to really listen and obey God
That recent teasing was just last year
But I learned a lot
For now
I feel more outgoing
Not as wanting to crawl away in the hole
I still struggle with my instinct
To run and hide
For I still am shy
Esipicaully when it comes to public speaking
But I know lean more on the Lord
The eternal Rock
My God
My Messiah
My Savior
When I thought I didn't need Him
But soon I realized that I do need Him
And I will always love and obey God
And I will try to never look back at the shadows
What do you think? Good, bad? Please review guys and happy early Easter everybody and hopefully you'll think about how much Jesus much of loved you when he died for you and rose from the grave three days later. :)
Peace out!
~Maplepaw46 :3 :D :) :})
