A/N: Italics are Alice's thoughts, Bold are Alex's, and Underlined are notes. It's my first story so go easy on me :)

Chapter 1

I don't know when exactly it happened, all I know is that I fell in love with my best friend, Isabella Swan, and it's the worst thing that could've happened to me.

Senior Year October 29, 2009

"Hey Bella," I say falling into step beside her.

"Hi Ali," She says smiling.

She's so beautiful when she smiles.

Wait what? Why did I just think that?

I look at her face again.

So beautiful.

Why had I never noticed before?

"What are your plans for the weekend?" I ask.

"Nothing really, Edward is supposed to be taking me on a date." My stomach burns with an unfamiliar feeling and I clench my hands into fists.

What is wrong with me? Am I jealous? Why would I be jealous...

You know why.

My inner vampire often decides to grace me with its presence in the form of telepathy. I'm not sure if I'm the only vampire this happens to because I don't want to tell the others. I was a bit freaked out when Alex first spoke to me but she's pretty cool. She is me but at the same time she's not. It's like being able to talk to your subconscious that has its own personality.

"Sounds fun," I say forcing a smile.

She hums in agreement. We walk into our last class of the day and take our seats in the back. We've just finished reading the play Othello and would now be watching the film, which I've seen a countless amount of times.

I take out a piece of paper and scribble a note to Bella.

Lesson #4567 Don't turn off the lights in a class if you don't want the students to pass notes or fall asleep

She smirks when she reads it and shakes her head at me.

Pay attention Alice!

But I'd much rather pass you notes :)

Not all of us are know it all vampires and have to actually pay attention to pass our classes

Oh please, you get all A's you know it all human

You're a pain

But you love me anyways

You're lucky I do

I start to write back when I see her shiver out of the corner of my eye.

"You okay?" I whisper.

"Just cold," she whispers back.

I grab my white jacket off the back of my chair where I had draped it earlier and hold it out to her.

"Here, take my hoodie."

"Thanks," she says shrugging it on and zipping it up.

I decide to try and watch the film when I hear her making sniffling noises. I look over concerned, and see her smelling the hoodie.

"What are you doing?" I ask my lips quirking in amusement. Her cheeks flush in embarrassment at being caught.

"It smells like you," she mumbles.

"Mmm I know I smell irresistible," I say winking. She rolls her eyes and focuses back on the film. I pretend to watch also but silently observe her instead. Her long brown hair with reddish tints falls down her back in waves. Her chocolate brown eyes are focused on the projector. I slowly trail my eyes down and stop at the sight of my hoodie hugging her body. A spark of possessiveness flares inside me. I feel a weird tugging sensation in my gut, as if someone had attached a rope to the inside of my chest, attached the other end to Bella, and yanked on it.

Mine.

My eyes widen at that thought and I quickly look away.

Holy shit, I can't have feelings for Bella can I? She's Edward's girlfriend!

He doesn't deserve her, Alex growls.

What am I going to do? Steal her away from him? I scoff at the thought.

Precisely.

I've never been happier that I know how to hide my thoughts from him than in that moment. It also didn't hurt that we all have our own sound proof apartments within walking distance of the main house. It was a way to give each other privacy and let our guards down. Esme's idea of course.

The sound of the bell ringing brings me out of my thoughts.

"Remember your papers are due on Monday," Mr. Plats manages to get in before students begin rushing out to embrace their short freedom from school.

"Here Ali, thanks for letting me wear it," Bella says handing me back my hoodie.

"Anytime Bells."

"Come on let's get out of here," she says tugging on my arm.

"Impatient human," I tease.

"Lazy vampire," she retorts.

We follow the herd of students through the halls and out the front doors continuing our banter.

"Sparkling fairy."

"Hey! Now that's just uncalled for. We vampires happen to be sparkling studs." She snorts with laughter.

"Right of course you are," she says mockingly.

"Now listen here you—"

"Bella, Alice!" yells a voice from behind.

We turn to see my family making their way over to us.

Emmett and Rose are holding hands. They are the oldest couple after Carlisle and Esme. James has his arm casually slung over Jasper's shoulders. He joined us 5 years ago after falling in love with Jasper when he passed through our town with two other nomadic vampires. He and Jasper are my favorite brothers. They were being led by Edward, who had called us.

"Hi Bella," he says pecking her cheek. Edward is an old fashioned gentleman.

At least you know they're not fucking. I quickly hide my thoughts.

"Hey guys I'm going to head home," I say.

"Make sure you come over later for our movie marathon!" James reminds me.

"I will. See you guys later," I say waving. Bella smiles at me and waves goodbye before following Edward to his car.

I get into my black Nissan and speed off wishing I was driving my canary yellow Porsche, but this was more inconspicuous.

I tear down the streets until I reach "Cullen land" which was slightly hidden away from the rest of Forks. I park on the road with some of the other "every day" Cullen vehicles and run the rest of the way to my apartment. We all have 2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom apartments. They aren't meant to be a luxury but a sanctuary.

I run up the stairs to my room and flop onto my king sized bed. I open my mind to let my thoughts flow freely.

Have you accepted that you love her?

No, I can't.

Why not?

She's Edward's girlfriend dammit!

But she is not his mate.

And what, she's mine?

You know the answer to that.

I think back to the tugging sensation I felt earlier.

*Flashback*

Carlisle was sitting in his office at home studying a book. He looked up when I walked in and smiled.

"What can I do for you Alice?" he asked.

"Carlisle why don't vampires have souls?" I asked curiously. He seemed to ponder my question a few moments before answering.

"When I was living amongst the Volturi I learned of a legend long forgotten. The legend says that when we are changed we retain half of our soul. The other half leaves us to take up residence in the body of our true mate. It is supposedly why vampires are able to tell who our mates are. We feel the half of our soul left in our body pulling towards the one in our mate's," he explained.

"Is the legend true?" I questioned intrigued.

"I'm not sure my dear. Jasper, Emmett, and I know that we have found our true mates but we have never experienced the pull, unless it's a figurative one. It is possible the legend is just a myth of course and we truly have no soul. Or..." he said trailing off.

"Ugh! Fuck shit goddamn. FUCK SHIT GODDAMN," I yell.

Very mature.

"Oh fuck off."

Rude much?

Beep beep.

My Sidekick goes off in the pocket of my jeans alerting me that I have new messages. I take it out and unlock the screen.

Jazz: Hey darlin' come over to our place at 7! Em, Rose and Ed are going hunting but Bella will be here. See ya soon.

James: Wear your pjs biotch :*

I send a reply saying I would be there and lock my phone.

Bella would be there without Edward. The thought sent a thrill of excitement through me.

Oh get a grip. Nothing is going to happen.

Sighing, I walk into my bathroom to take a shower. I throw my clothes into the hamper and step into my rather large shower. I stand under the spray for a few minutes, letting the hot water warm my cold skin, before quickly washing. I get out and catch a glimpse of myself in the steamy mirror. Smiling I blow my reflection a kiss. Vampires can be a bit vain sometimes.

I decide to wear my navy blue sweat pants and white Harvard hoodie, since James said to wear pjs. I usually sleep in sweats, they're so damn comfy.

I check the time on my phone. 6:43. If I walk over at a human pace I should get there a little before 7.

I lock my door and slowly begin to make my way over, the fallen leaves crunching under my uggs.

I arrive exactly on time. Jasper and James never lock their door so I let myself in. As soon as I open the door I smell her. I follow her scent to the living room where I find Jasper perched on James' lap in the reclining arm chair, and Bella stretched out on the couch with a comforter draped over her.

Jasper is the first one to notice me.

"Hey darlin', now that you're here we can start the movie," he says getting up. I walk over to sit with Bella on the couch.

"What are we watching?" she asks, lifting up the comforter and moving over to make room for me.

"Saw V," Jasper answers popping it into the blu ray player. He shuts off the lights and goes back to sit on James' lap. I look over at Bella, she hates scary movies. She sees the concern in my eyes and gives me a reassuring smile.

20 minutes into the movie, Bella jumps in fear. She crawls onto my lap and wraps her arms around my torso. I stroke my hand down her back to comfort her and hear her heart beat quicken.

Interesting.

Experimenting I move my hand under her t-shirt to stroke her bare skin. Her breath hitches.

I dance my hand teasingly up and down her back. Her breathing gets shallower and I glance down at her. She's biting her lip.

Jesus Christ.

She's biting her lip and it's the sexiest thing I've ever seen. I want her.

Badly.

Fuck shit goddamn.

I still my hand and try to re-focus my thoughts but my mind has gone completely to the gutter. Jasper, probably feeling my lust, looks over in confusion. He takes in our position and gives me a shit eating grin.

Why is he smiling like that? He should be snatching Bella away from me.

He knows the truth.

I can feel my desire uncomfortably growing. I see Jasper shifting, before he gets up pulling James with him. His pupils are completely blown. Oops.

"We will be retiring for the night," he rushes out practically racing from the room. A grinning James salutes us goodnight, allowing his mate to pull him from the room.

"Horny vampires," Bella says chuckling.

I keep silent, closing my eyes to try to get back some control.

"Ali? You okay?" she asks turning her head to look at me.

I slowly open my eyes and she gasps.

"Ali, your eyes are pitch black! Are you hungry?" she asks nervously slowly moving off of me.

"Yes," I answer my eyes following her every move. She sees the way I'm watching her and swallows hard.

"Um, maybe you should go hunt?" she suggests scooting to the other end of the couch.

"I don't want blood." Relief flashes through her eyes.

"What do you want then?" she asks.

"You," I say. She has no time to answer before I can no longer hold myself back and lunge at her.