Hildy wondered how she could have ended up like this. Here she was *sleeping* with the man she loved, and she was totally miserable. Not really. She actually was enjoying Duo's company- He was amazingly sensitive, and a good conversationalist, but she had to admit that she'd been hoping that he'd make a move.

Technically he did make a move; He'd kissed her goodnight- on the lips. It had been... nice she decided, but it wasn't enough. Not enough at all to tell if he liked her... Like *that* She glared over at the sailor mercury plusshie Duo hugged, wondering why some inanimate objects got all the luck- "I thought we were friends, Ami."She sighed- not sure if she was really jealous of a little stuffed, blue haired ditz...

Maybe just a little.

Duo sighed in his sleep, and her heart stoped- just for a second. How could anyone, let alone a guy- be so beautiful? He was too. It was the only description that really felt right. Everything about him ws somehow both delicate, and strong, and oh so lovely...

I love him- she thought- and the realization startled her. I'm in love. Wow.....

Suddenly feeling bold, she leaned over and whispered into his ear...

"I love you."

It felt really good to say.

She smiled, and finnally lay down next to Duo.

Still sleeping, he reached out, and Hildy snuggled into his arms. It felt so good, they were a perfect fit; his chin resting on her forhead,the sound of his breath lulling her.

She was just this side of sleep, so she missed what he said the first time. It still had the power to make her cold though.

"What is it Duo?", she asked- scared.

He moned in his sleep.

"Poor sweet... It's okay", she whispered, kissing his forhead, thinking it a nightmare.

Duo moaned again, and this time there was no deneying this was a *happy* moan.

She grinned mischiveously- a sex dream. Well, maybe he did like her that way.

But as soon as she thought thet, she began to feel shy- there was just something wierd about being in bed with someone who was exited that way.

She carefully untangled herself and stood quietly,

Sadly, she was just quiet enough to hear Duo gasp, "Heero".

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Her knees almost gave out on her, but she managed to walk out the door before collapsing in tears.

She didn't know how long she'd been lying there sobbing noisily into her hands, when someone gently picked her up, and carried her off.

First she was convinced it was an angel, but to believe in angels, she'd have to believe in god, and he and she were fighting right now. The subject being a certain perfect soldier-, and murder.

In the end, she gave up guessing, whoever it was it wasn't Duo. That was enough; She'd be needing a little time to cool off before she could see him again- without killing someone.

Just thinking about him. She began to cry again. Her thoughts of him brought so much pain.

She felt the person set her on a bed, and gently brush the hair from her face. He began to pull away, as she drifted off, but she couldn't let go. She held tight until he too lay down, and cried herself to sleep just like that. Held in the person's arms.

Just before sleep took her, she came to the strange realization that she almost, almost felt okay...

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Well, that's the end of chapter one. I hope you liked it. This was my first real attempt a fanfiction, and I'm sure it won't be the last. Please critique this fic, because I know I have much improving to do.

Notes: No I have not made Duo gay, and I don't really plan on a 1x2 pairing. I don't really have much planned- This fic is kinda writing it's self. Every once in a while, it asks my opinion, but not very often yet.

Yes I heve been told that I'm crazy, and that's because I am. But I'm not crazy enough to write a chapter one without a two, so be on the lookout.

Until then, take care of yourselves, and checkout my poetry... Please?