Hey guys. This story doesn't really have a plot. Its mostly my view on how the Cullen family would deal with Bella's change to vampire. I hope you enjoy.
This chapter will fit well with the song: Mad World from the Donnie Darko soundtrack.
Her fingers were hard and almost painful as she gripped my skull with all the strength her little body possessed. She wasn't too strong, being Bella and being human, but it is the thought that counts. The fact that what she was going through made her use all her strength as her frail body spasmed.
If I had been in this position at any time other than right now, my control would have been lost and I would have been ravaging what was in front of my nose: Bella's bosom.
I had only been sitting on the bed, Carlisle and Esme across from me on the other side of Bella, when her arms shot out and grasped my head. She pulled her my face to her chest and proceded to pull at my head and hair. Carlisle and Esme gripped her wrists and wrestled her vice-grip off me. Once I wasn't sufficating (figure of speech) in Bella's wonderful chest, I pushed down on her torso, helping my parents keep her down.
I could hear Emmett laughing in my head.
Alice appeared next to me and started to wrap one of Bella's wrists in the leather strap that had one side covered in soft cushion. I realized the irony as Alice bound Bella in insane asylum straps. Above the grunts of pain that came from dear Bella below me, I asked "Where did you get those leather bonds?"
Alice smiled at me gently.
"Our friendly, nieghborhood insane asylum."
The image of the front of the building came into view, along with the path taken to break in and steal the bonds. I grinned in appreciation at my sister and gently spoke to Bella, attempting to relax her with my voice. I only recieved tears in return. My dead heart broke a little.
With the final strap tightened, Esme and Carlisle released my new wife. Esme pressed her hand to my cheek and the pair left the room.
"Edward..."
I barely heard her words. They were only a brush of air on her chapped lips. Before I went to her side, I grabbed a tube of Vaseline on the side table, put there for the very reason I was doing now.
As I smeared the jelly onto her lips, her jaw clenched. If my finger was in the way, she probably would have broken her teeth.
After I put the jelly down, I immediately put my elbows on either side of Bella's ribcage and buried my face in her torn neck. If I could cry, I would be right now.
I tried so hard to be gentle. I was slow when I bit her. I was steady as I drank her precious life force, my control being tested as roughly as the straps that now hold her wrists and ankles. When Bella's hand swept my back, I felt a jolt in my control. And when she bent her head and gave my own neck an innocent kiss, I snapped.
I was out only for literally one second. I restrained the beast inside me and pulled back. That single moment had torn the skin on her neck as my mouth buried deeper. I let her down on the bed, out of my untrusting arms.
"Edward... I love you. Don't worry... about it...I...forgive you.." Her breath was sweet and slow. I immediately brought the cup from the side table to her mouth. She swollowed the water eagerly and I noticed her silence.
" Bella? Does it hurt?" Emmett's voice hit my ear. Will she live? Carlisle and I were just about to pull you off until you came back. I glanced at him, his face was strained at Bella's human blood out in the open. My appreciation for him was great. My entire family offered to help us take care of Bella. Rose didn't volunteer; she just came along, but her lack of rebelling made me feel wonderful.
Carlisle spoke first, as he inspected Bella's neck. "No big harm. Nothing is damaged too much. It won't scar. Bella, does it hurt?" He repeated Emmett's earlier question. She nodded her head once. Her eyes were frantically shifting to our faces, her little hands balled into fists.
Carlisle brushed Bella's hair out of the wound; hair that had fallen out of the tight braid Alice wove to keep her hair in one place. My father's words were gentle as he spoke. "It's okay to scream."
Carlisle's words warmed me a little. He said those same words when he changed me. I smiled.
His comment was met with a furious shake of Bella's head.
"No... " She looked at me. "I won't scream...for you."
That was when the convulsions started.
My hands now rested on Bella's ribs, on top of her shirt. I ran my tongue over her neck. The bleeding stopped for the most part but her rapid movements opened the wound again. I licked her again and I tasted my own venom. The blood there was not as appetizing as before with the venom laced in. I could bet if I bit her somewhere else, the blood would still taste human.
The venom would also spread quicker.
On that note, I sat up. I glanced down at her left inner elbow and slowly brought my face to it. I only bit her this time, not sucking any of her blood. Although, I still licked my lips as I pulled away. I leaned over her and bit the inner of her left elbow. Her moan proved the venom was spreading there too.
I looked around and noticed everyone was gone, leaving me alone with her.
Her lack of screaming had caused her to be more violent, which is why Alice went and got the leather bonds. I leaned back up, resting more of my body on hers to restrain her more. I kissed her cheek.
"I love you, Isabella Swan Cullen."
She opened her red swollen eyes and looked at me.
And then she was out cold. I frowned.
Emmett, who came back into the room, gave out a laugh.
"She loves you too, man. Don't fret."
I continued to stare at her face. Her eyes were leaking their last tears in eternity, and she was experiencing one of the last sleeps she'll ever have.
Emmett hovered behind me. "How can she asleep through it?"
I brushed a stray hair from my beloved's forehead. "Bella was always a bit different."
I turned my head to look at him. "Where is everyone else?"
Emmett rubbed the back of his head and sighed. "Jasper couldn't handle it. He left the house with Alice to go hunt. He wanted me to tell you that he was sorry but the smell is too much." His eyes flashed to my hair and he grinned, bringing a hand to try to smooth it down. I smiled and glanced at the oval mirror on the other side of the room. My hair was standing straight up like static.
"Bells, I don't think Edward would appreciate it if you made him bald for eternity." Emmett said to Bella's unconscious form.
Emmett left once again. I pressed my face to Bella's collar bone and whispered. "Only two days, my love... two days..."
We brought Bella to Alaska, to a home we owned not too far from the other vegetarian family that lived here. The treaty with the wolves did not allow us to change her on Forks or La Push territory.
Bella had been bouncing in the car ride here, looking through windows and chattering. My family had only thoughts of happiness, enjoying her energy. Alice even perked up and they both were like chahuahuas on caffiene. It is supposed to take us about 50 hours to get there but it only took us about 26, with us going 110 mph. Rose's annoyed thoughts brushed my head but I ignored them. Everyone else was happy.
Except for me. As I watched little Bella's face flush with excitement as we passed a comical billboard, I felt my heart drop knowing that might be one of the last times I see it.
Alice let out a burst of laughter as Carlisle swerved the car a tad bit too sharply, and Bella was flung out of her seat; the vampires in the car hadn't moved a bit. Of course, I had noticed her seat belt was off so I immediately scolded her. But at the same time I was documenting that very moment of her humanity, her unawareness of her surroundings.
Proof that she was humen leaked out every second, literally. And as I watched her chatter with Alice, I hardened my heart.
I made a promise to the one I love, and that promise will not be broken.
Bella buckled her seatbelt with her right hand. Her platinum engagment ring glittered in the sun, the reflection hitting the ceiling of the SUV. Right next to it was her wedding band. Both rings had a band that looked like twisted lines, kind of like celtic knot-work. I closed my eyes and replayed the entire event of our wedding.
It was a fall wedding and it seems entire Forks was there. All of Bella's school friends and more where all there. Everyone. I found it ironic that though they were all there celebrating our union, they unknowingly celebrated Bella's condemntion to Hell.
Her dress was red and white. The corset top was entirely red and strapless. The bottom of the dress had a slight poof, but not obnoxiously so. Along the bottom seam, a red line went all around the dress.
Anyway, the dress didn't matter. What mattered was the woman inside. Charlie was in tears as her took her down the aisle, which set off Bella's tear ducts. I could hear Alice's distress that she would ruin the make-up but I could see my sister smiling.
It all went by in a blur and all happened too fast. Bella's mother was in love with me, her father partially approved of me, and Mike was so damn pissed. Ha, the day was perfect. But all good things end.
We went off on a two month "honeymoon." It is actually the time to try to change Bella and try to get her used to everything.
As we sat in the car, I was breathing in Bella's last of a human scent. I smiled to myself painfully. Bella wanted this. I would make her happy. Honestly, I would not rather die than change her. I just wanted to avoid it at all cost. Harden your heart, Edward.
I made a promise.
A week after I placed her wedding ring on her sweet finger, I sunk my teeth into her neck.
"Kill me..."
I stiffened. I did not want to ever hear her say it.
Esme immediately enveloped me in her arms and pulled me from Bella's side and throat. I felt a bit weak as my body shook in a short dry sob. Alice hugged me too and kissed my cheek.
"These aren't enough. For it to be quick, you have to bite her somewhere else too..."
I lifted my head from my mother's shoulder and looked up. Carlisle was inspecting the bites on her inner elbows.
"Where else?"
On her chest, as close to her heart as possible. Do you want us to leave? His thoughts came into my head and I nodded, not wanting to expose my wife when she wasn't aware.
Esme kissed my forehead and walked out with Carlisle. Alice hugged me, gave Bella's cheek a kiss, and followed. After she closed the door, I sat on the bed, on her side.
She was writhing in pain, grunting and bucking herself off the mattress. I pulled myself onto her, sitting on her thighs. Her legs couldn't move much now, but she was still trying to buck me off her like a bull. I pressed a hand to her sternum and used my other hand to try to pull the collar of her shirt down. It barely stretched.
I inhaled deeply, knowing what I had to do
You are her husband, she shouldn't fear exposure to you. I thought to myself. With no further thought, I pulled her shirt up.
I flung myself to my knees.
She wasn't wearing a bra. I closed my eyes and breathed in again. Why was I always in these awkward moments with her?
Her desperate sob reached my ears and I realized I had be strong against this. I kept my eyes closed as I brought my face to her sternum.
Being so close to her heart made my control quiver. My mouth dripped with venom, literally dripping onto her skin, with anticipation of her blood. I opened my mouth and closed it above her left breast.
Her moan told me it did the trick. I pulled a bit of blood from her veins but managed to pull away. She bucked up in a new set of convulsions. I pulled her blue shirt down and watched as the blood seeped through.
The venom must have hit her heart for the first time; a jagged screech emitted from her mouth. I jerked my head back from her and jumped off her legs. Emmett and Carlisle burst through the door.
You know she tried...she didn't scream for a long time... Carlisle's thoughts comforted me. Above her screams, Emmett yelled. " Bite her ankles!"
My father and brother grabbed either of her legs, holding them stiff at the knees. As I sunk my teeth shallowly into both calves, Emmett let go. The pop to my jaw and cheek bone made me jump up.
Sorry, man. I thought you were done. And DAMN she is visous... I grinned and nodded and turned back to my beloved Bella, feeling my heart just crush at the sight of her. Her hands were straining against the leather straps, her hands balled into tiny fists. She was on her feet, her knees bent and the entire lower half of her body was off the bed. The only part of her that was touching the mattress was the bottom of her feet, shoulders, neck, and head.
Her incessant sobs felt like a unsharpened knife hacking through the air.
"Kill me..."
It was barely a whisper, but we all heard it.
She doesn't mean it. Alice appeared next to me.
You know she loves you and wouldn't want that. My mother placed her hand on my shoulder the moment she walked in. Her gentle aura and thoughts calmed me but the shadow of self-loathing hovered above me.
Alice hurried to Bella's side and pushed on her hips, throwing her back onto the mattress. The screaming only continued, if not increased in volume. I flung my hands to my ears, but the sound still persisted.
"Alice, just let her do what she wants. She'll just tire herself out."
Alice let her go and Bella flung herself up again, screaming incoharent words. One word was recognizable as English.
"Burning...burning...burning...burning..."
This time, I couldn't put the fire out.
It is night. It is 20 hours since I first bit my dear Bella. She is currently unconscious on the bed, having tired herself out. She would be up in two hours at the most. I am sitting on the floor, across the room, leaned against the wall.
The silence was sacrecent. Though I couldn't sleep, I had my eyes closed and head tilted towards the wall. The sounds of the night creatures outside was comforting. I heard only the occasional moving of my family downstairs. The whispers of their thoughts brushed my mind, but I turned it off wanting to focus on the sounds of owls and coyotes.
I heard the small patter of feet and I opened my eyes.
Rosalie stood the side of Bella's bed. I opened my mind to her thoughts.
You look like Hell. You bled all over the place, too. She was holding her breath. The trouble you put this family through... All for this... She placed a fingertip (almost fondly) on Bella's cheek. If you hurt him, I'll rip you apart and burn you myself. Her smirk was not harsh.
Rose turned on her heel and walked towards the door gracefully. She suddenly stopped at the door way. She threw a look at Bella's form again and a last thought swept her mind.
With a smile, she thought Bitch.
Then she was gone. I turned my mind off again.
When Bella's vocal cords set off again at 5 a.m (22 hours after initial bite), I was ready. I flung myself onto her and lay on top of her, careful not to crush her lungs or break any bones. Wrapping my arms around her delicate frame, I begged her pain to pass. I begged what ever God was up somewhere watching to make her change go fast. Not just for her benefit, but for mine as well.
I couldn't stand watching her anymore.
My dead heart was crushed.
Man, I had fun with that. I'll put in one more chapter, but that is it. Not really much more to tell from there. Ask me any questions and/or tell me your thoughts in a review. I'll appreciate it. Constructive criticism is always welcome.
Peace out.
