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An AU from the point of veiw of a knight who survived the attack on the jedi temple. First fic no killing me cowers in terror lol
Iown nothing lucas owns all, i am making no money on this and suing me would be pointless anyway because i have no money anyway.
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Wandering the halls so familiar but so strange, I feel lost. Lost in the place I had called home for my entire life. The smoke still rises high in to the sky of the great city, it stings my eyes making them water. But I'm not crying, Jedi don't cry. Placing my hand against the cool stone wall I feel the tears slide down my cheeks mingling with the grime covering my face. "I'm not crying, I'm not crying" I repeat to myself, because deep down I know if my emotions leek, everything they had taught me would be a waste. I would remember the teachings of the masters before me; they would live on until I forgot them.
I will never forget.
"There is no emotion there is peace"
I chanted to myself as I slowly made my way to the entrance of the temple hesitant to leave behind my past and what I had thought was my future. Rounding a corner I stopped cold. The bodies of the younglings where strewn about the floor at my feet. A strangled sob escaped my throat and anger welled up inside me, making my stomach churn. I breathed deeply and let it out slowly starting the code again.
"There is no emotion…" but a nagging voice in the back of my head stopped me "peace is a lie, or do you find peace here among the bodies of children?" "No that's"… I started but was cut off again. "What do you feel hmm? Anger? Pain? Perhaps a need for revenge? Those would be emotions. If there is no emotion why do you feel this way?" "I don't know?" I replied truthfully, everything that I thought I understood was so completely wrong. Sliding down into a meditative position, I rested against the soot covered wall and thought about the code that I had lived by for so long.
"There is no emotion there is peace
There is no ignorance there is knowledge
There is no passion there is serenity
There is no chaos there is harmony
There is no death there is the force"
It had made so much sense before, now… It made none. If there is no ignorance then why had I been called such on so many occasions, if there was knowledge why did I not understand? I certainly didn't feel serene. I felt …
… Hatred, anger, a thirst for blood, and what scared me most was it felt good. It didn't feel evil like the masters had preached; it felt like everything I had bottled up had finally departed and only now was I left with a true sense of peace. So I let it run unchecked, and felt the need to kill fill me. I would hunt for those that had killed my family, striking from the shadows. For even if wrong in there ideals the Jedi had still been the only family I'd ever had.
I made my way to the entrance of the once grand temple, pulling up my hood I stepped out into the rain never even looking back.
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