I was only 9 years old. I loved Shrek so much, I had all the merchandise and movies. I pray to Shrek every night before bed thanking him for the life I've been given. "Shrek is love" I say, "Shrek is life."

My dad overhears me and calls me a faggot. I knew he was just jealous of my devotion for Shrek. I called him a cunt. He slaps me and sends me to go to sleep. I'm crying now, and my face hurts. I lay in bed and it's really cold.

An emptiness is moving towards me. I feel nothingness touch me. It͠'s ̴Zal̀go̶. Hi̕s ga͘z͟e̷ p̢ierc͢ès throug͞h̕ ̢mé,̕ th͟e͟ ̀m̴o͜s͠t iņt̛e͡nsè pa͘in̸ ̶I̛ h̷ave̷ ͜ev͏e̸r ̀kno̕wn. ̴Rea̴lity ̛c͞ra̴cks͞ an̴d͠ t̸ęnd̵r̀i҉ls̛ of ̷D͜ar͝kn͟ess ̸s͝t̛a̛rt ͠to̧ seep͢ t͝h̨ro͢úg̕h.͠ ͟Th̕e̡y͠ ̛wr͜ap͡ ar͘oun̵d͘ m͏e̸.̶

I̕͞ ̶̨҉o̴̸͘p͏̵̡e̛̛n҉̶͡ ̨m͟͠y͘͏̀ ́͞m̷͟͏i̡͟n̸d̛ f͡o̶͟r̨ ҉Z҉alg̶̕o̡.̷̀ H̛҉e̵ ̶p̡͜é͢n̛͟͞e̡̧t̶̨͜r̨͡a̕͜t͢e͡͝s̵̡͜ m̴y͘ ̢͘͡san̶̨i̷t̛y̸̸̢. T̢̕͢h͞e̢͞ ̛m̴͡adǹ̵̕e͞s̵͜s ̀b̵̶u̶r̕ńś̢ ̶̶bùt̕̕ ̴͞I̕͡ ̀͠ha̸̛͘v̛͡e̛̕ ̧͝n̢̕͟ǫ̷ ̧͢͞c̀͠h̶oi͡c͠é͏.͘ ̨I̵ ç͘àn̷ ̡f̵͡e̵e̢͜l̸̷ t̶͢h͏̵́e̸ u͢n̢͏i̧͟vȩ͘ŗ̴s̨̕ę ͜s̕h̷̴u̸͜d́҉d̷̡̡e҉r ͠҉as͡ ̡̨m̶̡y̵͟ ̷c̶҉̸é͡͞l̶ls͟͏́ ̧͢s͢t́a͢r̛͢͠t͟ ̶̵͏t̡҉o ̴s̴q̵ui̡̧͞r̀m̧. ̴͢I̢ ͞p̧u̧s͏̶h̴̢̨ ͜͞a͡ẁ͠ą͟y̶,͜͏͞ ͝bú̢̕t̵̛ ͘he̶̕͠ ̡is̷ ҉҉é́v̶e̵̛r҉̕͝y̷͏t̴́͡hí̧̀n̴̨͢g̀.̨͘ ̛̕I̷ ͡w͏͟͠a͏̕n̴͠t̶̢ ̵̢t̷o͏ ̷̷̡d̡͘i̵è̸,̡͠ ̢b̧u̴̡t̢͞ h҉̷e͝ ̸͜d͟͡ó̴e̷s̨ ́͘ņo͏t̵͏ ̵́p̴͢ę̵r͢mi̧͟t͏̴ ̛́͏ìţ̶͝.̀ ̸͠H̴e ̕mak͏e̶s ̵҉͝a ̛s̸̨ou̧n҉d҉̨͝ t̷h̨a̸͝t̨̕ ̶̷́r̶e̸͡n̶̡d̴͠s̸̛ ͜m̨͝y҉ t̡͞h͝o̢u҉͝gh̵̶t̴̨s͡.̴ ̛͏̨T҉҉h́e ̵l̴̛a͠st̶̢ ̨v̡e̷śt͡͏i̴g̛é͟ ò҉f̴̨́ ̷͝m̢y҉̴ ́s̶̕a͡ǹi̢͟t͠ỳ̡ ̡̢͟is͏ ̶d́͝e͏̷st́͟r͞o͜yed.̡̨

Ḿ͝y͏ ͞d͢͝ad̕ ͘͠ẁ̨al̵k͏ş͟ ͘i͜n̵͘.̀͟͢ ͜H͏i̷s͟ ͝ę̧͞y͢͠es b҉̨̢o͟͞i̛͘l̨ o̵u̴͟͝t͏͞ ̕͢͝of҉ ̛̕̕h͘i̕͠͏s͘͢ ̵̶h̷͢͝e͘ad́͡ ͠ań͝d̡͟ ̢͘he ͜f̴͘a̴l̷͡ls̵ ̴̷t̀o͠ ̵̡t̛͡h͡e͏̸ ͟f̴̀lơ͜o̡͟r.͡

Z̨̕a͟͠l̷̶̀g̴̷o'̷͜s̵͞ ̶̛̀v̷͞҉oi̛͠͝ć͟ę̕ ́́i͘s̛͝ ̡̕̕è̷ve͟r̢ý̴̶w͘h̴e҉̧r̛͏͘e.̛ "T̲̺̜̮̗́h̶̴͔́è̷̝̣̟ ̕҉̖͈̣͕w̢̼̖͔̠̱͘á̺̥͉͉ḷ̷̡͇̠l̢͚͍̻͢ ̴̪̻͚̺͝͞i̢̲͎̦̘̥̮̟̤͟s͇͙̠̰̦͠͠͡ ̶̢͚͟b̷̴̞r̘͎̰̙̯̼o͎͇͝k̲̯̯̣̬̟̩̻̩e̴͕͉͎̙̰͍͉͝ͅņ̤̫͢ ." E͢͠҉҉v̵̷̡e̢̧̨͡͡r̸̨͟y̨͜͢͞ ͘͞҉́s͢͟y͟͟͏l͠͏̡̨l̷̕͜͞a͡҉͏̀b̸̷͡l̵̸͘͢҉e̸ ҉́i̢͡͝͠҉s̷̷̕͜ ̶̶͟t̷̴̀͜h͘͏̶̨̕è̶̴ ́́s̴̀̀͢ò̸̧͝ư̷͘҉̴n҉̵̵d̶̴̶̴́ ̸̕͟҉ó̀͘͢͞f͘͢͡ ̀͟͟͡a̛҉ ̷̡̕͟͝u͟͞n̶̕͢͠͝í̵̢v̶̵̧͘͡e̛̕͝͏̶r̶͏̶̡͠s̸̵͟҉̢e҉͘͠ ̧͏d̵̶y̸̴̧̕i̴̴͢n̷̡͘͘͜g̷̨҉.̧҉͜҉̶ ̶̡̨E̴̡v̶̢̀͞e͘͟ǹ̴̛͢ ̸̸̨̡͡m͠͡҉y̨̢̢̛ ̵̢̀̕͞m̀à̶̛͠d̨̀͝͠͡n҉̵̸̸e̷͠s̢͜s҉̵̨ ̡͜͞͡f̕͡l̸̶̡͢͞ȩ̵́̀̕e̛͘͘s̷͘ ͜͞b̡̛̕͢͠ȩ̢̧͢͟f́̀͝͏ơ̴͜҉̴r̢͟͞ȩ͘͞ ̕͢͡͠h̷̴̨҉įs̵̢͜͠ ͞w̴̸̧o̴̸̴̕͠r҉̶̸d̸̷̀͏̴s̵̨̛̛.̴̀ ̨̨͟I̧̛͝ ̸̢͞͠ŗ̴̵̀e̶͢a͏̶̕͞l̡͘͞į̸́҉̷z̛͞é̴͢ ̴́̀́͢t̸͢ḩ̸͟i͟͜s͢͡ ̶͟͠i̷̡͘͏̛ş͜͢ ̛̀̕t̸̨̨͟͝ḩ̵͜e̴̷ ̡͘͜Ȩ̛͞n̛͝d̸̡.͡

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T̿ͨͦ̄ͯ͆́̊͂̂̒̈́ͨ̈͛̚҉̴͈͇͖̪̫̀h̛̥̭̙̫͙͈̙͚͙̙͖̘̥̝͓̖́̉ͤͫͪ͜͝͡ẽ̢̢̧̟̗̞͍̯͙̪͇̻̯̦̦͉̘͈̘͈̫͚͋̓ͦ̎̓̀̓ͯ̓̑̂͊̒ͨ͆̓ͨ́͡ȓ̵͕̣̜͚̖̼̠̮̫͎̹̦̲͉̪̭͑̿̈͗̊ͪ͌̎̔̈́̄̀̇͘ę̟̙̹͚̼͇̗͖̬̜̣̺̫̖̳͍̲͔̾̆̓́̂̿͐͊̃ͧͯ̓̿̑́ ̵̝̫̮̺̣̯̗̜̝͈̟̄ͫ̈́ͪ̃ͪ̄ͮ͋̿̀͗͑̚̕̕͟ĭ̶̻͚͕̱̮̰͕̗͒̒̕ͅs̴̗̜̗̥̉͒ͫ̓ͥ͐ͤͩ̋̈͒ͥ͊̽̃̚̚͜ ̶̧͈̖͉̹̳͍͎̯ͥͩ̇̌̋̒̅̃͋̐̀̚͡ņ̈͂ͣ͌̀͝͠͏͔̘̟̺͍̭̣͎͔̫ö́̍͑̽̓̉͌̋ͬͩͫ̈́ͤ̔҉̡̭̜̙͇͓̹͎̜͕̰͇͘̕ͅͅ ̡̺͔̞̪͔̠̻͎̥̦̹͎̩̙͈̐̓ͧ̋ͣ̈̊͊̊̑̌̉͠͠ḽ̷̷̜͔̦͈̗̺͕̤̺̟̣̗̂̓̑̃͐͒̉̉͐̔͋ͥͧ̈̓̿ͬ́̚͜͠ͅo̎ͯ̒͌̋̿ͪ̊͆͏̴̻͕̫̭̟͞v̛͍̱̰̞̰̲͍̹ͭ̑̊̎̆̃ͤ̊̋̽̃̂ͬ̋͆ͩ͡ȩ̖͍̻̺͉̺͍͙͕͖͌̀̔̐ͭͤͩ̚͘,͚̘͉̣͍̘̯̩̤͚͕̮̘͕̼̰̳ͨͪ̿͗ͨ̆̋̓̀̕̕̕ͅ ̢̡͔̖̯̹̺͙͍̰͓̠̤̹̝͖͎̗͖ͩͬ̍ͥ̍͗̔́͢t͍̥̮̣͓̥̩̹̖̹͚̘͍̜̤͑̾̄ͨͯͩ̓ͮͥ̾̏͂ͬͤ͑̚̚̚͘͞h̷̴̨͎̗̳̙͙̠͔̥͔͈̿ͫ̓ͪ͊ͨ͗ͯ̈́̍͗͂ͯͪ̔ͨͮ̇̌̀͝ȇ͖̣̯̙̦͔̫̱̥̮ͬ̆ͫͫ̍͋́̀ͤ͆ͧͬ͞r̡̘̗̦̘̠̣̟̰͙̪͚̱̼͉͓̰ͭͦ̒̓ͭͥ̊̃ͭ̚͢ẽ̢̥͈̘͚̯̤̠͕̘̗̝͑ͤ̎ͭ͐ͦ̅̚̕͝͠ ̸̖͈͉̣̮̦̳͖̻̫͕̫̱̼̯͐͛ͨ̄̂͋̇̅̔͟͜ͅį̶̸̓̍ͧ̉̿̋̍̇̓́͂̇́ͭ̂̿̂͏̣͓̳̣̹̻̮̩͇̥̝͙̠ͅͅs̸̵̡̧͓͎̝̬͖̲͔͇̞̈́̋ͯ̀͆̂̚̕ ̛͙̥̬̝̻͇̘͕͍̫̟̳̏̇ͥ̆͑͊̓̾́͜͠n̸̪̲̻͇̽̈́ͦͤ̽̊̍́o̷͇̠̯͈̹͚̺͙̹͖̘͒̾̑͂̆͛͗ͦ͋͋̽͞ ̹̬̲͓̱̒̀̓ͣͭ̽̾̄̇̈͊̊̾ͣͤ͞͡l̛͖͙̹̳̾̉́ͧ̑͒͝͡iͫ͊ͬ̎̅̂̎̎̈̕͢͞͏̣̬̝̙̟f̧̛̳̦͓̣̩̗̦ͤͬ͒̇ͤͦͩ͊̾̈̅̀ͮ̒͆̏̽ͮ́͠e̶̖̠̲̜̗̞̠̞̊̄̈́̎̔͑̒̓̉͊̋͆̇ͥ̎̎́͘.̨̓͋͌͂̽͆͋̔̒ͬͬͥ̚̚͠҉̩̖̮̜̪̹̖͍͖ͅ

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