Just a short Charmed-fic-thingy.
My first story ever published on - I have no experience with this site and I suck at writing FanFic's.
So, as a beginning, I wrote up something that could go through Phoebes mind in season 3 after NOT vanquishing Cole.
So yea.

Phoebe was alone at the manor, Prue and Piper were at P3 with Leo and she was sitting in the living room, alone. Alone was something Phoebe was getting good at being.
She recently lied about vanquishing Cole.
His name conjured out a big ache in her heart. She couldn't finish spelling out his name in her mind. It always ended up like Coaa… Coee… Colll…
His dark hair, his blue eyes, his laugh, his smile…
She got up and took a deep breath. She couldn't think about him right now.
"Fuck..." she mumbled. She decided to take a long bath and relax.

The bath did not relax her mind.
Practicing her martial arts did not take her mind off of him.
Trying to make up some new defensive potions did not help either; they just blew up in her face.
Trying to force out premonitions about their next attack, and that just made it all worse.

Her sisters thought he was dead. But Phoebe knew that he could come back any minute.
She knew that he could shimmer in and out whenever he wanted, he could show up any time.
She was afraid to sleep, in case he would show up at her bed as she woke up.
She was afraid to be alone, but she couldn't stand being 5 minutes with Piper and Phoebe.

Finally, she fell asleep. Even in her dreams, he couldn't leave her alone.
This time, they were travelling all over the world, killing demons, killing witches, having picnics, watching the stars, they were happy, as witch and demon.
She woke up and screamed, realizing it could never be like that.
She had to pretend that he was dead, her sisters thought that they had to "give her time, after all, she just had to vanquish her own boyfriend" and he had to never ever show up ever again.
They could just meet up in her dreams, but in real life, everything was just as grey and sad as they could ever be.

At the same time as she was thrilled that he did not die in front of her eyes, she was terrified.
Anything could happen, and Phoebe was aware of that.
But until that, she just simply had to lie.

#Charmed #Phoebe and Cole