Tribute to Ponyboy

By Yumi Koruda

Disclaimer: I do not own the Outsiders. If I did I would have saved Johnny and Dally would be having a house party with Steve and Two-Bit. Darry would be doing something Darryish. Sodapop would be a male model and taking pictures in boxers... if only.*sigh*


Ponyboy stared at the ceiling. Thinking. Johnny had died two days ago. The rumble was over and Dally was killed by the fuzz. Yet, nothing has changed. No best friend. No Dally.

Was?

He closed his eyes trying to sleep. He couldn't do it. Was this his fault? Was he to blame for everything? Was Johnny death caused by his mistake? Was this ... now? Was the future going to change because two people were no longer living? Was Johnny really dead?

Johnny...

Oh... Johnny. He was gone. The raven haired boy, burnt to crisp with a broken back, just disappeared. He placed his hand over his heart and let a tears go down his face. He began sobbing. He cried and started choking on his tears. He sat up and covers his hand over his eyes. Don't cry Pony. Don't cry.When the tears went away he sat there whimpering. Nothing came out of Johnny's death...anything...Nothing. Well maybe one thing. He and Darry made up. They were brothers now, no longer rivals.

Brotherly Love...

Sodapop sat up next to him. His eyes have shut has he stared at his kid brother."Gee, Pony, why you up so early?" he said.

Ponyboy looked at his brother. He closed his eyes."It's my entire fault, ain't it Soda," he stated not as a question.

Soda looked back at Ponyboy,"Nothin is your fault."

Ponyboy opened his eyes and rested his head on Soda's shoulder."Then who is it, huh, no one else is taking the blame," he said.

Soda put an arm around his brother."Well I will take the blame from you...You know Ponyboy...we are all here for you...me and Darry. Even the rest of the gang," he said while squeezing Ponyboy slightly.

"You have nothing to be blamed for though. It was me, all me," Pony whimpered.

"Neither do you," Soda said.

He looked at his little brother."Don't go making me feel all gushy, you here Pony."

Ponyboy smiled at Soda then let out a sigh. He lay down and Soda laid right back next to him. "Johnny would be proud," Sodapop said suddenly," Proud that you decided not to go and kill yourself."

Ponyboy laughed. He laughed as he did before Cade died.

"You know Soda... I think your right," but it didn't matter Soda had his back turned to him and fell asleep. Ponyboy scooted closer and cuddled into his big brothers back. He smiled to himself. Then fell asleep.

Are you peoples happy?

Yay!

-Katt