CHAPTER 1
I might kill you but please trust me
Merlin felt his fingers wrapped around Morgana's fragile throat. He stared intensely into her eyes and told her "I can feel evil growing inside of you Morgana and it's something I'm willing to stop, right now" His grip around her throat became tighter and tighter and Morgana had trouble breathing. Merlin had never before felt this anger or rage in his entire life. He watched her as she slowly fell to the ground, lying on the cold stone floor and her black curls covered her lifeless face. She didn't move at all.
Rapidly, Merlin opened up his eyes and was wide awake. He was almost hyperventilating and his body was full of adrenaline. What exactly had happened? That feeling of revenge and anger had left a persistent seed in his body. Was he really about to kill Morgana in his dreams? It didn't mean that it would necessarily happen but what if? Morgana's dreams always came true and maybe his would too. He had almost killed her before when he poisoned her but that was a moment when he had no choice. He'd rather not think about it. She's been gone for a year now and lots of thing could have changed, maybe she has changed. However, he knew that he had to warn and protect her – from himself.
He knocked on her door and heard Morgana saying "Please enter". Merlin opened the door and there she was, standing in front of the mirror while putting on a golden necklace. She looked incredibly beautiful, stunning, in fact. He couldn't help but feel this jittery feeling in his stomach when he glanced at her.
- Oh Merlin, how nice of you to greet me. What's on your mind? she said with a bit of suspicion in her voice as she turned towards him.
- Morgana, eh… My lady…
He took a few steps closer and he was standing right in front of her now. Merlin could feel her flowery, sweet scent entering his nostrils.
- Please listen, this might sound mad to you but I think… I think you need to stay away from me, I'm afraid I might hurt you.
- You know what Merlin, it doesn't sound mad at all. Last time I checked, you actually poisoned me. Thank you for the warning but I was able to figure it out anyway. I will stay away, believe me. And don't you dare try anything because I have powers that you could never even dream of. I've changed, Merlin.
- Come on, Morgana! I am only trying to help. I don't know what you're capable of, anything can happen in a year… but trust me, I can do you more harm than you could ever imagine and I don't want to put you through that again. I am truly sorry for what happened but I did what was best. Right now, I'm here to guide and help you with your magic. You can speak to me.
- Please, what do you know about this? What do you know about hiding your true identity? I'm done with this, Merlin! The caring and loving Morgana is way gone.
- Listen to me, I know more than you can possibly imagine! Most importantly, I know that the caring and loving Morgana is still in there somewhere. That sort of personality doesn't just fade away no matter what you've been through these past months.
He gently took her hand and held it. Morgana almost pulled hers back but regretted it and decided to let him hold her hand, just for a while. He stared into her green eyes. She stared into his blue eyes. There were sparks flying around them. He could feel it and she could feel it but none of them said anything. Merlin's hand started to get a bit sweaty and then there were these words, coming out of his mouth.
- Meet me tonight, right outside the gates and I will take you somewhere. Don't ask questions. I want to show you something.
- Really, Merlin? I should just meet you tonight right after you've come here to warn me that I should stay away from you?
- Well, just take a look at me. I could hardly do you any harm. Will you be there?
- I'm not a coward but if it's a trap or anything, then you're the one who should be frightened.
- Whatever, Morgana, just be there.
Merlin smiled crookedly and walked out of her room. He knew he had to see her tonight in order to protect Camelot and Arthur. If he didn't explain everything to Morgana, she might use her magic for evil and possibly cause Camelot a lot of pain. To be honest, perhaps he didn't do it in order to protect Camelot… he wanted to save Morgana, more than anything. There was this connection between them that he couldn't deny even though he knew that one day they might harm each other. He needed her to feel like she's accepted and that her powers could be used for something good. He had faith in her and that's why Merlin was going to reveal his true self, tonight.
