A/N: OK, so I am totally insane guys. I have had this thing floating around in my drive for a month. Plus another one that I started in the Summer. and I think I'll post them. I don't know how much longer this ship will last but I am gonna try and make it. I just keep getting these stories. they are AU/originals that I put familiar names to. This is the first one that I have started with their names expressly. I hope you enjoy it, tell me what you think, Just click that beautiful Gray button below and leave your comment. I love hearing from you and I miss you most of all! Yeah You! right there reading this. and for those of you who don't know? now you know! and if you like it Follow!- Come on.. don't be shy!- S.K.
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"You aren't into this." Beck said removing his mouth from my neck.
"Yeah yeah." I panted moving my hips a little to get this over with. I didn't want him not to get off just because I couldn't get all the way up. "Just keep going."
He sighed, and pulled away. I was relieved that he wasn't a selfish prick. He always thought of whether I was having a good time or not. "No thanks, I don't want a pitty fuck." He said and ran his hand up my thigh. Which I really liked anyway.
"You sure?" I asked. It isn't that he is not good. It's just that I am not a sexual person. I don't want to do it all the time. Sometimes it's cool.
"What I don't get, is how someone so sexy, can hate sex so much." He said pulling his Pajama bottoms over that perfectly tanned ass.
"I don't hate sex." I said. "I get into it after we start." I sat up and pulled on my Jeans, my underwear was ruined. the thing was I had been thoroughly hot and bothered before we started. I was watching porn with him and it was so hot.
"I think…" He started, then he stopped. He looked like he would cry. "Maybe, you're just not into me."
I rolled my eyes and wrapped my arms around him. "There is no man I would rather be with." I repeated.
"I know that…" He said. "Why do you think we watch lesbian porn all the time?"
My skin prickled. "Because it turns you on…"
"Because it turns YOU on. Jade… have you ever thought, maybe you just prefer what I prefer?" He asked turning to look in my eyes.
"I'm not gay Beck." I said
"What's wrong with that?" He asked.
"I love you Beck." I said. "You're my best friend."
"And you will always be mine. okay?" he hugged me.
"Can I stay here?" I asked into his chest. "Tori and Michael were having a session tonight because I said I was staying with you."
"Of course," he stated then a chuckle rumbled through his chest. "I can't believe the friends the two of you turned out to be." Tori and I were what you might have called frienemies when we were in high school. But when we graduated, something happened between us. We became close. I have been with her every day for the past three years. We were those annoying friends that argued like a married couple, and just lived in real synergy. That was until Michael came along.
"Laverne and Shirley." I joked back.
"Lucy and Ethel." He said.
"I am not Ethel!" I protested.
"Well you sure aren't Lucy." he laughed. I pushed him away and slapped his arm.
"Ow." He said and he bound me in his arms and pressed me against him. I could feel his erection against my ass. He inhaled then let me go. "You can have my bed, I'll take the couch."
I shook my head. this was way harder than I thought. "Nah… I'll go home, I mean, how loud can they be?"
"Jade, you don't have to leave." He said.
"Yeah… I do." I said as I finished dressing. I picked up my bag from the corner and Kissed him softly. "I'll see you soon okay?"
"Call me when you get home." He said and I nodded as I headed to my car.
My mind reeled on the way home. Was I really gay? I couldn't think of a time when I had wanted or noticed a woman... Unless they were in a porn. My mind flashed to a scene in the film Beck and I had been watching earlier and there was a shot to my groin as I imagined my mouth on that particular portion of flesh .
A loud car horn blasted and I came back to myself just before hitting a car in oncoming traffic. I swerved into a nearby parking lot and stopped my car. I took some deep breaths and looked around at where I was. "Fuck.." I said to myself and stepped out onto the cool night air.
"Hey... You okay?" I heard behind me. I turned and this girl wearing acid wash jeans and a green flannel shirt was standing there. Her blonde fro was cut in a stylish Mohawk and my brain returned to the video. My eyes undressed her and I began to wonder if she tasted like chocolate.
"Uh..." I swallowed. "Yeah."
She noticed my roaming eyes and laughed. "You should come inside..."
Inside? I looked up at the sign. 'Here' it read. What an odd name. "Okay."
I followed her in and she proceeded to hug a few people as she went along. I showed the bouncer my ID and reached for a ten for the cover. "You're with her right? It's all good."
I put my wallet in my bag and decided that I should probably stick with the girl. She turned to face me and smiled. "Regine."
"Jade." I answered.
"Like what you see?" She asked.
"Yes." I answered... And thought maybe I should apologize. But that just wouldn't be me.
"You wanna hook up?"
A thrill went right through me. I bit my lower lip as she moved closer to me. I stepped back. "I..."
"You're hella sexy." She said putting a hand on my abs. I looked around and finally it dawned on me that Here was a gay bar.
"I'm not...gay.." I started.
"You could have fooled me." She said, her hand moving to my hip essentially rooting me to the spot.
"I don't know that I am..."
She smirked, "I'm not asking you to move in. You looking to find out about yourself?" I nodded and she kissed me. Suddenly the air got thinner, and I got lightheaded. My insides burned with a want I had never experienced before.
We ended up in the bathroom she had me pressed against the door, and I couldn't breathe. She was everywhere, yet there wasn't enough of her touching me. It was hot. She reached in my jeans. "You're naughty,"she mumbled as she stuck her finger inside me. "Where are your drawers?"
She moved inside me and I lost my self control. This, was what I had been missing. I was gay. I am a sexual being. I saw stars as I closed my eyes. My hands burned at my sides. I didn't know what to do with them. "I'm real, you can touch me." She whispered in my ear as her other hand pulled my jeans down.
My knees turned to jello as her lips found my neck again. She pulled my legs further apart and inserted another finger. I moaned and reached out to hold on to her. I let myself stop thinking. I had never lost control like this. Instincts took over and I found myself feeling her body. " oh my god." I groaned a I pinched an erect nipple this was heaven.
"That's it." She whispered against my skin. "Just like that."
I explored her in a frantic tangle in that bathroom stall, and she helped me find things about myself at I thought didn't exist. Like I really like boobs. no... I love them. I like soft thighs and round hips and soft lips on my skin. I liked the feeling of a woman pressed against me. As got home I realized, I loved... Victoria.
When I got home, they were still at it. It was loud, and wild and my insides felt as if someone had taken them and tied them into knots. I wanted to hurt Michael. This is how I knew, or understood why I always chose Tori over Beck. He knows it. That was why he let me go. "Fuck! I growled and headed toward the couch. Because if I went into my room, I'd hear even more.
I dropped down on to the couch and turned on the TV. Immediately the grunts were muffled. I turned on my favorite movie. I needed to see blood and guts. I was in a murderous mood. After about twenty minutes. Asshole walked out of Tori's room stark naked as if he didn't know I was here.
I just know he thinks I'd be mesmerised by his hotness and join them or something moronic like that. "Oh, Jade!" Tori said startled as she came out behind him. She was naked too, and not that I hadn't seen it before, but the vision did me in.
I looked between the two of them, Michael acting as though he was covering his tiny prick. And Tori, with her face becoming a little more alarmed. That's when I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. "What's your deal?" Michael said.
I got up and ran into my room. I couldn't talk. I needed to think. I didn't know how to explain the pain I felt inside. "Shut up Mike!" I heard her say as I shut the door behind me. They had an arguement, I didn't care why it didn't matter, it made me feel better.
I stripped down for bed, and pulled on some underwear and a tank top. And got ready to pretend I was asleep. Because I knew, that once Michael was done being an asshole, Tori would be here trying to comfort me and I still wouldn't know exactly what to say to her.
Sure enough, about after a half an hour of arguing I heard. " I'm not doing this right now Mike, just leave. I'll see you tomorrow or something."
I sighed and closed my eyes. I prayed that she didn't ask me anything. She opened the door to my room and stood at the threshold for what seemed like forever. I tried not to move. But I knew I wasn't fooling her. "Cut the crap Jade, I know you're not sleeping."
"Let it go Tori." I said, my voice cracked from misuse.
She moved closer to me and lay behind me in the bed. She held me and my hormones went bezerk. "You don't have to tell me what happened. Just let me be here for you." She said and her breath on my neck, made my heart rate go up. My breath got shallow and I wanted to run, but her thighs were bare and rubbing against the back of mine. "Cry if you need to."
So I did, because I needed her so badly. She began to rub my back. I needed her to stop. But I knew she wouldn't if I didn't say something. I scrambled for a reason and I opened my eyes and saw a picture of Beck and I. "Beck and I broke up." I said softly.
"Oh..." Was all she said.
"We're cool though... It just kind of hit me... You know?"
She nodded and kissed my shoulder. "I'm sorry." She kissed my shoulder again and rubbed my arms as if she were trying to keep me warm. Such a maternal thing to do that had turned my insides aflame. It was torture. "There are other guys," she said.
"Yeah..." I answered. She tightened her grip on me, and she held me, encouraging me to deal with a grief I didn't feel. She held me until she slept. I turned in her arms and I looked at her. My mouth watered thinking about her plump lips.
I remembered what I had done earlier that night with Regine, and relived it only this time I saw Tori's face. I bit my lip to keep from moaning aloud and I reached into my underwear working on myself careful not to jostle the bed too much. I watched her sleep I looked at her bare thighs and her tiny pink panties taunting me her lips so close to my face and her neck exposed. I leaned forward and inhaled her. I held her scent in my lungs for as long as I could. I came onto my hand and I sighed my cry of release. It was exhilarating to do this with her right next to me. Oh jade, you're so sick. I thought to myself as I brought my soaked fingers to my mouth.
Tori shifted in bed and flipped to face away from me, and I wrapped my arms around her bringing myself as close to her as I could. My face immersed in her hair, I inhaled her once again and finally I was able to sleep.
A/N: I know totally freaky right? Ick. Jade is kind of intense in this one, my bad! I mean you should read the next chapter Yowza! Ill be posting that one NEXT Wednesday! SO watch for it. Much Love!- S.K. (subliminal message: If you like it then you wanna click Follow... right there... yeah right there! oh yeah... that's naaaiiiiiiccceee)
