The punching bag felt so good. To finally get all those emotions out, that felt good. My anger, frustration, disappointment, and fear all could finally be released. It was a much-needed break from life, there were some things even kissing Kurt couldn't fix.

My moment was ruined, however, when I heard foot steps out side the room. My eyes narrowed as Finn came into view.

Great,becausethisdayjustneedstogetworse! I thought.

Finn started talking, but I barely heard him. I just felt my anger building up. It wasn't meant to be like this, I wasn't supposed to feel threatened, or frustrated, most of all angry at McKinley. It was my safe place it had to be. If I wasn't here I was at home, and home was not safe. I couldn't take it so I exploded.

"What's your problem with me anyway!" I burst out. I knew there was no going back to "Dapper Blaine" mode anymore.

"Ever since I've know you I've been nothing but nice to you, and helpful during glee, but what do I get in return? Sit down Blaine, Shut up Blaine, This isn't the Warblers Blaine so your opinion doesn't matter!"

Finn gave me a sad sort of smile, which made me even angrier, if that was possible.

"I guess I was a little…jealous, maybe". Finn looked up at me.

Okay,that'sunexpected.I thought. Someone, who wanted to be me? I was completely bewildered, until I realized what I seemed to be. Rich, smart, funny, talented, dapper, polite, spoiled and with an amazing boyfriend. I almost laughed out loud.

"You can sing, dance, act, everyone loves you, and hell you've even kissed Rachel! How could I not be jealous of you?" Finn said, sheepishly.

I knew he meant it, and I forgave him. I wasn't as mad at Finn. I realized at that moment the person I was most frustrated with was myself.

After I made up with Finn I walked over to the bench in the training room. I removed my gloves and sweatshirt, it was soaking wet anyway. I stared at my hands, thinking hard about my emotions.

I was angry at Finn right now not because he had shot me down continually in Glee. I was made because Finn was braver than me. Finn was braver because he had the balls to admit he was jealous of me. I was a coward because I wasn't brave enough to let him know how jealous I was of him.

Finn was the one that had it all. Friends, leadership, respect. He had those. A clear conscience and a body that wasn't scarred from the time his bullies went too far. Most importantly, Finn had a home. A home with parents and a brother who loved him for who he was, unconditionally. That's what I was the most jealous of. Family.

Dad is never home, and when he is, he's distant. Mom isn't much different. Stirling is away at college to become a lawyer, Dad and Mom couldn't be prouder. Chad is 2 years younger than me, and receives all the attention. Dad and Mom couldn't spoil him enough. They love me deep down, I can tell. They just have a hard time…coping. I can't help but be jealous of Finn, of what he has. I'm even jealous of Mike, because at least he got his Dad to come to Sectionals. When all the Glee members went to hug their parents, be congratulated, and receive flowers, I talked to Sebastian. I got a hug, but not one like the kind I longed for.

Because even after everything I've been through I'm still Blaine Anderson, the scared, jealous, coward.