*Hi guys! Welcome to this new fanfic. So as you can tell from the description, I'm not a Westhawne shipper. I hated their relationship. Sadly that ship is important for this story but I'm not doing what you might think. I will interpret the Westhawne relationship as I please. The way I may interpret it may not be to your liking. I will also explain how Eddie survived and didn't die. But yes he did shoot himself but didn't die. Everything will be explained.

(Barry's POV

I sit on the steps quietly. I thought I'd feel comfort and peace after zoom was defeated but I don't. I just feel grief. Heart breaking grief. His death was my fault. I hear the door open behind me and some sits down beside me. I look over. It's Eddie. "You okay?" He asks. I nod. "When I shot myself, I felt the same way you do now. Unending grief. I never thought Caitlin would manage to find a pulse when you discovered me. I mourned myself. I should've died." He says. I look at him. The pain in his eyes makes me feel for him. "It gets better. Your pain will go away eventually." Eddie says. "I don't think it will." My voice shakes. Eddie sighs.

We sit outside for a long time. Then the door opens. Eddie and Iris exchange looks and he nods. He kisses her and then gets in his car. She sits beside me and hugs me. Finally I break down. A choked sob comes from my lips and then the floodgate breaks. Iris holds me as I cry. "I miss him. I miss him so much already." I sob. "It'll get better. I promise it will." Her voice shakes. She lets me sob on her shoulder. "I-I never got to tell him I loved him one last time." I sob. I'm crying for my dad. I have nobody. Not even Iris. She's with Eddie. She gets to be with him while I have nobody. She tilts my head towards her and wipes away a few tears. I see an unknown emotion flash through her eyes. Something I had never seen before from her to me. Love