Bernadette sat at the end of the table in the doctor's office, clad only in a hospital gown. A nervousness formed inside of her already nauseated stomach as she impatiently waited the physician's arrival. She knew what it could be…what it most likely was, but that did not stop the knots from tying themselves over and over again. It was true, Bernadette was not fond of children, but that being said, she was not completely against the idea of having one of her own. In fact, it was what she wanted to give her Howie most in the entire world. However, the road that lead her to this point was what truly made her nervous.

It was right after they were first married that Bernadette discovered she was pregnant. Fear overcame her as she felt uncomfortable, unqualified and unfit to become a mother. Howard had found her in the bathroom sobbing over the test. He pulled her into a tight embrace and stroked her hair as he assured her that there was nothing to worry about. Only three days later while Bernadette was at work, she felt the most crippling sensation in her abdomen. She braced herself against the wall until she reached the bathroom, by this point it was apparent that she was having a miscarriage. Bernadette grabbed the phone out of her white lab coat and called Howard. He again found her sobbing on the floor of the bathroom, apologizing to him over and over again, blaming herself for the loss of their baby. From that point on she was determined to give him a baby.

Howard and Bernadette began trying again after they had been married a year and with much luck they were able to conceive within the first three months of trying. The couple remained cautious and did not tell a soul until a week before the second trimester. The two were on their way to Leonard and Sheldon's apartment, ready to tell their friends the wonderful news, but as Howard pulled into the parking lot an uneasy feeling hit Bernadette. As she stepped out of the car, a small trickle of blood trailed down her leg, and the cramping began again. Howard drove his wife to the hospital, like a bat out of hell, in a chance that they could save the tiny fetus inside of her. However, once they entered the emergency room both knew it was too late. The pair took a year to recuperate and began trying again, this time with no luck, Bernadette could not seem to get pregnant. Soon it became very obvious to their friends that a Wolowitz baby was in high demand. It was a frustrating journey for both Howard and Bernadette, but Bernie took most of the impact.

One night they were having dinner with all of their friends when Leonard and Penny embarrassingly announced that she was accidently pregnant. This hit Bernadette like a freight train, but she pretended to be happy for her friend. She was silent the entire car ride home, which worried Howard more than anything. As they crossed the threshold into their home, he asked looming question…

"Bernie, are you alright?"

Bernadette burst into angry tears, throwing a fit about how it wasn't fair and that he should just leave her and find a wife that could actually give him a baby. Anger bubbled inside Howard Wolowitz's face, how she could think that was a suitable choice was beyond Howard. He didn't want a baby from anybody else and he sure as hell wasn't going to find another woman who was half as perfect as Bernadette was, he couldn't listen to her talk like this anymore. At this point Howard began screaming at her begging her to take back every word she said. Soon his screams turn into sobs realizing he yelled at the only person who felt the same hurt he did. She ran into his arms as he muffled his cries in her hair, holding her tight as if she were going to dissolve into this air. Both Howard and Bernie laid on the bed that night, cradled in each others embrace, simply crying until they passed out from emotional exhaustion.

Now, three years later Bernadette found herself in the same situation, only this time without her Howie by her side. He was off on another space exploration, this time through his own country. Bernadette had thought about asking one of their friends to come with her, but if she was pregnant, she couldn't imagine not sharing the news with anyone but, Howard first. Also, they were all very busy with their own lives, she felt bad bothering them. Penny and Leonard, now married, were occupied by two year old, Peter and were expecting baby number two sometime is December. Raj had finally settled down with a nice girl from India, named Layla, who had two sons of her own. They were expecting their own baby around the same time as baby Hofstadter. Even Amy and Sheldon were busy creating their own odd little family, through artificial insemination, simply so Sheldon could prove to Leonard that his spawn was superior to his. Amy was due to have twins perfectly in sync with her bestie.

With baby fever taking over her friend group, Bernadette longed to be pregnant with a child of her own. However, her fear outweighed her want. What if I miscarry again, she thought, I certainly couldn't handle it without Howard. Just then the doctor entered the room holding the file of her blood work.

"Well, congratulations Dr. Rostenkowski-Wolowitz," she beamed "You're pregnant."

Bernadette fell into the most calming state of shock that she had ever experienced. She didn't remember getting dressed, leaving the hospital, or even arriving at home. Time was no concept to her until a Skype call from Howard happened to burst her blissful baby bubble. Bernadette listened to her husband intently as he spoke of space. The entire time she was simply itching to tell him their good news, but keeping quiet, not wanting him to worry that something might happen again, resulting in an awful outcome. She pondered this thought until he interrupted her thinking with a concerned comment.

"Bernie, you ok?" his face full of worry.

"Never better," her sweet voice sang out, "just sleepy."

The two exchanged 'goodnights' and 'I'll miss you's' before signing off and going back to bed. Bernadette couldn't believe herself for not telling Howard, but then again she wanted to be able to really share the moment with him and not over a web came. It would be her little secret until he arrived home. That night Bernadette slept cradling her soon-to-be not so flat tummy, with the little Wolowitz inside.