This is a songfic to the song No Love by Simple Plan. This idea has been pestering me for a long time, so I decided to silence my muse and just write it. I intended this to be a one-shot, but the second chapter has started to write itself... we shall see where it goes.
Please read and review - reviews are my coffee and I am Daniel.
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters, nor the song. *pouts*
Pairing: Sam/Pete (NOT a S/P story), Sam/Jack
Enjoy! : )
No Love
Staring out into the world across the street
You the way your life turned out to be
Samantha sat in her rocking chair by the window. She looked across the street at the neighbors, the Mulligans, were having a barbecue with their two daughters, Gwen and Elizabeth.
I wish I could have what they all have, She thought to herself. How did I end up like this?
He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learn to hold the things you want to say
Your always going to be afraid
She heard his car pull up. She was instantly scared, but didn't say a word. He opened the front door. He. Her husband. Pete. So many things she wanted to say to him, but she held them all back. Tears stung the back of her eyes as she went into the kitchen to serve their dinner.
There's only
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
They sat across from each other at the dinner table, their daughter in her high chair beside Sam. Sam didn't say a word, neither did Pete. They just listened to Grace babble on and stared at their plates.
Sam quickly cleared the table. She took Grace out of her high chair and carried her to her room. Sam locked the door behind her and sat down on the floor. She stared down at her beautiful daughter.
The only thing I've gotten out of this situation. The only thing that makes it worth getting up in the morning.
She started to cry, silent tears rolled down her cheeks. She rolled up her sleeve and gently massaged her bruised arms. She winced as Grace pressed up against her shoulder.
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Sam unlocked the door and stepped outside of it. She closed it softly and walked into the living room.
"Grace is asleep. I'm tired, I'm gonna go to bed."
"No you're not," he replied, his tone harsh. "Would you like to tell me what this is?"
He held up a folded piece of paper.
"It came in the mail for you yesterday."
"You opened my mail?"
"It was a precaution. You're lying to me Sam, why would you do that?"
"I'm not lying!"
He slipped the paper back in the envelope and handed it to her.
"Yes you are. Explain this."
She looked down at the envelope and saw the words, 'To Carter', and instantly knew who it was from. She eagerly took out the letter. Her eyes skimmed across it.
"Carter--
I can't remember the last time I saw you... I think it was at your wedding.
I know I said some things to you that day that I didn't mean. I never meant to destroy our friendship... but you know how I am. My temper gets the best of me and I say things I never meant in the first place.
I want us to talk again. I want us to still be friends. I miss your company.
Write me back, please, if you think we can be friends again, if you want to be friends again.
Jack."
She looked up from the letter. "Why do you think I'm lying?"
"You've been talking to him!"
"I haven't!"
"Don't lie to me!" He screamed as he pushed her across the room and into the wall. She slid down to the floor. She put her hand to the back of her head and felt .
"If I ever catch you having any ties with him again... you'll live to regret it!"
With that, he stormed out the door and slammed it shut. Sam heard Grace start to cry. She walked into her room and picked her up. She calmed her down, got her back to sleep and went into her bathroom.
She tried her best to clean herself up, she knew she couldn't see a doctor for fear that they'd find out what he did to her.
Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk they would have so much to say
Cause every time you fight the scars are gonna heal but their never gonna go away
She didn't know how it had happened in the first place. Everything was wonderful. She had Grace and dreamt of how wonderful a family they'd have. But soon after she was born, things started to go from bad to worse. He'd come home drunk after work. He yell at her, but he never laid a hand on her.
A few weeks passed, and he came home again. This time he slapped her across the face. Hard. Every time it had gotten worse.
She never told anyone. She didn't have any friends to tell, she couldn't let anyone see. She hid the bruises and cuts with makeup and told everyone she was fine.
There's only
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
She felt more tears falling down her face. She wished she was happy, prayed that someday she would be.
She was so confused. He was supposed to be the safe bet, wasn't he? Give her the fairytale life she'd dreamt of when she was little.
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh no So what will you do?
She crept up off her bed and grabbed the Jack's letter from the living room.
"I want us to talk again. I want us to still be friends. I miss your company."
She read the words over and over again. 'I miss your company.' He missed her. He didn't care that she'd locked herself into an awful relationship, one he knew wasn't right for her. He wanted to be friends. He missed her.
And, to be honest with herself, she missed him too. She wanted him to be a part of her life – more than anything. She gave up everything she had for Pete and he showed his appreciation by hurting her.
By little pieces of her heart one at a time until she was numb. Until she didn't care about anything or anyone anymore. She never wanted that to happen. She didn't want to be numb.
She wanted Jack.
Your falling, your screaming
Your stuck in the same old nightmare
She was stuck. Stuck in the same nightmare day after day.
And it wasn't just her. It was Grace too.
He's lying, your crying
There's nothing left to salvage
She tried to forget the letter. Grace started walking and Sam tried to hide her unhappiness. Until that night.
That fateful night. Grace was playing in the kitchen. She got out some pots and pans and started banging them together. Pete got annoyed with her and asked her to stop. When she didn't, he started to yell. Sam ran out of her room and watched in slow-motion as he knocked Grace to the floor. He kicked a pan across the floor and ran out the front door.
Sam raced over to Grace. She wasn't hurt badly, but she was crying hard.
Sam snapped in half. She knew she couldn't take it anymore. She had gotten herself into this situation, but Grace. Grace was an bystander.
Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here
She ran into her room and grabbed her purse and Grace's diaper bag. She went into the garage, buckled Grace into her car seat, and drove off.
And she knew exactly where she was going.
There is no love here...
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