Disclaimer: i do not own Twilight. If I did the books would be about Leah, because she's so much cooler than Bella.

Warning: Some swearing and angst.

A/N: The song is Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson. It fits Leah perfectly. I know it's not that long, but I think I pretty much got it all covered. I feel bad for Leah. Sam's an idiot.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Everything had been so right, back then. Everything had been perfect. We were engaged and happy, our future had been lying ahead, waiting for us. Everything was going to be perfect. We were going to be together forever, happy forever.


Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I thought you were the one. I thought we were going to be together forever. Now, you're happy with her, while I'm here, in my room, crying because of you. You're happy, I'm not. We were going to be happy together. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I wasn't supposed to be crying because of you – because you fell in love with someone else.

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

You were perfect. I let you see the deepest core of my soul, I told you everything. We had no secrets. I trusted you. I have never let someone in, that way I did with you. I have never trusted someone the way I trusted you. But you betrayed me. You hurt me.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

I have to watch you. I have to see you with her, the woman who you betrayed me with. My former best friend. My former sister. You betrayed me with my best friend, my sister, and now I have to watch you, being happy and all. I have to watch you cuddle, I have to watch you kiss, I have to watch you. I have to be around you. I can never get away from you. You're always there. You're always inside my head. You're always there, just not for me.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I won't let you see my tears. I won't let you see how much you hurt me. I won't let you see me like this. But you're always inside my head. You can always see the things I see. I know you regret, I know you didn't mean too. I know you didn't do it on purpose. I know you didn't have a choice. But it fucking hurts anyway, Sam.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

A/N: Anyway, review. Please?