Jealousy
They say that I am more blessed than my brother. I don't think it's true.
Most people don't know it, but I'm really jealous of nii-chan since we were kids.
He was not taken from our house by Grandpa Rome so he's always near Holy Roman Empire. Not that I did not like traveling with Grandpa, it's just that Holy Roman Empire's my best friend and I would miss him so badly and I wouldn't be able to share gelato with him or pasta or anything!
I always wondered if they played with each other back then . . .
The other nations say me and nii-chan are weak but that's not true! During the time we were conquered by Austria-san, nii-chan defied him all the time. (Well, nii-chan still got beaten, though.)
But nevertheless, he spoke his mind like it was nothing and didn't do anything what Austria- san ordered us to do. How I wished that I could voice out my opinions and challenge our conqueror like nii-chan. Then, we got separated again.
I got a bit jealous when nii-chan got to be with Big brother Spain. Spain-nii-chan was nicer than Austria-san (Austria-san is nice too but not always). He had better treatment longer than me! And he always gets plenty of tomatoes. And he got Spain-nii-chan to help him with the chores.
I'm jealous that he was fortunate that he didn't see Grandpa's scars like I did.
I'm jealous that nii-chan didn't see Grandpa die.
I'm jealous that he didn't get to be bullied as much as I did.
I'm jealous that he can say his opinions better than me.
I'm jealous that he was treated better than me before the unification.
I'm jealous that his lover is more open than mine, sometimes . . .
Actually, there are a lot of reasons why I'm jealous of Nii-chan. Too many to be counted.
Even if I am jealous, I really love Nii-chan very much! He is my only living family. I like it when he smiles and I don't want to see him to get hurt. I'll do anything to make him happy. Even bear his burdens and pain.
See, Romano? You're blessed, too.
Author's Notes Aru:
Pls. forgive my crappy attempt at angst. I'm no writer, I'm actually a visual artist and this thing is not even edited much. (mocks herself in a corner)
This thing just popped in my head last night and author has to get rid of it, yes?
Pls. don't flame me and do not point out the mistakes cuz my little bro is already rubbing it in.
Anyway, let's put history aside, okay? I have no idea about Italy's history so I do not know who got better treatment. For this story's sake, let's just say Feliciano is jealous of Lovino and he doesn't even know that the other is envious of him. (that's confusing I think . . .)
Well, in Hetalia, Spain is nicer than Austria so Romano did get better treatment (sorta).
And I love Romano! he needs more love! Must find more Spain/Romano fics . . .
Hetalia is not own by me.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
Reviews are nice.
