A/N: SO I was having heavy Wolfstar feels. That's happening to me recently. So, honestly speaking, I am myself not sure what is this, but it is something.

Disclaimer: Had I owned it, Remus and Sirius would have survived.


When Remus Lupin left Hogwarts in 1994, he did not expect to see Sirius any time soon. Or so, he hoped.


"Hey Moony!"

Young Remus turned to look at a fifteen year old Sirius. The grin on his face was maddening. And that meant trouble.

"What s it Pads?" Remus asked.

"Who's the love of your life?" Sirius asked cheekily. Remus felt his cheeks go pink and his hands trembling.

"Wh-What are you talking about?" Remus asked, trembling.

"Oh, puh-lease Moon." Sirius pouted lightly. "I saw the scribbling in your notebook."

If possible, Remus turned redder. "I have no idea what are you talking about."

"Does James know?" Sirius asked, grinning.

Remus remained silent.

"Does anyone know?" He grinned.

Remus looked around and literally shoved Sirius in a nearby closet, books laying on the ground.

"Oopsie! The moon's not even close and you have mood swings." Sirius laughed. God, it was so enchanting!

"Sirius, if you speak a word about this to anyone, I promise you it will be the end of you." Remus hissed and Sirius actually stopped laughing.

"Wait, you are serious about a person?" he asked, clearly shocked. "Does she know?"

"It's not a she." He muttered.

The two stood in silence till Sirius gave out a weak chuckle."I didn't know you bent that way."

"I bend both way." Remus answered, not meeting his eyes. Finally, he left Sirius' collar and said, "you are not speaking about this to anyone."

Saying so, Remus went out, picked up his books and walked away, leaving a confused Sirius.


Remus was just smiling at the memory as he opened his cottage's door. The food package dropped from his hands as he saw a large black dog sleeping at his table's foot.


"You have a crush?" Peter asked, nibbling his toast. Remus' hand stopped midway and he turned to look at Sirius who was hiding halfway inside James' robes. James meanwhile., just laughed.

"Sirius!" Moony hissed and Sirius hid his head further into James' robes. A few seats away, Lily watched the exchange with interest. As James winked at her, she groaned and turned away.

"And it's a guy?" Peter added. Remus kept his toast back in the plate and looked straight into Peter's eyes. "Yeah, you have a problem?"

Peter gave an involuntary shudder and James frowned.

"Remus, we were just joking."

"There are some things you are not supposed to know, James."

"Well, you tried hiding your furry little problem and it didn't work." Supplied James.

Before Remus could come up with a clever reply, Peter asked, "Is it one of us?"

All color left Remus' face. James' eyes widened in horror as Sirius immediately took out his head.

"Oh my God it is one of us." Muttered James. "Please tell me it is not me, I am in love with Evans!"

Remus refused to speak. He kept glaring at the toast, maybe hoping it would start burning and the attention was off him.

"Is-is it me?" Peter squeaked.

Remus knew the cat was out of the bag. His head involuntary shook. Two pair of eyes trailed to Sirius who had not yet understood what it meant. As he saw the two staring at him, he asked, "What?"

As the realization finally sunk in, Sirius' eyes widened and he was left speechless. Remus leapt out of his seat and ran away, clearly not wanting to face his friends.


"Si-Sirius?" Remus muttered shakily. The dog's ears pointed up and it opened one of the eyes. One of the beautiful grey eyes.


"REMUS!"

Remus didn't stop but kept walking. Three days had passed since that fateful revelation and Remus was in no mood to be confronted by Sirius.

"For the love of GOD, REMUS TURN AROUND! TALK TO ME!" Sirius shouted but Remus paid no heed. He dug his hands deeper into the robes' pocket.

He didn't know when, but sometime suddenly he was strongly grasped by his shoulder and flung into a broom closet.

"What the-" He was cut off as Sirius lips' pressed into his. Remus was too shocked to respond.

But soon, he felt himself melt. Sirius' hand wrapped around Remus as he closed his eyes. They just stayed that way, kissing, for a long time as Sirius, being the flirt he was, began teasing Remus and he gave an involuntary shudder.

As they finally broke apart, Remus and Sirius began breathing heavily and Remus said, "Wh-what just happened?"

"IDIOT!" Sirius snapped. "You should know I bend both ways too."

"So, what? Am I just one of your one time that you wanted to try?" Remus asked, hoping that was not it.

Sirius rolled his eyes and said, "You call me a drama queen? You should hear yourself!"

They stood there, finally Sirius speaking, "I like Remy. I want to give it a try. I want to bec-"

He was cut off as Remus pressed his lips onto his. At first Sirius didn't know how to react, but then he shrugged and began kissing Remus back.


The dog turned into Sirius-a rather clean Sirius, Remus noted. He still looked haunted. He gave a sheepish grin to Remus and said, "Hey Remus."


"Where is he?" growled Remus, entering the room. James and Peter looked up, both scared. Sirius took the moment to exit from the bathroom.

In the blink of an eye, Remus had pinned Sirius to the wall ad James and Peter ran to him.

"I-trusted-you-all-with-my-secret." H growled, emphasizing each word, "And that's how you show your friendship?"

"Mo-Moony, I -I promise, I-I didn't mean to." Sirius begged.

"What didn't you mean to Sirius? Lead Snape to death or betray my secret? DO you know that ministry takes special interest in killing off werewolves? That my own father wouldn't feel anything because he hates werewolves?"

"I am sorry."

Remus left him, as Sirius held his neck protectively.

"It's over. What we had, what I had for you for past three months, it's over. And that's not it." Remus looked at him with bloodshot eyes. "If you even try to come near me, I promise you, that will be the last thing you ever do."

Saying so, Remus stormed away from the dorm room, leaving three stunned Marauders.


"Hello Sirius." Remus managed to reply. "What are you doing here?"

"That's the grand welcome I get?" he smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes.

Remus gave a weak chuckle and said, "Haven't changed much I see. But Sirius, you are an escaped convict."

Sirius' face showed fear and he muttered, "No need to remind me."


The full moon rolled by and Remus left, like always. Except, Sirius, as told, didn't even show his face.

As Remus entered the Shrieking Shack, he froze on seeing Sirius sitting there, biting his nails.

"Are you trying to get yourself killed?" Remus practically shouted. Sirius looked up and said, "Finally. I have been waiting for ages."

Remus looked out of the window to see the darkness enveloping the sky.

"Sirius, listen, if your idea of apology includes getting yourself killed, it is not good because even then I will end up in Azkaban probably with a silver bullet."

As if on cue, James and Peter entered from behind him and Peter said, "Thank God, we made it on time."

"Thank god?!" Remus screamed. "Have you all lost it?"

"Five year so friendship and you don't know that we never had it?" asked James, making Sirius and Peter chuckle.

As Remus felt the pain in his legs, he looked fearfully at his friends and said, "Run, now."

"No, my dear friend. Not this time."

As Remus' vision clouded, he felt Moony overpowering him. As the wolf finally took over, Remus watched in fear of seeing his friends die. But instead saw a stag, a rat and a black dog at his friends' place.

That was the best full moon he had ever had.


"Sorry, I didn't mean it that way." Remus answered. Sirius waved his hand away.

"I am on my way to meet Harry, thought of dropping by." Supplied Sirius.

Remus nodded and picked up the food package. Taking it in the kitchen, he heard Sirius turn back and walking up to him.


"Whose idea was this?" was the first thing Remus asked as he turned back. James and Peter pointed at Sirius who was pointing at himself.

He should have been angry, but it just didn't come. Instead, he pulled Sirius into a kiss while Peter cheered and James made disgusted sounds.


The two friends sat together on a couch, eating soup in silence. What were you supposed to speak?

"I am sorry Remus."

Remus looked up to see Sirius burying his head in his hands. "It's all my fault. I suspected you and then…"


For next one year, the love affair of Remus and Sirius was the most talked thing in Hogwarts gossip channel. Then Lily agreed to go on a date with James and that became the new juicy news.

Even after Hogwarts, the two lived happily. Sirius training to be an Auror and Remus off on Order stuff. But he never told Sirius what.

After a few months after Harry's birth, when Remus returned home one night after a month long expedition, Sirius was waiting on the couch.

"Hey, what are you doing up?" Remus asked, "I didn't tell you when I was due."

"Where have you been Remus?" asked Sirius. Remus was taken aback by the coldness in Sirius' voice.

"Order business." he answered.

Sirius looked up and said, "Aren't you spending far too much time on this 'Order business'?"

"It's not an easy task, you know, getting into werewolves' good books." He said, offering a weak chuckle.

Sirius didn't look amused. "But still."

Remus narrowed his eyes and said, "Are you implying something?"

"Am I?"

Remus looked at Sirius and said, "You know what, I better leave. I am not welcome around here anymore I think."

"I think you are right." Said Sirius.

Remus angrily shut the door behind him and left. That was the last direct conversation they ever had.


"Sirius, those were dark times." Said Remus. "I thought it was you, for being a Black. But then, you were caught and I refused to believe and then-"

Remus sighed and saw Sirius' teary face.

"Sirius, whatever happened, it was because of the war. Nobody is to blame. Please, I don't think James blames you."

Sirius just looked at Remus and then broke down. Remus crawled up to Sirius and engulfed him in a hug. They both cried, for the friends they lost, for the time they lost.

As Sirius finally stopped, Remus brought his forehead to touch his. They stayed there, smiling, teary-eyed. Somehow, in that moment, they knew that things would work out now.


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