So this probably doesn't make sense on first glance. A little background and run down on oc's mentioned
Clara: Blake and James' daughter. Age 14.
Dana: My main criminal minds OC Roxanne's adopted daughter. Age 16.
Garcia and Kevin are co-habiting and at this point they have 6 month old twins. One of them is called Sarah as is mentioned in this fic.
"Mom are you alright?" Clara asked as her mum, Alex came home from a case one evening. Alex looked down, like something was bothering her.
"Yes... Clara. Fine. Just... it was a hard case." Alex relied, feeling slightly down and a little shook up by the memories which had resurfaced over the last few days. "Oh hey Dana!" Alex greeted, noticing Roxannes adopted daughter was also at her house. This wasn't a surprise to Alex as often, if James was home Dana stayed at her place with Clara, when the BAU were off on cases.
"Hey Alex. " She replied. "You don't mind if I stay another night do you? It's kinda late." Dana asked.
No.. .not atall." Alex replied, It was very late, she actually wasn't sure why they were still up. Being so shook up she didn't comment on it.
Dana thanked Alex for this and continued to talk to Clara about hot boys in their grade. Meanwhile Alex went upstairs and dumped her go bag on the chair in her and James' room then sat down next to him as he was in bed reading a book. "Hey there." She said smiling.
"Oh welcome back." James greeted and put down his book on the bedside table. "Are you alright?" He asked, noticing she was faking a smile.
"Yeah... Well uh. No. But I'll talk about it later." She replied sighing and went into the bathroom, partially to get some space to think about things and also to get ready for bed.
"So what's up?" James asked as Alex got into bed and snuggled up close to James as he wrapped his arm round her in a comforting manner.
"Reid... he almost died. It gave me memories of Ethan." Blake replied sadly, trying to fight back tears. "And well I left the BAU." She finished after a pause.
"Hey honey. It's alright." James replied comfortingly and firmly hugged her, kissing her on the forehead.
"Thanks James." Blake paused. "I guess it just hit a nerve. I'm just so worried I'll lose Clara too." Alex confessed, tears streaming down her face. She loved Clara, just as she loved Ethan. She didn't want to lose another child. Couldn't bare it.
"What because of her bulimia?" James asked, pulling her in close and massaging her back. "She'll be fine. Honestly. Alexandra you are the most amazing woman and the most amazing mother in the whole world. What happened to Ethan wasn't your fault. It was inevitable. He had an unknown condition and well... it was time for him to go. Clara. Her bulimia certainly isn't your fault but she has come on so far recently and your unconditional love, it has helped her so much. Alex, you are also the most amazing wife I could ever wish for. I took you for better, for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part and I can honestly say I don't regret a thing. I will love you all the days of my life, you are my soul mate Alex, an amazing woman, an amazing friend and most of all an amazing mother. Clara is lucky to have you and I promise you. She will be fine." James finished, seeing Blakes face, she was smiling through her tears.
Alex smiled, and kissed James Gently on the lips. "That was one of the most amazing, sweetest things you've ever said." She replied, kissing him on the cheek.
"I quit Havard." He finally said.
"Really! That's why you came back!" Alex said, seeming happier now. "Why?"
"After everything that's happened to Clara I think we need some sort of stability." He explained, "I'm staying here... with you."
Alex snuggled into him relaxed, she was glad that their relationship had finally had a second chance and it was a mutual decision not one made by just one of them.
"Oh am I glad to see you." Garcia exclaimed, entering through her door after returning from that awful case.
"What happened?" Kevin asked, inviting her to come and sit with him.
"It was awful Kev. Chocolate thunder was shot, so was Reid, God Kev. He almost died. Twice! I-I shot someone..." She finished.
Kevin sat in silence and hugged her tightly pulling her close. "Your safe now Pen." He said softly.
"How are my girls?" She asked.
"Their good, Sarah started crawling yesturday." He replied and showed her the video. "Awww. Trust her to start crawling the one time I am away for work." She replied, watching the video of her baby crawling.
A couple of days later the remaining team entered the office, at around 9am. Rossi first, followed by JJ, Hotch and Roxanne and Garcia. A few minutes later Morgan entered, fashionably late. As usual. Reid was to be off for a while after the shooting and operation. Blake however still hadn't turned up. JJ, Rossi, Roxanne and Morgan were all worried as normally she was early and on the plane returning from the last case she seemed a bit off.
"Hotch?" JJ asked.
"Yes JJ." He replied.
"Is Alex ok?" She asked. "She's normally in by now..."
"Oh uh. That's what I need to talk to you all about. Get everyone to meet in the round table room." He ordered, knowing it was time to tell the unfortunate news that Blake had made the decision to leave the BAU and in fact the FBI completely.
Hotch explained the situation to them all and the text received on the plane the night before. "Blake resigned." He said simply.
The rest of the team sat in silence, shocked. Not really knowing what to say. They had lost one of their own. It served as a wake-up call. How hard their job really was and sometimes it just became too much.
"So mom?" Clara asked returning home from school that day. "What are you going to do now?" Clara wondered, knowing her mum was not the sort of person who could never work.
"Go back to teaching, maybe write a few books." She replied, not entirely sure. She thought of going back to teaching but despite her love of work she really wanted more freedom with her work, more time with her husband and her daughter.
"You are ok though... right?" Clara asked.
"Yes Clara. Just need a change. The case hit a nerve. I don't think I can do it anymore. So I left." Alex replied. "Ethan..." she said sadly, knowing Clara knew as she was looking through pictures for a school project one day and had asked who he was.
"Oh mom!" Clara exclaimed, understanding it must be awful to lose a child. "Come here." She said and gave her mum a hug.
"Thanks Clara." Alex replied, smiling slightly and hugging her back.
Soon after James came in.. "Hey girls." he greeted, and went over to Alex, hugging her from behind and kissing her on the cheek.
"How was your day?" He asked.
"Good. Good. I made Lasagna for dinner." She replied smiling.
"Oh wow!" James replied in shock. "It really is my lucky day."
At the dinner table the three sat, Clara in-between James and Alex, just as it always was when both were in. "I could get used to this." James mused, smiling. "I forgot how much of a good cook you were." He added in.
"Yes so did I mom." Clara also complemented.
"Well thanks." Alex replied, happy because she had made the people she loved happy.
After Clara had gone up to bed that night James got out the french red wine from the fridge and two glasses. "Wine?" James asked Alex as he was entering the living room.
"Sure!" Alex replied, looking up from her kindle then putting it down on the little table to the side of the sofa.
The couple talked softly while sipping at their wine, romantic french music playing in the background on a playlist. "Hey I have an idea." James said softly, putting the rest of his glass of wine down and leaning in to passionately kiss Alex. Alex smiled and too put her glass of wine down, returning the kiss then feeling down his chest. "sounds good" She said softly and deeply inbetween kissing. James smiled, and started kissing Alex's neck whilst unbuttoning her blouse and taking off her black, lacy bra. Alex smiled and did the same to James, Unbuttoning his shirt and then Jeans. The two felt as if they were one in this moment, it was magical, fresh.
"I missed that." Alex said softly after they had finished.
"Yes. So did I." James agreed, the two still entwined on the sofa.
