Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do however own the songs and the poetry used are mine, but if I didn't write it then I will gladly credit the original artists and/or writers.
Songs Used: Naked-Avril Lavigne
A/N: So this is in Jude's POV. This is how I think 'Celebrity Skin' should have ended and what I think should happen next. Read and Review.
Chapter 1: Things Left Unsaid
"Jude, can I talk to you." I heard Tommy say to me when I finished giving my statement to the police.
"What is it Quincy?" I asked him. I was still mad at him because of Angie and I wasn't going to forgive him that easy.
"In private please, this is important." He said to me. He grabbed me by the arm and steered me to the viper. He opened the passenger door and I got in, he shut it and walked over to the drivers' side and got in. He started the car, and the ride was silent. When he parked the car, I just realized that I had no idea where we were.
Tommy got out of the car, and he opened the door for me. We rode the elevator in silence and we came to a door, and Tommy unlocked it and we went inside. I looked around and I saw, a picture of me and Tommy hanging on the wall from when my first c.d. went double platinum, in a case by my c.d. and next to it my album cover.
I saw a black leather couch and two matching recliners, and I saw a long hallway lined with pictures. The kitchen was spacious and it had an island bar in the middle of it. I realized that we were at Tommy's apartment and that I had never even been here before. I just occurred to me that he has always known where I live and I have never known where he lives.
"Tommy, what are we here for?" I asked him. He motioned me to the couch and I sat down. He sat down on the table that was right in front of my and he dropped his head in his hands.
"Jude, I'm sorry, for everything that I put you through." He said to me, I knew he wasn't done.
"Tommy, why are you sorry? You didn't cause Hunter to attack me, he decided to on his own."
"Girl, you don't get it. It's my fault I'm responsible for Angie killing herself, and he wanted revenge. Angie was everything to him, she was the only family he had and I took it from him."
"Tommy, just because you broke her heart doesn't mean you killed her."
"Jude, the way I did it. Everything I said in there was the truth, I wanted to be a star and she got in the way of it so I ended it. You were right."
"Right about what Quincy?"
"That I am a heartless coward who runs instead of letting my feelings show and I only think of myself."
"Yes, I did say that and I do think that the cameras caught it but, I don't think that anymore. Tommy, you have changed so much since BoyzAttack, and believe me I know it. I know you better than anyone else and your not heartless, you're anything but it." I said to him. It killed me to say it but, I was right. He has changed I and do still love him that's why it makes it so much harder for me to move on.
Right when I was about to say something else my phone rang. It was Jamie, a picture of us flashed on the screen.
"Jamie"
"Jude, where are you. I heard the police were at the rehearsal space?"
"Yeah, Hunters in Jail, I'm safe. I'm with Tommy."
"Jude, are you sure?"
"Jamie, I'll see you at the house later alright"
"Alright bye." He sounded defeated when he said that and he hung up the phone.
"Jamie worried?" He asked me.
"Yeah, I told him that I would be at the house later."
"I really am sorry about everything."
"I know you are Tom."
"Jude, do you think that we will ever be back to the way thing were before we hooked up again?"
"I don't know. But, I think that we are getting back there because I feel like I can talk to you again."
"I'm glad."
"Look, can you give me a ride home?"
"Sure, come on let's go."
We both got on the elevator and got back in his car. The entire car ride was silent until Tommy turned the radio on and a song that I just released was playing, it was called 'Naked' and it was about Tommy.
I wake up in
the morning But then you
came around me Because I've never
felt like this before I'm trying to
remember I never felt like this before
I'm naked I'm so naked around
you
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel
inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround
me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've
opened up
Oh, you've made me trust
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers
fall away
I guess I never had someone like you
To help me, to
help me fit
In my spirit
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right
through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And
it feels so right
Oh oh yeah
Does it show?
Yeah, I'm naked
Oh oh, yeah yeah
and I can't hide
you're gonna see right through, baby
The song ended and I could see tears in Tommy's eyes. I loved the song and as much as I didn't want to deny it, I had feeling for him and they weren't going to go away. We pulled up to my house a few minutes later and Tommy stopped in front of my house and turned the car off.
"Can, I ask you one question Quincy?"
"Sure"
"Why didn't you come after me when I caught Sadie kissing you?"
"Because Harrison, the first reason is that I was so drunk that I couldn't stand, the second was because I knew that you were back in the party and I didn't want to humiliate you more, and third because no matter what I said you never would have listened to me." He was right on all three accounts.
"Okay, look I need to go inside. I won't be in the studio for a few days because I just want to get out of town, can you tell Darius that I'm gone and that I will have new material either recorded or ready to be recorded when I am back?"
"Yeah, I can do that."
I got out if the car and walked into my house. I saw a tear drop fall when I shut the door. I looked through the glass and he was sitting there. He finally started the car and left, only after I walked away.
