This fansong is somewhat based on chapter 35 of TSUBASA (small spoiler for those who have not read up till there). In that chapter, we realise that even though Sakura might sense something between Syaoran and her, it will be erased the moment she questions him (or when her feelings get too strong).
Based on that, I wrote a fansong on Syaoran's thoughts about it, using Britney Spears' 'Everytime'. Hope you like it.
C&C welcome.
Time is moving fast, yet in my heart it moves so slowly. This is the first time I've spent so much time with you, yet my heart aches at each small gesture you make. I wish you could remember me and the times we've spent together, but I know that it's impossible.
On the day you opened your eyes after the terrible ordeal, out in the rain, I'd decided to let go. Knowing it was useless to hold on. Oh yes, I'll be there, but not for long… soon you, too, would let me go.
And then, Sakura, what would happen?
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I still dream of you. I wish I didn't, or better yet couldn't. But who can decide what they dream? Still, when I do dream of you, it gives me that brand new hope to save you, to carry on my mission. I don't want to see you die…
Yet I can't bear to see you leave me.
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I have many weaknesses. But I'll try my best for you. I may, at times, frown and seem inconsiderate towards you, but it's my way of shielding myself from the pain you're able to cause.
Still, how could I ever hide away from you?
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Someday, I know I might have this feeling of pure regret. Not because I wasted all my time saving you when you would forget me, but because I couldn't hold on to you, and when you were around I didn't appreciate you enough. At times, I wish I had never met you…
Is that wrong, Sakura?
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
Still, everytime you smile, and those kind gestures that you make just for me, are always appreciated. Like I said, it gives me hope. And it keeps me strong to my promise of protecting you. Someday, you'll get all your memories back, and you'd move on without me.
But tell me, Sakura, how will I move on?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
In the darkness, I let out a sigh. Something terrible will happen, but I'll always, always be with you.
And then I will let you go.
