You will know my footsteps
Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket nor the Little Prince
AN: This little rant was inspired by a line from the Little Prince. I hope you like it. This is from Hatori's POV and is about Ayame. R&R.
I fear I am as wicked as Shigure, not that you know this yet or ever will. You see us as saints, when we are but the darkest hell-spawn. I have tricked you, plotted against you, manipulated you, and yet…you don't know it do you?
When you come running I pretend to be annoyed, I pretend to have other things, more important things, to do. But I don't. You are my important thing, my obsession. You are my god, my sun, my white whale, and kryptonite. You hold my being in your hand and are completely, blissfully unaware and for that I will protect you.
I twist everything around for you. I lie for you and cheat for you. I watch over you and you know that. You call me if there is but the tiniest bit of news and this is all because I have tricked you into acting this way. You think that you are a burden but if you were I would have gotten rid of you by now.
I wonder how you can not see this, how can you not know. Do you ignore my faults my sins on purpose? Do you know? Have you seen the blackness of my heat and inkiness of my mind? Perhaps I am not in control, maybe you are. It would make sense if only you didn't follow me around so.
But I don't mind, if I am in control or if you are. I will continue to watch you and care for you. I will be there when you need me and give you space when you don't. I will act annoyed so you can pick on me, and I will act as the voice of reason. I will protect from Him, and I will help you connect with your brother. I will be your confidant, and your muse. Then when you move on I will let you, because I will too. I will forge my road as you forge yours, and when you mess up I fix both our paths.
Because I wish to be your god, your sun, your white whale, your kryptonite. You will watch and care for me. When I am in pain you will be there and when I truly need space you will respect that. You will be my voice of insanity, and will act sad when I act mean. You will heal the wounds I get form Him and share your freedom with me. You will be my confidant and my muse. When I stop walking you will wait for me, and together will be one continuous balancing act.
When you are gone I will be without reason and so will you. We will need each other in the most mundane and profound meaning of the word. And when you come back I will know without looking because I will know you as you will know me. I will know your footsteps and you will know mine.
