A/N: Ok, so I have been wanting to write something ever since I heard of Cory's passing but, nothing ever seemed right. So after five days this is what I have came up with. This is my first Glee fic and I hope I did these lovely and amazing characters justice. Thank you for reading leave a review if you'd like. italics are flashbacks bold italics are Finn singing

Rachel was sitting in her apartment going through old pictures for some reason she had felt the need to reminisce about the past, she wasn't one for the past but something felt off, she could quite put her finger on it but she had this feeling all day that something was terribly wrong. She picked up a picture of her and Finn from when they went to New York it was one of the happiest times in her life she had felt they had finally gotten past everything that had kept them apart. She takes a sip of her wine and leans back and closes her eyes.

There we were walking down the streets of New York everything was perfect both of us dressed to the nines, the guys in the background singing "Belle Note" it was the perfect moment.

"Wait... This is the moment in those romantic comedies where I kiss you." I hear him say as he leans closer I push him away as much as I wanted to kiss him I couldn't there was too much standing in the way.

"Take a chance on me?" He tells me cupping my chin.

"I can't." I tell him as I pull away and run off.

Rachel let's out a heavy sigh and smiles at the photo and places it back in the box wiping a fallen tear from her eyes. She and Finn had always had this connection from the first day that they had met. It was like she had finally found that one person that really got her when no one else could. It was hard being in New York without him but she knew that their love was strong and no matter what one day they would be together. Rachel closes her eyes again and thinks back to graduation.

Finn and I were sitting in his car I had no idea of what was going on all I knew was that we were getting married and we were going to be together and nothing was going to get in the way.

"What are we doing here?" I ask him as we pull into the train station.

"You are going to get on that train and you're going to go to New York and you're going to be a star without me. That's how much I love you. You know what we are going to do? Surrender. I know how hard that is for you because of how hard you hold on to stuff. But we're just going to sit here and we're going to let go and let the universe do it's thing, and if we're meant to be together, then we're going to be together. Whether it's in a little shoebox apartment in New York or on the other side of the world. Will you do that for me? Will you surrender?"

"I love you so much."

"I love you."

She couldn't take it anymore she had to put the past behind her. Rachel grabs the box and puts it back in the closet and decides to go out and get some fresh air, she needed to shake this feeling she had. Rachel grabs her jacket and bag and heads out the door.

"Kurt? What are you doing here?" she says as she sees Kurt standing there in her doorway. His eyes are red rimmed and he looks like he has not slept in a week.

"Uh-can I come in?" Kurt asks his voice cracking.

"Sure." Rachel smiles at him. "Can I get you something to drink?" Rachel asks not sure of what to say.

"No." Kurt shakes his head. "Rachel I have to tell you something." Kurt tells her taking a deep breath. This was by far one of the worst things he had to do.

"Kurt what's wrong you're scaring me?" Rachel asks noticing the tears forming in his eyes.

"It's Finn…." Kurt is cut off by Rachel.

"No….no…." Rachel collapses on the ground this was it the bad feeling she had been having.

"Rachel I am so sorry." Kurt drops to his knees and pulls her in for a hug not sure of what else to do.

"How? I mean what happened?" Rachel asks trying to gain her composure.

"There was this accident and…I don't know what happened….it just happened." Kurt tells her his voice cracking with every word.

"God, Kurt why…why Finn? We were supposed to find our way back someday." She couldn't take it anymore she felt the walls closing in on her. This was not happening Finn was gone and there was nothing she could do. She had so many dreams of them finding their way back, getting married, raising a family, and now it was gone just like that. There was nothing she could do no more grand gestures of love, no more chasing Finn like the lost girl she was, all of it was gone.

"I know…I know." It was all he could say as he watched his friend slowly crumble piece by broken piece. It made him sad to think that they would never get their happy ending.

"So…what do we do now?" Rachel asks looking up at me.

"Well…we go back to Lima and we do the only thing we know how." Kurt smiles at Rachel and Rachel nods.

A few days later Rachel is in Lima at her hotel room today is the memorial for Finn. In the past week she had felt every emotion from joy to anger and now all she felt was numb. She wasn't sure if she wanted to do this she and Finn had this connection every time they sang even when he first joined Glee she felt that connection. Rachel looks at the clock on the wall and decides to lie down just to get her thoughts together.

There she was standing there on the stage at William McKinley high looking out into the empty chairs in the auditorium, just like she had everyday but this time it felt different like it was the only thing she had left. She hears the first chords of the song and closes her eyes and lets his voice take the lead. Mr. Shue had wanted us to go out side of our box as he called it and take a chance so this was us taking that chance.

It still feels like our first night together

Feels like the first kiss

It's getting better baby

No one can better this

Still holding on

You're still the one

First time our eyes me

tSame feeling I get

Only feels much strongerI wanna love you longer

Do you still turn the fire on?

She opens her eyes and there he is standing there looking beautiful as ever she never knew how she got so lucky to have someone like him but, she got him and she was never letting go. She looks him in the eye as they walk closer as she begins to sing her part of the song.

So if you're feeling lonely, don't

You're the only one I'll ever want

I only want to make it good

So if I love you a little more than I should

Please forgive I say is true

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Please forgive me,

I know not what I do

Please forgive me,

I can't stop loving you

Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through

Please forgive me, if I need you like I do

Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word

As we walk closer I can't help but smile it's like everything that we had been through didn't matter it was just Finn and Rachel. She takes his hand and joins in with him.

Still feels like our best times are together

Feels like the first touch

Still getting closer baby

Can't get closer enough

Still holding on

You're still number one

I remember the smell of your skin

I remember everything

I remember all the moves

I remember you yeah

I remember the nights, you know I still do

I feel him pull me closer and his arms caress my body I try to keep my composure and not let my emotions take over but, it's hard when we have a connection that runs so deep. I feel his breath upon my neck it's warm and inviting. My senses begin to go into overload and I'm finding it harder than ever to keep my emotions out of it.

So if you're feeling lonely, don't

You're the only one I'll ever want

I only want to make it go

So if I love you a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through

Please forgive me, if I need you like I do

Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word I say is true

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

The smell of his skin, takes me over the edge and I turn to him we are face to face and inches apart nothing is stopping us from giving in it's just him and me no one else. I feel the warmth of his breath on my face as I close my eyes and let his voice take me in.

The one thing I'm sure of

is the way we make love

The one thing I depend on

Is for us to stay strong

With every word and every breath I'm praying

That's why I'm saying

I hear the intensity in his voice as he finishes out the song and I feel like he is singing to me and only me. We finish out the song just staring into each other's eyes and in that moment it is like we both know what the other is thinking.

Please forgive me, I know not what I do

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through

Please forgive me, if I need you like I do

Babe believe it, every word I say is true

Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you

No, believe, I don't know what I do

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

I can't stop loving you

I grab his hand again as we finish out the song as he pulls me closer. I feel his lips travel down my neck and over my collar bone. I feel his hands inch closer and closer towards my breasts normally this would be the point that I would tell him to stop but, there is something about this moment that makes everything seem so right. I slowly turn towards him and give him a small kiss on the cheek as he slowly turns his head our mouths brush against each other. This is not a normal kiss it is a kiss that says everything that we have been holding in. I finally give into my senses and let him explore my body with his mouth. "I love you Rachel." I hear him whisper in my ear.

"Rachel, wake up!" I hear someone say

"Kurt what are you doing here?" I ask confused as to why Kurt is in my room.

"Finn's memorial service is today." Then it hits me why he's here. I close my eyes trying to get the dream back that I had of Finn and I.

"Kurt I don't know if I can do this. How am I supposed to get up there and sing with out falling apart?" I feel the beginning of a major freak out here. I have performed in front of people before we even sang at a funeral but…this is different how do you say goodbye to someone who you are not ready to say goodbye to?

"Rachel none of us want to do this but…we have to yes, it's going to hurt but you know he would want this." I know Kurt is trying his best to console me but it isn't working.

"You're right. Uhmm….can you give me a minute to get ready and I'll meet you in the lobby." I tell him taking a deep breath.

"Sure…take all the time you need." He tells me as he gives me a hug and walks out the door. I get up and grab my clothes hoping that a warm shower will clear my head. I turn on the water letting the water warm up as I step in and let the warm water take over. I close my eyes trying to wash away the thoughts in my head.

And I'd give up forever to touch you'

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

"Hey." I hear him as he wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck.

"What are you doing here?" I ask not minding that he's here but he's supposed to be gone.

"I am always with you." He tells me placing small kisses along my neck. I quickly pull away from him.

"No, you left Finn you promised you'd never leave." I shout at him.

"Rachel I never went anywhere." He tells me as he takes my hand in his.

"You're dead Finn. Dead! "I go to hit him when I am met by a pair of strong arms pulling me closer.

"Rachel I made a promise to you that I would never leave NEVER and I meant it. No matter what I will always be with you. You told me that I was your first love and you know what you are mine always and forever Rachel. I love you and I will never leave you." He pulls me closer towards him and holds me tight. I inhale his scent and I let go of everything that I have kept in. "Shhh….I'm okay Rachel." he whispers in my ear.

"I love you Finn." I tell him giving him a kiss on the cheek.

I turn off the shower and step out. Whipping the steam that has formed over the mirror I see him standing behind me and smiling and I know that everything will be okay. I get dressed and fix my hair and give myself on last look and I head down to the lobby.

McKinley High auditorium

As I walk down the halls of where Finn and I met it brings me back to a time that was so simple. I try my hardest not to breakdown I have to be strong for Finn. When we get to the doors of the auditorium it begins to hit me that he's gone and this is it. I look over to Kurt he squeezes my hand and gives me a slight smile. When we walk in we are greeted by Mercedes, Artie, Britney, Santana, Quinn, Puck, and Mr. Shue. I can see the sadness in their eyes as we come together for a group hug. I take one more deep breath.

"Hey." I am trying my hardest to stay strong but everything in this room reminds me of him and what we had.

"Rachel are you sure you want to do this?" I hear Mercedes ask as she places her arm around me.

"It's what he would want." I nod as I look over to Mr. Shue. "Puck would you do me the honors?" I ask handing him the sheet music. It wasn't like we needed it or anything. It was mainly to keep my hands from shaking.

"Sure." He takes the music and looks at it. "Really Rachel?" realizing that the song I chose was Don't Stop Believin'.

"It was the first song we sang together as a group." I tell him he takes my hand.

"This one's for you Finn." I hear Mr. Shue say in the background. I close my eyes and take in the music and I go back to the first time that we sang this song.

Just a small town girlLivin' in a lonely world

she took the midnight train goin' anywhere

I stand here and listen to the awkward boy who happens to be the star quarterback of the football team and I am in awe…of how confident he is on the stage.

Just a city boy

Born and raised in South Detroit

He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

I almost forget my cue because I am hypnotized by his voice. There is so much soul and emotion in his voice. I take a step forward and begin my part never taking my eyes off of him.

I can hear my voice begin to crack as I sing the song. Why did I think I could do this? I look around and everyone is trying so hard to keep it together. I feel a set of arms pull me closer.

A singer in a Smokey room

I take his hand in mine as we continue to sing the song. He grabs my hand and smiles a smile that has melted my heart.

The smell of wine and cheap perfume

For a smile they can share the night

it goes on and on and on and on

We continue the song like we are the only two people in the room.

I don't know how much longer I can take this it's too hard for me to sing this song without him here.

"I…I can't do this I'm sorry." I tell them finally reaching my breaking point and running out of the room. Suddenly I find myself sitting in front of Finn's old locker bawling my eyes out. I am suddenly flooded with so many memories of us. This is where we had our first kiss, our first fight, he even proposed to me here. How can I let that all go.

"You have to let me go." I hear Finn say.

"But…I can't Finn we were supposed to find our way back…get married and grow old and now you're gone and never coming back. How do I go on from here?" I can feel the tears falling freely from my face.

"Rachel look at me." He tells her cupping her face. "I made a promise to you I am always going to be with you. I love you and that will never change but…you have to let me go as hard as it will be in order for you to live your dream and move on you have to let me go. I promise you that we will be together again one day." He tells me giving me a small kiss and he gets up.

"Finn…please I love you." I tell him not wanting to let him go but I know that one day I will have to let him go.

"I love you too Rachel. Remember I am always here." and like that he was gone.

"Need a friend." I look up and see Puck standing there with his hand extended.

"Thanks." I nod my head and we walk down the hall. Not knowing what the future may bring our way. I look up at Finn's picture and smile knowing that everything will be ok.