There comes a moment in every life when a choice must be made between right and wrong,, good and evil, between light and darkness. These decisions are made in an instant, but with repercussions that last a lifetime.
Men tend to be power-driven. They measure their lives by their accomplishments. Women are more relationship-driven. They tend to define episodes of their lives by the men they are with. That is, until they learn better.
"Jon! Jon wait" I yelled chasing after him out of the arena, it was his last show tonight, he was going where he belonged the wwe, the big stage, I grabbed his arm making him stop I heard him sigh, the rain coming down on us, he ran his hand over his face "so what your just gonna leave? Not say shit to me? What the fuck Jon, I been with you for four years now! And this is what I get?" I asked trying to contain the tears and emotion from my voice.
"Sam this is just the end for us OK, don't be like that, don't be one of those women, just let me go SAM" I stared at him at how cold he was being, he was treating me like I was some fling and not his live in long term girlfriend, I blinked back the tears.
"Jon what are you doing? This is me your talking to, its OK, im happy for you, we can make it work, we always have" I cried he shook his head stepping closer to me, his face showed no emotion, he was running, he was scared of his success and was running from us he bent down to where his face was right in mine, he was being mox, not Jon good, but Jon moxley right now "it was fun sunshine, but now its over, now run along, I don't need you anymore, im putting what we had along with the rest of this shit in trash where it belongs" and with that he left.
I called out his name before collapsing against the wall the rain following on me as I cried, I couldn't tell you how long I sat against that wall crying "shit Sam, go get sami, wheres mox" drakes voice came I felt him wrapping his jacket around me and lifting me up I felt dead, I felt numb, Jon left, he fucking left me "his gone, he left" I mumbled as drake walked me into the coliseum we just ad our show in.
"Shit Sam" I heard sami's voice and he took me from drake "Sam its OK, where's Jon?" he asked
"he left said he didn't need me anymore and he left" I cried into sami's chest as he cursed...
that was over two years ago, I frowned at the memory as I sat in the huge office of the wwe coo Paul Levesque, I still dream of that night every night, I missed him, I wonder what his thoughts would be when he found out I was here, I finally made it to my childhood dream, the only thing that had kept me going the two year's, was this goal, other wise I would've given up after he walked, trash, he had called me that, I closed my eyes shaking my head, I took a deep breath I belonged here they chose me.
"OK here is your script for tonight, I want this all kept on the down low, Katelyn already knows shes going to be attacked but not by who, like I said in our meeting we need to get our divas division up again, and we have some amazing women but the crowds tired of seeing the same thing, so I hope your not all hype" I nodded.
"Thank you " I started he held his hand up "its Paul" I nodded smiling "Paul, thank you and like I told you, yea believe in the hype im just as good as everyone says I am" he nodded "you have some amazing credentials behind you just live up to it, and uh some of these women can be kind of catty so just be ware, I know of the people your used to hanging out with and heard how you can be" he said
I nodded, yea those people, one person to be specific, I stood up "is there some where im supposed to hide out?" I asked, at that point there was a knock on the door "Just on time, come in" he yelled in the same voice he did with me "Samantha there's been some changes, see Vince wants to add a women to the shield, he thinks with yours and 's chemistry and history, you'd be the perfect addition to them, so you'll hide out with them tonight" he said as I turned my head.
Fuck there he was in an old mox shirt that I loved and black basket ball shorts, his hair wet sticking to his forehead, Paul started rambling as I stared at this man, he smirked catching my stare and let his eyes obviously wonder my body, I blushed looking down and back to Paul standing up grabbing my bag but Seth Rollins beat me to it "here let me get that for you" he said smiling at me I nodded "Thank you, I'll follow you guys" I told them noticing Jon's jaw clinched he nodded and we headed down the hall.
I need a cigarette bad and I need to make a phone call, I sat in the shields locker room which was the basement of the arena where they did their promo's.
"Hey" he said softly catching my attention he leaned in for a hug "How you been? You look good" he said his eyes again wondering, I pulled away putting my hair behind my ear couldn't he tell I was coming unglued? Why couldn't he just be cold that's the Jon good I know cold and heartless, what fukcing game is he playing at?
"Um is there some where I can go make a phone call?" I asked softly, he nodded "Yea I gotta smoke you can come with me" Jon said I sighed going to my bag I bent over shoving my pack of cigarette and lighter in my pockets and grabbing my phone.
We silently walked to the back part of the arena, I stepped as far from him as I could get pulling a cigarette out I lit up and dialed the number I needed to taking a deep drag, I turned around seeing him staring in the opposite direction of me I sat on a create "your alive! Haven't been eaten by the big dogs yet" I smiled at the voice
"Yea im here they changed they're plans sammi" I told him "oh shit they didn't sign you?" he asked, I bit my lip "no they changed my line, im with the shield" I told him, I heard sigh "fuck im sorry, you OK? You see him yet?" he asked, I nodded "yup I have to hang with them till I debut trying to keep it hush hush, his about six feet away from me smoking" I said taking a drag of my cigarette.
"you two talk?" he asked, I closed my eyes "just uh small hi bullshit" I said flicking my cigarette I sighed "how am I supposed to work with this man sami? How the fuck do I do this? I mean I knew we'd be in the same company again but I could avoid him as much as possible, now I have to work with him every day and I don't know some talks of making it romantic"
"you just gotta suck it up, this is what we work our ass's off for, and I filled the open ghost buster position, so your stuck being a wrestler, your OK, just keep it professional do your thing and let him do his Sam" he said
I cleared my throat seeing him walking towards me "Alright well I'll call you once im at the hotel tonight and let you know how things went" I told him as Jon stood in front of me "OK tell mox I said sup, ill talk to you later kid" and we hung up I looked at him.
"Look you and I have a lot history and emotions tied between us Samantha but we can be co workers we can go in the ring and put all that shit behind us, because that's what we do, its who we are, this ain't czw" he told me, I nodded clearing my throat looking down some what disappointed, what did I except for him to confess his unending love for me, huh! He wouldn't do that when he had me, much less now that his free of me.
I looked up putting my best bitch face on, trying to prove to him he didn't get to me "Don't worry about it mox that shits been said and done for me for a minute already" I said standing up, he smirked nodding and we walked back to the secluded room.
I sat on the couch messing with my phone texting Jamie Sammie ex, her and I got really close between my shit with Jon and hers with Sammie, we remained friends even after their divorce "So Sam, Im Colby, and this is Joe" he said as I shook the other two men hands "figured since we'll be team mates and all we should get to know each other" Colby said I nodded "well you apparently already know Jon over there" he nodded to Jon who was just sitting arms crossed.
"so how did you make it from indies to the big bad wwe?" Colby asked, I shrugged "I'm just that damn good" I smirked Joe laughed "yea you can tell she knows Jon" I frowned. Putting a hand over my heart "Ow Joe Ow that hurt" I smirked.
Jon laughed "I trained her guys, she was with Sammi and I in switchblade, she is that damn good" he matched my smirk.
"well HE helped Sammi train me so thanks to SAMMI im that damn good" Jon nodded "Yea and whos finisher do you use? Oh that's right mine" I rolled my eyes biting my lip.
"Well what can I say I need at least one charity case" I smirked at him
"OK well that got uncomfortable quick" Colby commented "
"Ah no worries guys shes just pissed and bitter that I dumped her ass and fucked her so called best friend, hey how is she anyways I should call her when we're in town next" he smirked, I narrowed my eyes again matching his smirk
"im sure she'd have no problem with that, I mean its what she does best lieing flat on her back, and your just bitter that instead of wasting away crying over your ass, I went and fucked sammi the same night you left me, oh opps you didn't know that" I saw his eyes narrow as he stood up grabbing his phone he stormed out of the room, shit I texted sammi quickly and told him id explain more tonight.
I closed my eyes "shit" I mumbled I looked at the other two who looked shocked "I'm sorry" I mubmeld why did I let him get under my skin like this? Why couldn't I just ignore him and he knew it he could that's why he did it
"no Jon said there was a lot of history there that would boil over we just didn't think it'd be that quickly" cobly said, I shrugged getting up I walked over to my bag as I heard the door slam shut, Jon stormed to me grabbing me up by my arm and walking me to the bathroom he slammed the door shut locking it.
I looked up at him and knew better I pushed him to far, his eyes were lit with anger and his jaw clenched before I knew it his mouth was roughly on mine, I tried pushing him away hitting his chest he just held onto me tighter, before I knew it he had his hand wrapped around my throat, His body was now shaking with rage
he pulled down my shorts and was roughly and quickly inside of me, he covered my mouth with his hand our eyes locking, oddly I felt safe and quickly responded to him,
"who do you belong to baby?"he breathed into my ear giving my chills as he pounded hard into me he gripped my hip digging his nails into it causing me to cry out in pain "You" I let out he nodded before going back to kissing me "that's right your fucking mine" he growled biting into my neck.
Before I knew it he was done, he stared at me and gave me a cocky smirk "why don't you go let sami know about that" he zipped himself up "Did you really think I'd let you just get me?" His voice was low and even as he spoke. "That I'd just let you fuck my best friend? I don't care, sunshine, if we're together or not,. I won't abide by that kind of behavior." He pressed into my throat more to make his point. "Is that understood?"
He removed his hand, I nodded, holding back a cough fingers touched the skin that his hand had, He said nothing else though as he backed away from me he tossed me a towel and walked out of the bathroom, I sat there and felt my heart crushed at that moment, Jon good got me again.
I took a deep breath and cleaned myself up and pulled my jeans back up, I looked at myself in the mirror and frowned I wiped my eyes, god dammit this was supposed to be my day and I wouldn't let Jon ruin it for me, this was a never get back moment for me.
I opened the door and walked out glaring at Jon as I sat down next to Colby who was playing a game on his phone, I leaned over "try E" I said realizing he was playing wheel of fourtune, it worked, "thanks" he said I nodded "always go with E, almost every English word as an E in it or an A" I told him smiling Colby and I sat there for a while playing before I noticed the time, I got up and walked back to my bag trying to decide what to wear.
"what about your pink one?" he said from beside me, I glared up at him "i don't need your help thanks" I snapped grabbing my black and neon pink ring gear, it was new Jon hadn't seen it unless he'd been watching me which I doubt, I grabbed my make up bag and walked into the bathroom slamming the door shut and locking it, I leaned against the door and closed my eyes and took three deep breaths.
"you deserve this kid you worked harder then any bitch out there, own it" sammi's words ran through my head I nodded and looked myself over in the mirror. My blonde hair I recently put black highlights in and cut shoulder length with layers
I quickly changed into it slipping the black spandex booty shorts on and the neon pink sport bra on that had a little tie in the front the I kept untied, my d cup breast pushed together perfectly, I looked myself over and frown I could always find the flaws of my body, Jon always told me how my body was perfect, apparently not perfect enough to keep him though, I sighed I stood at only five foot tall and wiehgt about 120,
I shook my head and applied my make up, I touched up the curl to my hair and nodded "this is as good as it gets" I mumbled to myself and walked out of the bathroom I shoved my clothes into my bag and pulled my iPod out "im taking it I have to stretch in here?" I asked, jons eyes shot up as he took a drink of his water, he started coughing.
"Uh er yea, uh you can er use over there" Colby stuttered Joe laughed shaking his head, I raised my eye brow "uh thanks" I muttered putting my ear buds in and pressing play.
After about three songs of stretching I felt tapping on my shoulder I looked up to see Jon I pulled out one of my ears buds "you ready?" he asked, I nodded wrapping them up and tossing it onto to my bag "I'll uh take you" he said I nodded "wish me luck" I smiled at the other two, Colby nodded looking slightly uncomfortable he looked down "er good luck" he mumbled not looking at me.
"Good luck" Joe said shaking his head I looked at Jon confused as we walked out "uh OK did I miss something?" I asked as we head down the hall, he shrugged "i don't know what you mean" he mumbled.
I sighed "Jon what did you do?" I asked stopping, he sighed rubbing the back of his neck "nothing fuck" I put my hand on my hip, he sighed "i mightve told Colby if he kept gawking at you like that I would shove his fucking balls down his throat" I felt anger grow in my stomach.
"you got some fucking real nerve mox you know that? I'm not yours anymore and that was choice so live with it, it'd be up to me whether Colby should gawk at me or not please just take me where I need to be" I snapped
"i love it that you call me mox" I rolled my eyes and started walking again, what game is he playing?
I closed my eyes feeling nervous, I felt hands on my shoulders knowing they belonged to Jon and I should shove them off but it was helping he leaned in placing a hand flat fingers spread on my stomach "breath, you got this, you a thousand times better then that skank, own your shit" he told me, I nodded "you got this sunshine" he whispered tugged on the back of my hair pulling my head back, I felt pumped I didn't even look back at him as I made my way to the ring.
I slid in the ring Katelyn back towards me as she ran her mouth to the divas I placed both hands on my hips tilting my head to the side, the women behind her dropped there jaws brie Bella pointed behind her smirking, Katelyn slowly turned around he jaw dropping as I hate the JLT, just like that, on her, which was a swinging neck breaker, I curtsied in front of her and snapped my finger standing up, I grabbed her mic.
"Katelyn you don't need to worry about those little girls in the back, you wanted computation well sweetie I think you just bit off more then you can chew" Katelyn quickly scurried up holding onto her belt tightly shaking her head I smirked, but before anything else could be said.
"Shield, Lima, Sierra India Delta Echo The shield" rang through the arena, my eyes widening as I ran my fingers through my hair standing straight, I stood watching the three men come through the crowd, jump the barring, dean's eyes locking on mine as he got his cocky smirk, not to much different from his cocky smirk out of the ring.
The three men climbed in the ring and surrounded me, dean stepping in front of me licking his lip oh god I closed my eyes and opened them clear minded, we have a job to do he smriekd grabbing the mic from me, I held my hand up backing up straight into Seth Rollins chest, the crowd started chanting moxley "Sunshine, sunshine, sunshine" he taunted, he rolled his head to the side walking towards me I slowly I stepped back holding my hands up in fear, until I hit what felt like a wall, I turned around my eyes widening as I seen roman reigns standing behind me, face of stone.
I turned back facing dean "no where to go, no where to hide" he taunted more before I knew it he leaned down roughly kissing me, I placed my hand on his cheek kissing him back we pulled apart, both smirking he then raised my arm "Now no division is safe from the hounds of justice! Believe that and believe in the shield!" Roman reigns roared through to the crowd who was booing me, Dean took my hand pulling me to him and we took off through the crowd.
Paul met us by the locker room "that was amazing you guys, Jon, Sam you two are going to work beautifully" he said, looking at us I looked down smiling that when I noticed Jon still had a grip on my hand I tried to move it but he gripped tighter.
"thank you Paul" I smiled up at him, he nodded "your right we should believe the hype, you did amazing out there, see you around" he told me and walked off, Colby and Joe looked at me shocked like.
"huh?" I asked
"its not every day the big man himself makes a personal trip down to complement someone you made an impact" Colby said, I nodded shrugging.
The guys started to head in I went to follow when I felt someone grab my hand pulling me back, I looked up at Jon, and sighed he pulled me to him and slowly backed me against the wall placing his hands on my hips, I was melting, I looked at him as he frowned staring at my neck, he leaned in lightly and gently kissing the side of my neck, I closed my eyes, he was making up.
"im sorry just, fuck Sam your not some random skank to me and you know that, or maybe you don't I don't fucking know but like it sucks to know that sami knows how you taste and feel, that was mine, only mine" he mumbled looking down, I closed my eyes, I didn't realized he'd be hurt, angry yes, hurt no.
"Jon im sure he was to drunk to remember I don't even think he finished, im sorry I honestly never wanted you to know, just your were being such a dick back there and I knew that'd get to you, im sorry I hurt you" I told him softly, he leaned against me, I placed my hand on the side of his neck he sighed closing his eyes.
"Why don't we call it truces? Huh?" he asked, I nodded "Id like that" I told him softly his eyes shifted to my neck and I saw so much emotion flood through but mostly regret, Jon was a lot of things, an asshole for sure, but he'd never hurt a women like that, he'd seen it to much growing up with his mother.
"Jon its OK you weren't thinking straight, I know you'd never hurt me that way on purpose" I told him, he just nodded
"i didn't mean to hurt you any other way either Sam" he told me, I closed my eyes
"Jon I don't think this is the time or place for this" I told him opening them, he opened his mouth to say something when colbys head popped out, his eye brows raising at mine and jons potion "uh sorry to interrupt, but we were wondering if Sam wanted to join us for dinner?" Colby asked, I bit my lip UN sure.
"Please, my treat" Jon said softly his thumb running across the skin of my throat, I nodded clearing my throat "Uh sure yea let me get changed real quick" I said as Jon pulled away from me and we quietly walked into the locker room leaving our unspoken moment behind us.
I walked over to my bag and seen the light flashing indicting I had a missed notification, I opened it it up to see several texts two from sami and three from Jamie, I opened samis first "fuck its OK, he would find out sooner or later I supposed, is he pissed? Do I need to hide lol"
"No call from him yet hmm weird maybe his cooling off, don't let him get to you that way you know that's what his trying to do"
"Fuck call Jamie, he called her" was the last message from sami, my heart dropped in my stomach.
I opened Jamie's messages "So I just got an interesting call from Jon, please call me, I know your busy tonight"
"please tell me this was after Jon left for fcw and sami and I were already separated please tell me you wouldn't do that to me, my best friend please" I frowned I could hear the emotion in her voice through a text message, I didn't want her to think I was fucking him when they were married, and it was a drunken one night thing that didn't matter I think we just used each others body's to feel closer to the ones we wanted.
"i spoke with sami, we need to talk but not now not tonight, I'll text when I can talk to you, im so fucking hurt Sam! You knew all the things I went through with him! How would you feel if I went and fucked Jon! Fuck goddammit Samantha!" I closed my eyes and opened them I looked across the room at Jon and felt my blood boil, he had no right to call Jamie! Sami fine, Jamie no! Jon looked over at me smiling and winked, I rolled my eyes getting up walking into the bath room slamming the door shut.
a/n thanks to all who read this please let me know what you think :) my first moxley story man that man is a GOD! just saying, and if you like this go check out my other story for the love of extreme :) thank you all
