It shouldn't have bothered him.
That didn't mean it couldn't.
He tried to push it off to the side. It wasn't that big deal. Not compared to some of the other things they needed to focus on. Like winning a war, and you know, trying not to die.
Still, he couldn't help but think about it in those rare times he had to catch his breath. When he had a break from training, counselor meetings, going on perilous quests to save the world, keeping up with homework, so he doesn't get expelled from school…again.
As rare as those times were, he still thought about it. Sometimes he didn't even notice the thought had crossed his mind until much later. And when he realizes that the thought had crossed his mind yet again he is always upset because it wasn't a big deal. Not really.
It had been an innocent enough question.
'You mean the Mist? Hasn't Chiron shown you how to do that yet?'
He would think about that moment over and over in his head and wonder why, to this day, Chiron had never seemed interested in teaching him the trick with the Mist. Thalia had only been in camp for a few months when Chiron had shown her. He had been there years. So why hadn't Chiron wanted to teach him something that could be so useful? Mainly since he lived in the mortal world. He could think of numerous times where it would have been helpful.
Then there was a matter of trust. He could easily say that he would trust Chiron to do what was best for him, that was what fathers did after all, and that was what Chiron was, the father that he had never really had, and still didn't have entirely. Not all the time anyway.
Poseidon was not someone who could comfort him after a battle like Chiron did. So did Chiron only think of him as just another camper? A camper that just happened to have a terrible fate thrust upon him?
No. He knew with every fiber of his being that Chiron cared about him. He would have taught him if he felt it necessary. The only things were he could think of many reasons why it could have been necessary.
Still, it didn't matter. It didn't. He had to focus on the war, and it wouldn't be necessary for the middle of a battle. So he wasn't taught.
Still, sometimes he just thought of it, wondered for a bit then pushed it away scolding himself for getting distracted and mauling over something that didn't matter.
So he wondered a lot but never let it bother him. After all, it wasn't a big deal.
So why was he acting like it was?
