Chapter 1: Goodbye.
Hermione Granger's POV
It was cold, but I couldn't feel it. All I could feel was the sorrow in my heart, the cracks that were slowly healing were broken again. He said he loved me, but that was a lie. Who causes this much pain to someone they love? I wouldn't. We've been together since the end of our 6th year, it was right after my sister disappeared. He was my life raft, I think that if he'd known that he was the only one who was keeping me alive, he wouldn't have been cheating. We were together for two years, he was cheating on me for a year… I was a bit preoccupied (what with the war, rebuilding Hogwarts and N.E.W.T.S) to be able to notice the signs.
He was my savior, the light to ever growing darkness. Why? Because during the yule ball I was raped, I felt so dirty that I went straight to the astronomy tower, I was planning on ending it all. My sister found me though, she helped me recover. She was the only one who knew, when she disappeared I was spiraling into my depression again. Then Ron came and I was saved.
But now that's over. He broke me again. He cast me aside, sending me tumbling down the dark hole of despair. There is no one left to save me. You may think 'wait what about Harry, and the others?' ah yes Harry, sweet heroic Harry… my brother in every sense of the word except blood. Well I don't want to burden him, he's only just been able to live. He lost his childhood due to the war, it's only fair that he relax and just worry about himself. 'The others?' you prompt, well Ginny is helping Harry live his life; she's finally got her dream guy, I say let her have fun. 'Luna? Neville? The twins?' you ask, they're great but I think they have enough to deal with. I mean Neville already has his parents (that were crucio'd to insanity) I doubt that he needs my craziness. Luna? I realize and acknowledge that Luna is very bright and could help but a lot of the time when you talk about something serious she is off with the Nargels or whatever it is she see's. After Fred's near death experience and George's accident (before Bill and Fleur's wedding; missing ear) they were in a much needed sabbatical so they could bond and recover from the toll of the war.
So here I am standing at the Black Lake, all 'dolled' up form the welcome back ball. Ginny said it was going to look 'darling' with me all 'dolled' up. So I'm standing hear in a forest green dress (A/N: find the dress at this website: shop/dresses/windy-city-dress-in-forest) with my trademark heels (Louis Vuitton red bottom peep toe stiletto's in, of course, black). My hair and make up is perfect, courtesy of Ginny. I'm wearing a matching ring that my sister and I got, I have diamond studs in my ears and a disillusioned time-turner bracelet (it would be reckless to leave it in the dorm, anyone could get it).
I'm about to jump into the inky blackness that is the home of the giant squid. It's peaceful, I think it's a perfect way to go, beautiful and at peace with the world… just one final goodbye. I stare at the stars remembering how they were the only things that were beautiful as I was raped. It's great that I can end my bad memories where they started, I think as I fall back into the water floating down to the bottom. Only once I reached it does my body realize what's happening and decides to start thrashing around involuntarily. Why bother? Why not accept that it's time?
My wrist hit a boulder.
There's a bright flash.
I'm falling. Wait, why am I falling?
I hit my head, everything is black.
There's someone pulling me out of the lake, saving me.
I see a mop of unruly black hair as I get pulled onto the shore. Harry?
My head hurts, I pass out. Again.
