This is just an idea I had in my head after I listened to the song Vanilla Twilight by Owl City. The song reminded me of how I think Jellal feels about Erza. This is set in mid time skip. Sorry if it's a little sappy. But I think Jellal has a really sappy side too! :) Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail, Owl City or Vanilla Twilight. (Though I wish I did.)

Dear Erza,

I hope your'e sleeping well. Tonight there's a huge meteor shower over Fiore. If you do happen to be awake, I hope you get to see it. Tonight is the first night that I'm away from prison. Today, Ultear and Meredy came to... rescue me? I'm still not sure why. But somehow, I got swept up in it. So here I am, in the outside world. For some reason, all I can do right now is lie awake and miss you. I hope that I'll fall asleep eventually, because I'm at a loss for words as to how I feel. If I knew where you were, and more so where I am, I'd send this letter to you. I want you to know I wish you were here.

In my heart, I know your'e still alive. I can feel your presence like I can feel my own two hands. Well, that may not be the best comparison since my whole body is pretty much numb from running so much. It's strange though, somehow, I feel very connected to you. Ultear and Meredy told me what happened. I'm not sure if they believe that your'e still out there. In all honesty the presence of you that I feel is the only thing that keeps my own doubts away.

Tonight I'm watching as the sky starts to grow lighter. I remember I used to watch out the window of our long ago prison cell in the same way. I don't want to bring up memories you may be uncomfortable with, but you need to know that it just isn't the same without you. While I was in prison, I don't think I really relized how much I miss talking to you. Where ever I happen to be, it's very quiet. The silence isn't so bad. But I have this habit of keeping my head down, and looking at my hands. It makes me remember how perfectly your hand fit with mine.

I suppose I'm going to have to find a way to live without you, but it's bdcoming an uphill battle and I'm on the losing side. So far I've barely slept at all. It's beggining to feel like an eternal night. I'm having a whole lot of bad nosalgia right now. I've already remembered everything that I'd done. Although now I assume I'll have less time to think about it, it seems to hurt more when I do. Whether I try to or not, I'm probably going to stay up all night just thinking. It's hard to admit, but I'm lonely.

Even though now I have Ultear and Meredy, I feel more alone then when I was in prison. Maybe it's because I actually have to deal with everything now. Everything I've done. I'm not safe and protected in my small little world anymore. But I'm finding more and more, that I like to think of you. When I do, I don't feel so alone. Even though techniquely I'm free, that's only on the outside. I feel rather trapped inside. I don't think I'll be at peace until I have truly atoned for my sins. In my eyes, the only real way to do that is to see to my own death. I'm at a loss right now. I think I will be for a while. I feel a lot like I'm still the person I was in the past. I feel like everyone is pushing me towards the future and moving on without me.

I can't yet let go of all the things that I've done. Or all the people who I have hurt. So tonight, as many times as I blink, I'll think of you, wondering how you could.

-Jellal

This is my first ever fan fiction storie so I hope you liked it! Please leave a review and let me know what you think of it! :)