Chapter 1: Prologue
Series: The Long Way to the Sun
Part1: Harvester of sorrow
By: Vamp2angelus
DISCLAIMER: Sorry not mine, All characters belongs to Whedon except for Roham O'Patrick that dude is mine okay, and if you like using him in your fics, please tell me I wont say No just I want to know where my character goes thanks
Spoilers: up to (Not Fade Away) on ATS and (Chosen) on BTVS.
Summary: After NFA Angel is struggling with the powers decision that gave Spike his humanity and more, he has to fight against all odds to gain back what he lost.
Feedback: Hell, yeah I need those, lots of them, please.
Distribution: Email me then take it okay, my email is
Rating: R for the whole series, some chapters is PG-13 okay.
Parings: B/A, W/S, D/C, F/Roham
Author note: I will be a little harsh on Angel at the beginning so don't get angry with me okay, it's a BA happy ending, I promise.
Author note 1: I am updating and polishing the chapters and will be posting new ones.
Harvester of Sorrow: By Metallica
My life suffocates
Planting seeds of hate
I've loved, turned to hate
Trapped far beyond my fate
I give, you take
This life that I forsake
Been cheated of my youth
You turned this lie to truth
Anger, misery
You'll suffer unto me
Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow
Pure black, looking clear
My work is done soon here
Try getting back to me
Get back which used to be
Drink up
Shoot in
Let the beatings begin
Distributor of pain
Your loss becomes my gain
Anger
Misery
You'll suffer unto me
Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow
All have said their prayers
Invade their nightmares
To see into my eyes
You'll find where murder lies
Infanticide
Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow
Prologue
Author note: The song in the prologue is "ONE" by Metallica's but if you want to listen to a great cover for this song it's on the(S&M) album by Metallica
I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me
Angel looked at the demon army in front of him and realized there was no way out. This was it; he'd reached the end of the line. Most of his friends had died - Doyle, Cordelia, Fred, Wesley. Gunn was injured and about to die, but if his destiny was to die in this battle, he would make such a death that generations to come would remember its glory.
Spike looked at him and asked, "You got any kind of a plan?"
Angel responded, "We fight."
Spike stared at him and said, "Be more specific."
Angel looked to the sky and saw the dragon and a crazy idea popped in his head
"Well, personally I kinda wanna slay the dragon. Let's go to work."
The fight began with a sword slash, after which all demons came running towards them.
Angel started fighting with the wrath that had been building up since he began working for Wolfram and Hart. Every sentence, every scene of distrust from the Watcher's Council came pouring through his mind, helping to ignite the blaze inside of him.
He just wished that two people would understand and forgive him for making such bad choices: his son and Buffy whom he still loved despite what happened between them that last year.
However, right now he didn't care if she loved Spike or the Immortal or whomever she wanted. What mattered to him was that she understood that he was still fighting the good fight.
A flame from the dragon's mouth towards him interrupted all those thoughts rushing through his mind as he fought.
He jumped out of its way just in time and looked around to find Spike fighting well. Illyria was fighting furiously but Gunn was just holding his ground. He looked toward the dragon, saw it soaring high in the sky like an omen of death, aiming for their annihilation with a body as big as two airplanes and a horn that stood 10 feet tall, body covered in scales. As its two red eyes looked only for destruction, and wings its flapped about him, 20 feet or more, it occurred to him if he was able to kill the dragon, it would fall over a huge portion of the army that ought to increase their chances of survival.
He didn't think twice; he jumped over the emergency stairs and started climbing fast until he reached a level where he was at the same level the dragon was flying, and he stopped a second to plan how he was going attack.
He didn't think he could reach any vulnerable spots on the dragon from where he was standing, so he jumped on the its back and held on to its scales. He moved over its back trying not to fall down until he reached its neck, then withdrew his sword. He jumped toward its horn and held on to it.
He knew that a dragon was most vulnerable through its eyes. Clinging to the horn, he swung a couple of times, before letting go and throwing himself towards the dragon's eye. While still in mid-air, he stabbed the dragon's eye with all his might and pushed in the sword as far as he could.
The dragon roared, as a thousand lions would, in agony and started to fall towards the ground Angel used the sword handle to swing and then he jumped and flipped in the air to land over the dragon's back. Once he was on its back he jumped toward a nearby the fire escape and held on to it.
His crew realized what he was doing and immediately backed away; the dragon fell over the mass of demons killing many them. With only about fifty demons remaining, Angel vamped out and moved to front of the dragon's body, removed his sword from its eye, and walked toward his crew.
The vampire with the soul looked at his team, then at the demons who were taken by surprise and were trying to regroup themselves "Told you I would kill the dragon."
A strange voice said from behind him "You always do what you say, brother." from the speaker was a tall man about 6'3', with long silky black hair , and deep blue eyes, wearing a white shirt and black jeans ,and he was holding samurai sword in his right hand.
Angel looked surprised that Roham would show in such timing, "Oh my god Roham, what brought you here?"
Roham laughed briefly at his brother's surprise "You didn't think I would leave my own brother alone in a fight like this?"
Connor jumped in the middle of the alley holding his old axe in his hands "Yeah me too"
Angel looked worried and angry "I told you to go home."
Connor gave him a playful half grin and said "Like I would listen to you"
Roham looked over at Gunn, who barely could stand, then he muttered a word in Latin directing a green bolt of energy from his hands toward Gunn's chest. The energy surrounded Gunn for a moment and his wounds started to heal rapidly.
Gunn looked at Roham surprised "Wow cool, dog."
Roham shook his head in gratitude and looked toward the alley "You're welcome, now that the demons are close; you care to get up, and start to fight?"
Angel attacked the remaining demons, so did the rest of the crew, joined by Roham and Connor. The fight didn't last too long and when it was over, they'd lost Illyria. She'd died while fighting bravely and lay in the middle of the alley in Fred shell. Gunn was the next to do, even full of energy from the Roham's spell he couldn't stop the onslaught of demons, he lay bruised, beaten with his neck in an awkward angle.
Time came to a sudden halt, and The Oracles appeared at the middle of the alley, wearing there usual glowing costumes.
The male looked at Spike and bowed his head in a sign of respect "Greetings to our chosen champion."
Spike was shocked to say the least. He thought that title belonged to Angel not him, but he couldn't help the sense of pride that washed over him "Who me!"
Angel wasn't shocked. He'd known since Buffy'd given Spike the amulet in Sunnydale, that the Shanshu prophecy limbo post Spike re-ensoulment have been resolved. The Chosen One has Chosen the One.
For now, he had to be strong. He mustn't show his weakness now. He'd have eternity to brood over this day but, now he had to stay strong "Yeah."
The female looked at Angel in anger "Be silent!"
The male looking at Angel in disgust spoke, "It is not for you to speak before us."
Returning his gaze to Spike "Champion, we are here to grant you your reward."
The male extended his hand until it was over Spike's heart and the blond vampire was surrounded with a white light "Your fight is not over yet, you shall become human but with slayer strength."
Spike fell to the ground as he clutched his chest in obvious pain, and suddenly the light around him disappeared. Spike began to take short panicked breaths, not yet accustomed to the need to breath, and he placed his hand over his now beating heart.
The female looked at Spike "Your destiny lies with the slayer, Champion".
The male turned his gaze to Angel looking at him in disrespect "As for you fallen one, you proved unworthy of the slayer's trust. You sold your son to your enemy. You are no longer respected. You shall remain what you are - a demon with a soul. Moreover, the curse shall be permanent, so there will be no escape to the dark side."
Connor looked at his dad with teary eyes; he felt that it was his fault. If he had tried to know his dad, and listen to him, he wouldn't have been forced to make a deal with Wolfram & Hart; he wondered would his dad ever forgive him.
Spike, on the other hand, was trying to defend his sire, his yoda. He knew what Angel went through the past year in Wolfram, & Hart "No that's wrong he tried to give his son a second of a normal life".
Roham jumped in to help his brother. He heard what Angel had been through how he was left alone with no one to turn to except his enemy "Yeah, it's unfair. You were the ones who let go of him in middle of the war. What did he have left to turn to after you abandoned him?"
The male shouted, "Silence! The Powers have spoken. Their word is final. Now, whoever wants to be transferred to the Slayers, comes before us."
Connor looked towards his dad "I am not leaving my dad."
Roham raised his head "And I won't leave my brother."
Spike looked at them then he decided to leave. His staying wouldn't be a comfortable situation for any of them "I will go. Buffy needs me"
The male looked at Spike "Fine, Champion, you shall go where your destiny belongs" then he waved his hands and Spike disappeared from the alley.
The female looked at the remaining warriors "So the rest of you choose to stay with the fallen one."
They looked at each, then looked at Angel "Yes"
The male spoke once more, "Then our job here is done."
With a sudden flash, The Oracles disappeared and time resumed its flow. Angel found himself with the others in the alley with everyone looking at him waiting for his reaction to what just happened.
Angel looked at his brother and son, then went to were Gunn lay, picked him up and then went to Fred's body and picked her up. Connor tried to offer help but Angel shook his head and replied in anguish "No".
He looked at his brother "Wesley, Please!" Roham understood he sprinted to Cyvus Vail fortress.
Angel looked at his son "Let's return to the hotel."
Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up, I cannot see
That there is not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now
30 minutes later
Angel reached the backward of the hotel as Roham returns with Wesley's body, they laid the bodies next to each other, as it began to slowly drizzle. "Leave me alone, Please!" Angel begged softly to his brother and son.
The drizzle turned quickly to pouring rain as Angel picked up a shovel and started digging the first grave, the rain mixing with the blood oozing from his wounds covering up the tears, as he finished the first grave and placed Wesley in it, "I am sorry, I am so sorry Wes my friend my brother, I am sorry"
Next to go in was Gunn, brave strong human Gunn, the bravest man he met, "I am sorry Gunn, you didn't deserve all this, I am sorry I didn't mean to get you all killed, I am sorry"
Last came Fred whom he held in his arm, brushing the wet hair from her face, the sweet brave Fred, the Texan girl with a heart just as big, " I am sorry Fred, I failed you, I was never your hero but your executioner. I couldn't save your soul I couldn't save your body, please forgive me, I am sorry" He buried his face in her hair as he sobbed.
By the time he was done, his hands were blistered, his soul was aching and he was on his knees waiting for the dawn, hopelessness and despair he could feel nothing but hopelessness and despair.
Roham and Connor were standing in the hotel watching all this unfold, as the first light of morning started seeping through the clouds, Roham walked to the backward and placed his hand on his brother's shoulder, "Let's go brother"
Angel started getting up slowly using his knees to push himself of the ground, "I need a drink a real stiff one." As they passed the hotel lobby, they were created with a cleaned up lobby, the weapon boxes stacked in the main hall. By the time, they reach the middle of the lobby a sudden flash appeared a portal opened in mid-air and a brunette fell out of it.
Roham and Connor took a fighting stance, but Angel grabbed Roham's shoulder and said, "Wait, this is Faith."
Looking at his brother, he relaxed his stance, and wondered aloud, "The Rogue Slayer?"
Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, wake me
Angel moved to help Faith stand up "Yes" then he looked at her, and saw that her eyes were red, 'I wonder why she was crying?' thought Angel then he helped her sit down on one of the lobby's couches.
"Why are you here Faith? And how did you get here?" Angel said, as he looked in her eyes
Faith looked around here, then she nodded her head to Connor in greeting "When Spike came and told us what happened, I figured you might need a friend so I stole on of Red's "warp stones" that helped me get here fast."
Roham looked worried "Do you have it with you?"
Faith looked at him "Yeah, here it is." She pulled it out of her leather pants pocket and handed it to Roham.
He looked at the stone then at the people who was lookin at him. "You know the thing about warp stones is that the wizard who conjures them can trace their energy to where they are, so no one but him would and the only way to cope with that is, in a quick manner without any major spells is" he smashed the stone between his fingers. "Destroy it'
He looked at Faith then he smiled "looks like you're stuck with us"
The slayer smiled at Roham's comment "No problems, by the way, who are you?"
Extending his hand to the slayer "Roham O'Patrick, Liam's brother"
She took his hand and shook it "Faith Lehane, vampire slayer, and you are Angel's brother How?"
The brothers at each other and smiled, while Connor and Faith looked curious to know how they are brothers "simple, same father, Liam is 5 years older than me"
Faith smiled, as she looked at Angel "Wow, you're so full of surprises big guy"
Connor looked at Roham and said, "So you're my Uncle." Connor was so excited of having a real uncle, not a fake one, maybe Wesley was in a sense his uncle.
Roham looked at his brother's son and smiled softly "Yeah , I am your uncle, how weird can your life get? A father and an uncle pushing 250 years old."
Faith looking around the lobby, "Wow, where did you get this stuff?"
Angel with a solemn expression on his face as he remembered how he got these stuff out of Wolfram with Wesley's help "It was transferred under the noses of the senior partners from Wolfram and Hart."
Roham seeing that his brother was in shit mood, he tried to lighten the mode "We need stiff drink brother , try to relax and see what is the plan going forward."
Back in the womb, it's much
Too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I'll live
Faith raised her eyes to met Angel's "Angel, can I have a word with you in private?"
Angel looked confused "Yeah sure we can talk in Wesley's old office"
Angel lead the way to Wesley's old office and when Faith passed through the open door Angel closed it behind him, went for the chair behind the desk, and sat down, stretching his back, then looking to Faith
The vampire with the soul leaned forward and crossed his fingers under his chin "So, you wanted to talk"
The brunette slayer was worried. When she looked in Angel's eyes, she couldn't see the fire that he used to have and that freaked her out.
It was hard enough for her to live with her old sins, but the last two years fighting with Buffy helped to ease the guilt. For the last year, Angel was leading Wolfram & Hart, which (no matter what his reasons were) was hard on him, and helped to deepen the guilt in him.
When Faith saw the blonde ex-vampire transported to them, and telling them what happened, she knew exactly what was going to happen. Angel would hold himself tall, until he was alone then he'd break down, and she'd be damned if she wasn't there to hold his hand through this crisis.
Angel was the only family she ever had, he was always nice to her, and he tried to help her many times, even after she shot him with a poisonous arrow in Sunnydale, which nearly killed him.
In addition, when she came for help, he reached out his hands for her, gave her his roof to hide under, hell he even stood up to Buffy for her.
When Faith was in the police station confessing, she could hear what Buffy had told Angel, thanks to slayer hearing. What she'd heard broke her heart. Angel went against the love of his life to give her a second chance, a chance he was never afforded.
The brunette swore that day that she would always help Angel no matter what happened and no matter what he did.
The vampire with soul sat in front of Faith and lifted her chin with his finger "Faith, you wanted to talk?"
Faith looked at him "How are you doing, Angel?"
Angel looked to Faith and smiled, how he felt, he felt like the world was crumbling under his feet, he'd lost everything. His friends, left without a destiny, he felt many things but in his brains not his heart. He felt numb, he didn't feel any pain, he wasn't angry, he felt as if he was free falling.
"I am good" was the reply he gave her.
Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me
'Fuck, I hate when he acts this way' thought Faith
Her eyes were threatening to empty the tears she was holding "How can you be fine, Angel?"
He gave her a sad grin "I am Faith. Believe me. I know you expect me to breakdown, but I am fine. Believe me"
Faith knew what Angel was going through; he was in denial. The beautiful slayer knew that sooner or later everything would come crashing in his mind, and then he'd breakdown.
Angel looked at Faith. He knew how hard this is for her. He knew how hard her life was, even though she hadn't told him anything, but he could tell. He knew that with the kind of life she lived, emotions became a weakness. He spoke finally asking "So when are you returning to Italy?
Faith looked at him in disbelief, "What? You want me to go?"
"Why are you here? Faith" Angel sighed, looking at her, while moving his hands to his sides.
Faith was now growing angry "I am here to help you, asshole"
Angel looked at her and laughed sarcastically, "Help me? Really? If I recall what Andrew told me, you don't trust me. When I asked Giles to help me save Fred, he refused, saying he didn't consider me a friend who was asking for help. No, he made it clear that he wouldn't help because he wouldn't answer the request of me, a vampire. This was how all of you repaid me, after I saved your fuckin asses many times"
He turned around and held Faith by the shoulders his anger rising "You want to know what happened to Fred when you refused to help her? Do you want to know?"
He shook her again as tears started to form in her eyes "Her organs boiled and her soul was destroyed. We couldn't do anything but to watch helplessly while she was dying. Do you know how fuckin terrible that felt, Faith?"
Tears were running down Faith's cheeks. She couldn't believe what she'd just heard. How could all this have happened without her knowing anything, but again she was only a trainer for the girls. Giles and Buffy were the ones leading the council "Angel, oh my god! I didn't know. If I'd have known I would have helped. You know that"
The vampire looked in her eyes and found the truth. He knew that Faith wasn't one of the leaders of the council. He reached out and wiped away the tears on her cheek "I'm sorry Faith. I didn't mean to yell at you"
He released her shoulders and helped her up as his anger faded away. He'd yelled at the wrong person and that only made him feel guiltier.
Faith looked at him and she thought about how he always gave people second chances and no one did the same for him. "Angel, you have every right to be angry, I wouldn't even be surprised if you didn't trust me."
She didn't have a chance to complete her sentence "Faith, I am the one you lost your trust, it's my fault" Then he helped her of the chair and smiled, "Now if you don't mind, I need to go change so I can go get drunk"
He went to the door, but before he reached it, Faith grabbed his arms. She knew what he was doing; he was shutting her out. "Angel, listen…."
He didn't allow her to continue, "Faith, I don't wanna talk about it okay?"
Then he turned around and left the room, Faith kept staring at the door and she thought 'What happened that would make Angel so closed up?', Even during his outburst, he seemed to be holding a lot of other things. 'What happened to you, Angel' she thought to herself
Darkness imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell
Faith stepped outside Wesley's office, walked toward the lobby, and watched the group as they sat talking to each other.
Connor seemed excited about knowing that he had an uncle, but it was nothing compared to the happiness Roham felt at meeting his brother's son. Roham respected and loved Angel. Not only he was his older brother but he was his best friend. Nothing could affect their friendship, not even Angelus.
Angel walked toward his son and tapped his shoulder, "Connor, go home. They must be worried"
Connor turned to look at his dad and sighed sadly "Oh, yeah right I wanted to talk about to you about that. They don't remember"
Angel was shocked "WHAT?"
Connor looked to his dad with teary eyes "After we fought that guy at Wolfram and Hart, I went home and they didn't seem to know me. Not my friends, hell even my girlfriend didn't know who the hell I was. It looks like the spell was reversed when that strange wizard was killed."
Angel was angry. Even the normal life he'd wanted for his son had been swept away from him. All of his fighting was worthless. He clinched his fists and clutched his jaws.
Connor looked at his dad pleadingly, "Dad, are you okay?" He stood up and placed his hands over his dad's shoulders "Listen I wanted to thank you for what you did."
Angel sneered, "Yeah thank me for a thing you don't own anymore"
Connor looked at his dad and smiled "Well at least, I'm sane now and thinking straight and that I can't ever thank you for"
Angel batted his son on his head in a playful manner "Well I guess we have to arrange for you stay here"
Roham raised his hands to in front his brother "Oh, Liam, I am kind of staying here too"
Angel "No Problem''
Angel looked at Faith, "if you are sticking around, You don't have a choice, you're staying here. Got it?" Faith nodded in return.
Angel gave them a sad grin, "Let's have a drink."
Faith rubbed her hands together "now, we are talkin"
"Can I have some too?" Connor asked
Angel looked at his son and waved a finger in the air "No, you're too young to drink."
Roham laughed "Look who's talking. The guy that started drinking at 13, plus Liam, he's Irish."
Connor laughed at the image of his father drinking at such a young age "13 huh? Well I guess I am coming with you guys."
Angel looked at his brother with anger "Okay, you can come. Roham another word about me and I will kick your ass"
Roham smiled, "Yeah you can try, but you won't be successful."
Gunn looked at his friend "Where will we drink?"
Connor raised his hand "I know a great place near by let's go there"
"Okay fine, but first we need to change; we meet here after 30 minutes okay"
Landmine has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell
End of Prologue
