Chapter One
Miscarriage
Harry had been settled at the dining room table with his new textbooks on healing, he knew Professor McGonagall was disappointed he wouldn't become an Auror but after seven years of being targeted by Voldemort he'd had enough of fighting Dark wizards. Then he'd realised he still wanted to help people and looked into helping asking Poppy Pomfrey if he could apprentice under her watch. He'd never expected to live through the war, yet now two years later things seemed to be bright,, he and Ginny were finally married and expecting their first child, they'd decided to tell the family that coming weekend. Little did he know just how much life would change in a few days.
Two minutes after the thought passed through his mind he heard a loud cry coming from their bedroom, throwing his quill down he nearly tripped over his feet before taking the stairs two at a time, the sight before him making his heart break, there was his beautiful wife leaning over the bed, so much blood pooling at her feet, it didn't take him long to figure out that she was losing their baby. His training kicking in he moved quickly to her side, wrapping his robes around her to keep her warm before apparating them to St Mungos where Healer Morrison met them, rushing Ginny to surgery, leaving Harry to pace the waiting room. He'd been pacing for a while when he saw Sirius and Severus enter the hospital closely followed by Molly.
"Harry what happened?" Sirius asked taking his godson into his arms.
"We were going to tell you this weekend, Ginny found out she was pregnant 8 weeks ago. This morning she was bleeding a lot, I'm training to be a healer and I know she's miscarried. Sirius how do I help her?" Harry whispered.
"Be There when she needs you. There are options if the worst happens, you know of the male pregnancy potion yes?"
"Poppy has me studying the potion I have to write an essay on it. I know it's where a male ends up with a permanent womb. Wait I could do that even though I'm not gay?" Harry asked almost hoping the answer was yes. He'd do anything for Ginny.
"Severus has made a batch recently so we can start trying I'm sure he'd be willing to give you some. Though we don't know the outcome yet."
"I know I just want to have a plan in case the worst happens. Would you be willing Sev?" Harry asked his step godfather.
"I would, though you'd usually need to be examined I can vouch for you. Though I would be more inclined to examine you myself if you're agreeable." Severus said, nodding his head toward the healer as she entered the waiting room, once mow.
Harry turned to face Healer Morrison any hope he had been holding onto leaving his heart at the look on her face. Tears freely falling as the realisation set in that he'd have to inform his wife not only had she lost their baby but she wouldn't be able to carry any period. Suddenly the decision to carry their children himself was something he was determined to make happen. Ginny would have children to love, even if he would be the one to give birth. Taking a deep breath he prepared himself for the news he was sure would come.
"Harry, I'm so sorry for your loss, we did everything we could to stop the bleeding but Ginny lost too much blood. We weren't able to stop the bleeding without an emergency hysterectomy. Now I'm sure you know that you have options when the time comes to try again."
"If Ginny can't carry children then I'm going to, please I want to see my wife." Harry said quietly.
"Come with me. She's still groggy but waking." Healer Morrison explained leading Harry to Ginny's private room.
Harry was lost in his thoughts as he followed a Healer Morrison to his wife's room, it was going to be hard enough to tell Ginny that they'd lost their child but to have to inform her that she could never carry a child, it broke a piece of his heart, the knowledge cemented his decision to carry their children, it didn't matter how many she wanted he would do this for her. Ron would think he was crazy but what else was new there. Taking a deep breath he came to a stop outside Ginny's hospital room, in a few short moments her life would be drastically changed and he hoped that he would be able to help her come to terms with those changes.
As he entered the room he rushed to Ginny's side unable to stop himself from running his fingers through her hair, tears freely falling as he used his free hand to rub his cramping belly. something that had been happening a lot since he'd been away from Hogwarts. He was so lost in thought he hadn't noticed Ginny open her eyes and give her husband s look of concern. Rubbing his eyes he looked up smiling despite the situation relieved that his wife has woken, though now came the hard part. Frowning he tried desperately to find the right words.
"The baby." Ginny asked.
"I'm sorry, sweetheart. We lost the baby, there was a lot of blood, to stop the bleeding they needed to do a hysterectomy." Harry said softly.
"I cant have children. But his." Ginny choked.
"I have an idea but I didn't think you'd want to talk about it so soon." Harry answered.
"Harry James you tell me right now." Ginny fumed.
"Sev and Siri are going to try for a baby, they've made the male pregnancy potion, I thought that I could carry the children." Harry whispered suddenly finding the floor interesting.
"You'd do that?" Ginny asked in awe eager to know the answer despite the pain in her heart that she would never be able to carry the children herself.
"I'd do anything for you Gin." Harry said rubbing his cramping stomach again
"Thank you. Harry what's wrong?" Ginny asked knowing the signs when her husband wasn't feeling well.
"It's nothing." Harry mumbled.
"Harry what is it I'm your wife you can tell me anything." Ginny said softly as tears fell for her lost child, still in shock at her husbands offer.
"Recently I've been getting a crappy belly and I feel a little sick. It makes no sense." Harry admitted.
"And you haven't told me a about this why?" Ginny asked.
""Because I didn't want to worry you. But it's been happening since I left Hogwarts."
"Two years, you've been getting them for two years and you haven't told anyone. Or seen anyone. You're a Healer in training Harry."
"I promise I'll go and see Sev. I've already asked him to help me with the potion. I just want you to get well first." Harry pleaded.
"Alright I'll let you way with that one. But you must go and see him agreed?"
"Agreed. Now rest." Harry ordered softly,
"I will. I love you Harry, thank you for doing this for me."
"Anything for you Gin. Sickness and in health remember."
Harry began to rub his fingers through Ginny's hair again, tears falling afresh as he grieved for their lost child, though they didn't get to meet their child he knew his parents would be looking over them making sure everything went well. They'd get to meet their child again, just not until they were old and grey he hoped. Making a silent promise to look after himself and any children he would carry, he lay his head against his arm quickly falling asleep.
That's how Severus, Sirius and Molly found them two hours later, deciding they could talk about everything at a later date. Molly left soon after to fill the family in on what had happened whilst Sirius and Severus stayed close by, both men unwilling to leave their family alone. Sirius looked up making a silent pray to his best friends asking them to look after his godsons child. It was a futile attempt but it made him feel like he was doing something. Leaning against his husband he wept for his godson, knowing that now he would be even more determined to carry his children.
After all the one thing Harry had yearned for most was a family of his own.
