Where's my happy ending? First Sam and now Jacob, I lost them both. I'm sorry to say this but I was starting to actually fall in love with him--with Jacob. He's the only one I could relate to. I lost my love and Jacob lost his. We connected with each other due to the fact that we had a common loss-our love. We didn't want to be what we are-werewolves- but sadly we couldn't change it. He understood why I couldn't stay in Sam's pack; he understood my pain, as I slowly began to understand his. That's why I slowly fell for him. I couldn't accept that I, Leah Clearwater, had fallen in love with Jacob Black, of all people. I couldn't accept that, until one day I saw the pain in his eyes as he angrily, desperately, sped through the bloodsuckers driveway and left me there feeling useless. I couldn't help him, and it killed me. But to seeing him so brokenhearted—broke my heart, too.
Fiery rage pulsed through me! I couldn't contain myself and I was already in wolf form! I hit a tree as hard as I could, and it fell over.
Sorry environment, I thought, bitterly.
I was filled with despair and hopelessness. The heart in my chest felt as if swollen with emotions.
What did we do wrong!? I thought, confused. All we wanted was a happy ending. We want someone to care for us. Someone to tell us everything's going to be "okay" when its not. We want somebody to embrace us when we need it. Just to embrace us for no reason, except love. Smile at us because they're happy to be with us. Kiss us for the simple reason to show affection, like Sam does with Emily, like he used to do with me.
I felt like I was just punched in the chest and just been call the weakest person in the plant at the thought of how Sam used to act with me. I suddenly remember Sam's sweet kisses and tight hugs, like he was about to lose me. Accept I lost him. His smile was just like the rare sun we see here in the Olympic Peninsula to me and I would see it every second I was with him. And that last night before he turned-
I caught that thought before it was too late.
Thatthought is just too painful. That would be like kicking me over and over again, laughing like crazy while doing it, and calling me pathetic at the same time.
This is how Jake feels. I concluded.
Then I did my specialty, I ran. I ran as fast as I could to the clearing I had my clothes at. I put it in my mouth and ran close to the edges of the leech's driveway. Then for the first time in forever I turned to my human form. I put my clothes on and walked very angrily toward the House of Death (the Cullen's home). I busted in there without knocking, very mad, and shaking.
"What did you do!!!?" I yelled.
All the Cullen's were the only ones there at the moment and they all looked up at me.
"What did you do to Jacob? Why did Jake drive away like that!?"
Bella looked down guiltily. "It's because of me." She whispered.
I glared at her my most hateful glare. "I know it's because of you it's always because of you, Bella! I want to know what you did now. Gah, Bella!-
"Leah? Calm down." said Edward calmly.
F you! I thought, knowing he could read my mind.
"After everything he's done for you? After your bloodsucker left you! He didn't have to be there for you all the time. He didn't have to save you when you jumped offthat dang cliff!-"
"Leah!" said Edward again.
I ignored him, I was on a roll!
"He didn't have to convince us to help you agents the Redheaded Leech, Bella. We could have let you get ripped to pieces!-"
"Leah!" yelled Edward.
"But, Jacob wouldn't let us!
"Leah, this is your-"
"Or now, with Sam!" I said raising my voice, blocking the bloodsucker out. "He didn't have to leave his friends! Or his family! No, he could have let Sam and the pack do whatever the hell they wanted to you and these leeches!!! Dan-"
Edward grabbed me by the arm and started dragging me to the door, with ease.
"Let me go!" I yelled, trying to get my arm back from Edwards grip. "Son of a-"
"Don't say it, the baby can hear you" he said, so calm, like we were taking a walking the, freakin', park.
I rolled my eyes.
I thought he didn't like the baby.
"Let me go!!!" I yelled.
Then Queen Leech, Edward, through me out the door!
"Don't ever do that again" he growled. Then Edward went back inside.
I could hear Bella cry. I didn't know if should be happy or pissed off though. So I ran back to the woods and hit another tree. It fell and I started crying.
That's when I noticed my heart hurt. That's when I noticed I was in love again.
I was in love with Jacob Black.
