A/N) Heads up for you all. I've been feeling terribly angsty lately.
I laugh painfully as I watched you walk away. Lifting my Dragon Staff, I watch you with unshed tears glimmering in my eyes as you walk away on that chestnut jaguar of yours.
You don't know how much it hurts.
I just want to die.
I want to run away from this life, I want to be freed, I want to be alone, to break down, to just have a good cry on my own.
I never thought that I could feel this lonely in a crowd. I never thought that you, of all people, would leave me, would leave me to cry alone in the darkness.
I never thought that you, of all people, would insult the only thing I stand for. I never thought that you would insult the only pillar in my life that was holding me up, that you would just smash that pillar to pieces and leave me broken and alone.
I had never felt more alone in my life.
Distancing myself from others is terrible.
But
I can't live through a similar betrayal ever again.
I trusted you - I trusted you with my life.
You left me alone, broken, disheartened. But still, here I stand.
Did you see the undried tears still falling from my eyes? Did you hear my heart shatter as I heard you insult the only thing I want?
I thought you were a friend.
I guess I was wrong.
I'm scared.
I'm scared of everyone.
I'm scared of having the same thing happen again.
I don't want to break, and having to heal painfully -
all
over
again.
A/N) Knights... this doesn't refer to you. It doesn't.
I noticed on MS, I've been getting more and more short-tempered. I noticed that I've been losing my temper over the simplest of things.
I have no excuse.
I'm scared. I'm scared of breaking. I'm scared of having to heal painfully all over again.
