Sorrow

by refractive

(Slightly AU. You could say this little scene happened just after Alec meets Tess for the second time, or just after Alec follows Tess back to Marlott.)


It was a sort of love that burned him from inside out and left him numb. He felt lost, for he didn't ever know he was capable of feeling to this extent. The very idea of … he always thought that it was impossible, for someone like him.

He clenched and unclenched his fists, his heart feeling heavy. It was a dull ache that never fully went away, will never fully go away, he now knew. He closed his eyes.

"I am so sorry," he said slowly, painfully. The words seem distant and he sighed, his eyes darting to and fro beneath his lids, as if looking for something in the dark recesses of his mind- words, perhaps, that he could never have said before.

"I'm sorry that you were – that you were not... - under better circumstances." He struggled, for the first time, with his words, but he pressed on. "I'm sorry for – for not being – there, with you." He finally opened his eyes, finally dared to glance down at the small, makeshift tomb on the corner of the churchyard. Wilted flowers littered the small area- he couldn't find it in himself to bring some, for the very idea of getting flowers seemed to make everything that much more real.

"She named you Sorrow." His voice was filled with emotion he couldn't quite place. The churchyard stayed silent. "I wonder…" he passed a hand through his face, which had aged considerably upon entering the churchyard, no, upon first hearing the news. The groan, which seemed to have come from the bottom of his soul, was heard by perhaps, only one other person.

The parson of the parish watched from afar as the solitary man knelt close to the ground, weeping for the son he never knew.

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Prompt: Spies in a cemetery.

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AN:I couldn't help it, I remember when my friend gave me the prompt, I had just finished Tess, and I knew Ihad to write about this. I know a lot of people hate Alec but I wanted to play up his more human side. I don't know why.

Please tell me what you think!

Last edited on: 6 June 2012