Near
Songfic
A beautiful lie
Warning: Alot of angst and almost suicidal thoughts
Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note. Don't make me sad.
A/N: This is a songfic with 'A beautiful lie' by 30 seconds to Mars. I heard the song, and thought it would fit Near because of the 'empty face' in the lyrics. Oh, anyway..enjoy! And I would love a review *hint*. Here you go:
Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Almost every night, he lie awake. He thought about the weirdest things. He really wanted to be different, to be someone else. To live a different life, a normal life. But that wasn't a possibility. One, he was an albino. Two, he had no parents. And three, he was way too smart. It was weird, he thought, that someone so smart just wanted to be normal. He never told anyone these thoughts.
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game
He really didn't wanted to hear it. That he became number one again. It didn't mean anything to him. But he was too smart to fake his test results, to make them worse. And people would notice it. He couldn't take this pressure. These expectations. He was far too young for so much responsibility. He would gladly had Mello become number one, become L. He was too young for this title. This pressure of having to solve crimes, to save people. So he thought of it as a game. A game of lives. Then, he could handle the pressure.
It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me
"L is dead". No. No, no, no, no. This couldn't happen. How? "If you can't beat the game, if you can't solve the puzzle, you're nothing but a loser". L was a loser. He had lost. L died. He tried to hide it. The sorrow, the grief, the pain. A beautiful lie. That everyone believed in. Now he had to take over from L, to win this game of lives - or rather- lies. He had to win, he couldn't lose like L had. He had loved L, and he lost. A beautiful lie. No, L had won. He got away from this world. This cruel, cruel world. Away, from the responsibility as L.
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game
He tried to forget his past. Erase the memories. But, as he had discovered a long time ago, memories don't go away. He hid himself. Behind this empty face, this blank expression. He couldn't let people see his feelings. He barely spoke either. It was better to have people ignore him, to forget him. This was, afterall, a game. A game of lies. And if he failed, if he lost, he didn't wanted anyone to remember him. Forget. Forget, if only he could.
It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me
(Oh Oh
The end of the world)
It felt like the end of the world. He was alone.
Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game
He had to focus. To concentrate. He had to win. Not for himself, he didn't care, but for L, who had won. Or lost. He was getting desperate. He HAD to win. This was just a game. A battle between good and evil. Or rather evil and commitments. He had to do this. He was born to do this.
(So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful...)
It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me
He'd won. A beautiful lie. They've all died. They had won. L, Matt, Mello and even Kira, Light Yagami. They got away. They died. He was alone. Now, he had to solve crimes, until he died. And, for a fact, he was alredy bored. Bored to death. If only boredom could kill, then at least he would be dead.
A/N: Review please. I would love it if you would tell me what was good and what was bad. Thanks. And tell me if you'd like me to make more songfics. Later.
