I do not own Teen Titans


If you ever see this, you probably wouldn't care about what I have to say.

You won't realize how much you have hurt me,

because you don't consider us to be a family.

And neither do I.

After all these years, I have come to terms with our relationship.

If you can even call it a relationship.

All those years of suffering under you influence.

Of watching you abuse your power,

and Azarath itself.

Especially Arella.

You created me for your own selfish purposes.

To one day become the portal,

and help you spread the misery that I experienced myself to the rest of the world.

For so long,

I ran from you.

I escaped to earth.

Thinking that somehow,

I could stop you.

And be free.

You didn't care.

You still don't care.

Every day,

I lived terrified of becoming like you.

Of helping you.

Of being called your

daughter.

I never thought I could be happy.

I knew that if I was,

You would take advantage of it.

Coming to earth was probably the best decision I ever made.

But still,

I knew you would soon come.

I was selfish.

I made them trust me.

And they did.

They took me in.

We formed a team.

Which is the closest thing to a family I ever and will ever have.

I didn't tell them about my destiny.

I thought they would judge me.

Turn me away.

Just like the all others.

I would often look at myself in the mirror and tear up.

Because I was starting to believe all you said to me.

I was worthless.

A danger.

Insignificant.

A coward.

I deserved this.

The list goes on forever.

I worried they would reject me.

Worried that they would start believe all these things you said about me themselves.

But they didn't.

They accepted me.

They helped me.

They became my friends.

Something I thought was impossible for me.

I learned friendship.

I learned to trust people.

They brought out the best of me.

A part I thought I'd never see.

But even after all that,

I was afraid.

Afraid of loosing them.

Loosing them to you.

I didn't want them to go through what I went through.

To spend whatever was left of their lives miserably.

I didn't want to be feared.

They cared about me.

The only ones who ever showed that to me where them,

and the monks of Azarath.

But you took them away from me.

I was alone.

Until I found them.

Robin.

The one I could come to for everything and anything.

The one who showed the most faith in me beneath it all.

The one who dared me to hope.

Cyborg.

The figure of an older brother.

And a good one at that.

The one who reached out to me in my times of need.

Starfire.

The one I call... best friend.

She showed me kindness.

And a better way to see things.

And Beast Boy.

The one who showed me fun.

The one who urged me to continue.

And the cause of my new found emotions.

I may still be under your influence,

but I am no longer under your control.

I have a say in what my destiny will be.

And my life will be as miserable as I choose it to be.

Life is a beautiful gift that should never be wasted.

It's irreplaceable.

In it,

nothing is impossible.

You're free.

But that's just not the truth.

Not my truth.

And I have learned to accept that.

I will never have a normal life.

I will always be under your influence.

I will never be able to love,

or be loved.

I will never be able to show emotions.

And I will never get to be a normal person.

But I will not become like you.

I will find a better destiny.

I will not let your influence haunt me any longer.

Because like a good friend of mine said,

"There will always be people who say mean words because you are different,

and sometimes their minds can not be changed;

but there are many more people who do not judge others based on how they look or where they are from.

Those are the people who's words truly matter."

Theirs are the words that truly matter.