He had always been the quiet one, the mature one. And the one that was only ever really noticed when he was needed, for advice or for just a shoulder to cry on and Mathieu was pretty alright with that. He had always hidden how he really felt, waiting till he was along in his room to start listing out his worries. Mathieu was always the one people came to for advice or to just be an open ear, and now when he needed someone, was anyone there? Well, it didn't feel like it.

A bear who couldn't remember your name wasn't much of a comfort.

Endless nights of broken sleep, or sleep that wasn't even there at all was getting to the male. He found himself snapping and swearing and people he had never even rose a voice to before. And that didn't help, he found himself racked with guilt and hatred at himself. The man who had never really rose his voice before now losing his temper at the slightest push.

Life has it's ironic ways of working you.

Rushing into 'love' to just over disappointment never really works too well. And when that hurdle you are trying to get over turns around and says they love you a few moments after you get into a relationship with someone else, well it's just ironic cruelty. Mathieu didn't know what to do. Wanting to be with someone, but not wanting to hurt the other. It was a tough page in anyone's books.

And Mathieu hadn't written many books.

Sure, he gave advice but really he didn't have that much to go by. He felt like a hopeless child most of the time, scared that the advice he gave would end up in someone getting hurt. But he never showed that, the man could be fairly blunt. Though people said he was too nice for his own good.

But was he really?

Getting jealous of two that were close while he was in a relationship himself, it wasn't really right and he knew that oh too well; but what if someone stole away the one he had his eyes on while he was trying to free himself...? Mathieu wanted that person to be his and only his, but he was stuck in the moment. Falling into a relationship to just get over himself.

Stupid boy.

And as his tears bottled up against themselves now that he was alone, he didn't know what to do. Promises had been made, but it was so hard not the broke then as he shut his eyes and entered another world of horrifying sleep.