Castle knelt to the ground and opened a box with a ring in it. He coughed nervously.
"6 years ago, you said that I'm a nine-years-old-in-a-sugar-rush. I spent the next 1 week to figure out how to be an 18-years old in a sugar rush. 2 months later , you told me, when it comes to marriage, you want it to be one and done. Since then, until now, I tried to be your one and done."
Tears were welling on Castle's blue eyes. He thought he'll handle this well, but he was wrong.
He took a depp breath,ready for more. "5 years ago, we were going in an undercover as a married couple. You refused. You said if we're married , you want a divorce. I spent the next 2 years to fix myself. To be the man you want me to be, so you don't ask for divorce , in case we are married."
He wiped his tears then.
Don't cry. Not now.
"4 years ago , you told me that if I stuck in prison , you'd get me out with that reassuring voice. I can't stop thinking about it , even now. The next 5 months , we were getting hitched by secret agents , and the first time I woke up next to you was amazing painful , but amazing. It was just...worth it."
"I love your laugh,you know. Talking about laugh - the first time you laughed at me was because my clumsiness. I was acting clumsy all the time after that...just to see your laugh. A year later , you got shot in the chest. And that was the worst feeling ever. I was scared. I was scared to face the possibility of losing you. And that day I realized , I'm nothing without you , I can't lose you , you are so much a part of me. So I said I love you as you lost your consciousness. That was the first time I said those I'm still in love with you , Kate. I won't ever stop.""
He was cursing himself for not admitting his love earlier.
"I love you,Kate. And then you lied. And I was holding my own secrets , too. I acted like a jerk. I'm really , really , sorry. That night , when you knocked my door... When you said you want me... I swear that was the best moment of my life...that , and when my Alexis came to my world. To our world."
He fixed his words quick. He knew Kate loved Alexis more than she love him.
"It's a year ago since I bring you to The Hampton with Alexis. I love how you love her so much like she's your own daughter. I love how you kissed her on the cheek every single morning. I love how you comforted her and gave her advices. I love you , Kate. And I hope you love me , too. So , Katherine Beckett, will you let me be your one and done ? Will – will you marry me ?"
Castle was shaking and crying after the last sentence.
"That was it, Kate. That's why I acted weird that night. I was going to say that the next day , and I was so nervous and I can't be near you. I didn't have any meeting with Gina that day... I was preparing myself. I never thought that you'd be shot again. I thought... I thought you had backup." He cried even harder.
"I never expect that awkward night will be our last , Kate. I love you , you know ? Why did you leave me this fast ? " Asked Castle as he rocked Kate Beckett's tombstone.
A/N : English is not my first language and I'm not really sure with this story. If you love it, tell me. If you hate it , tell me. Thank you for reading!
