Not Again (Episode 10 Wyatt POV)

Wyatt watched as the Mothership swiftly disappeared from him. How had this happened? Why had he not kept a closer eye on where she went? Immediately, Wyatt was jarred from his innermost thoughts by Rufus yelling, "We've got to get back to the Lifeboat! The only way to know where he has taken her is to get back home and track him!" Wyatt turned and nodded in his direction. Then we headed back to the Lifeboat. Once inside, Wyatt turned to buckle Lucy in...her seat was empty. While Rufus started up the Lifeboat, all Wyatt could think about was Lucy and how he had let her down.

When the left boat returned to Mason Industries, the entire facility was in an uproar. Rufus and I explained the basics of what had happened – neither one of us was sure how explain everything without getting in a lot of trouble so we fudged the facts as best we could. After the initial shock of Flynn kidnapping Lucy, the team immediately went to work trying to find her. The warehouse fell silent – a frantic silence took over building. Everyone working to try to figure out how to find Flynn and Lucy. The only problem was we only could trace the Mothership when it traveled back in time – not its current location. Wyatt grew frustrated as he waited. He was a man of action. Why couldn't they just find him? Too many things could go wrong if they had to wait for Flynn to use the Mothership again. And, even if he did, there was no guarantee he would take Lucy to the past with him. They needed to find Flynn in the present – it was the only way to ensure Lucy's safety. For all they knew, Flynn could dump her somewhere in history. The present was their best option but it grew increasingly obvious that it was the most unlikely option as well. Wyatt wasn't a technician or scientist like Rufus and his questions seemed to be only slowing down the "think tank." As much as it killed him to admit he was getting in the way. All he could do was for now was wait until he was needed. Since he for sure wasn't going home and he wanted to get out of the way, Wyatt went to wait and think in one of the back-meeting rooms. He needed some time think and collect himself.

As Wyatt waited for news, he began to remember the last mission and how it had gone so terribly wrong.

It all started when Flynn basically blackmailed them into helping him. What was Flynn thinking threatening to kill George Washington? Could he really be that insane as to threatened the country's entire history, Wyatt thought. But clearly he was – he had told them as much. "I've already shot Lincoln." Wyatt shook his head remembering…it had only gone downhill from there. Then, Flynn did something Wyatt never expected; he asked for their help in finding Benedict Arnold and destroying Rittenhouse. He began to try to convince Lucy that it was okay to change history this one time. Yet, she remained unmoved. Wyatt smirked as he remembered, Lucy was always true to her mission – saving history. But this time, Flynn had come prepared to get around Lucy's resolve and he and Rufus fell right for it. What had he promised them? Turning over the keys to the Mothership? Destroying Rittenhouse so Rufus' family wouldn't be threatened anymore? The name of Jessica's murderer?

Wyatt slammed his hand on the table as he remembered Flynn's promises. He had been the link Flynn needed to wear down Lucy. What had he said, "I figured you would say no so I'm sweetening the pot…the name of your wife's killer." He ran his hand through his hair. How had he fallen for such empty promises? Once Flynn had made his promises he lost all reason. Even Rufus was not initially interested in helping Flynn. What had he said "even if there is a 1% chance of finding Jessica's killer he would help Flynn." So, he began to pressure Lucy into doing something she clearly did not want to do.

Somehow Flynn knew if he could get Wyatt on board then he would be able to convince Lucy to help. Flynn had taken advantage their friendship or of a future relationship he knew about from the journal. Thinking back to the Watergate mission, Flynn knew that reading what Lucy had written about Wyatt would bother him. Wyatt also knew that Flynn had seen everything Lucy had ever written about Wyatt in that journal – what if there was more to their relationship than even they knew and Flynn had used it against him. Shaking his head, Wyatt wasn't even sure where that idea had come from. How long had he harbored this secret hope that Lucy had written more about him in that blasted journal? Wyatt sighed – he didn't even know the answer to his own question. So, he pushed it aside and continue to try to remember the mission.

Once they had gotten to Arnold their deal with Flynn only continued to go south. Arnold could take them to Rittenhouse – one man. Rittenhouse was a man. Flynn immediately wanted to assassinate him. Wyatt thought back on their private conversation in that dining room with disdain now. Lucy had remained silent as he and Rufus calmly discussed killing David Rittenhouse. He had even used getting Amy back as a way to pressure her into agreeing to the plan. What kind of friend was he? Using the hope of regaining her sister to convince her to do something against her conscious? He was no better than Flynn in that moment. He knew it then and he knew in now. Rufus and Wyatt had both pressured her into approving of a killing a man for their own selfish benefits and ultimately Lucy had been the one to pay the price for it.

Wyatt began pacing. He was never one to pace when he was nervous but somehow this entire situation was different. The last time he felt like this was four years ago when Jessica went missing and he knew she was missing because he had left her on the side of the road. Like before, Lucy was missing and it was his fault.

His mind drifted back to when they had finally found David Rittenhouse and his son. The old man was a dirt bag. You could just feel the evil emitting off of him as soon as he entered the room. His eyes immediately went to Lucy and Wyatt got a sick feeling in his stomach. When Rittenhouse called Lucy over to him and began inspecting her like she was a piece of property, Wyatt grew furious. His line of questing indicated he had other plans for Lucy - plans that Wyatt would never allow to happen as long as he lived. Then Rittenhouse had ordered his men to disarm and execute Flynn and Wyatt while he told another to take Lucy to "his bed chamber" and wait for him. Wyatt grew frantic. Lucy calling out to Wyatt only made his fear grow. She was scared and looked to him to protect her. This was his fault. Lucy was about be kidnapped, assaulted, and possibly be stuck in this godforsaken time because he had made a deal with the devil. Rittenhouse's men grabbed Lucy and started dragging her off. She had screamed and pled for Rittenhouse not to do this and he just smirked at her. Then the door closed and Lucy was gone. Luckily enough, Rufus came to their rescue in the nick of time. Flynn and Wyatt were able to take out Rittenhouse and his men. Once, they were free Wyatt immediately ran toward the door to save Lucy. But Lucy always surprised him – as soon as he got to the door she swung it open looking for him. For what seemed like an eternity they both stared into each other's eyes. Each assessing the other's safety. Both supremely relieved the other was unharmed. However, before either could speak the moment was ended abruptly…

Wyatt sat back down at the table. What happened next all seemed to be jumbled in his mind. Flynn calling out for Rittenhouse's son – desperately wanting to assassinate the boy to ensure the end of Rittenhouse. We regrouped and realized Flynn had gone after the boy. We split up. Why had he allowed Lucy to go off alone? It happened all too fast. She ran off before he could send Rufus with her. Once looking for Flynn in the woods, Wyatt grew anxious again. He wasn't sure where Lucy had run off to – how as he to find her? What if something happened and he couldn't get to her in time? Right when he bumped into Rufus his worst fears came true. He heard Lucy screaming out his name. He and Rufus ran toward her voice. Wyatt called out for her trying to use the sound of her voice to find her. He and Rufus ran as fast as they could while she shouted their names. Then he saw it – the Mothership and its door was closing. He called out for her – ran toward the ship but to no avail. The ship was gone. She was gone. He had gotten there too late. Flynn had taken her. He had failed her.

Wyatt had yet to truly confront his growing feelings for Lucy. After returning from Arkansas, he had worked hard to convince himself that the kissed they had shared meant nothing. He had even told her as much but even as the words spilled out of his mouth he knew better. He hadn't felt this way about a woman since Jessica but he shrugged it off. He had convinced himself the feeling would go away – he could only ever love Jessica. But what had Lucy said to him in Arkansas… "you, me, anyone has to be open to possibilities…" Her brown eyes seemed to penetrate his soul as she had said it – almost asking him the unspoken question that existed between them.

Wyatt sat with his head buried in his hands and his eyes closed. He couldn't believe this was happening to him again. The woman he cared about more than anything was missing. And like the last time, Wyatt blamed himself. He had left Jessica on the road. He had pressured Lucy into the entire situation. This could not be happening again.

Immediately, Wyatt opened his eyes and sat up. When had his feelings for Lucy changed so deeply? He was comparing her to Jessica. When had this happened? He wasn't sure. All he knew was that Lucy was the one person in the world that made him feel at peace again. He hadn't felt like that in years. He wouldn't let Flynn take her from him. He wouldn't let Lucy down like he had with Jessica. She depended on him – she told him as much at the Alamo. He would find her. Once he did, he would talk to her about how he felt. He didn't know what or how he would say it but he would find a way. Wyatt had spent years living in the past and he wasn't going to allow himself continue to be trapped by it. Wyatt knew he needed Lucy. Lucy was his future.

With renewed determination, Wyatt walked back downstairs to see if Rufus and the team had made any progress on finding Flynn and the Mothership. He was ready to go save Lucy.