Unspoken Feelings

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I tore the paper I have written my poetry for and ripped it into pieces. How can I be so blinded by him? Since I met him, my world began to move at it's own pace; my heart began to beat more with life than the ones it beat for the ordinary day of living my life. Now, as I felt my cheeks damped by the tears I have shed for him, I realized how difficult it is to breathe knowing there is someone inside of me that continues to stab me with his pointed sword.

I watched at the sidelines as he wrapped his arms around her waist and whispered lovingly into her ears. They laughed together and walked into the streets as if they own it and that whatever may lie ahead, they would not be daunted as long as they have each other. Perfect. Perfect view for my already good morning.

I continued walking with my head down and with a tight grip on the sling of my bag. I never knew love could hurt like this but even if I knew, I know I will still be choosing to love him more than I do today.

"Sometimes, what you just have to do is to be happy and contented with what you have right now. It's natural and it's simple. Life is to to be lived in that way." I said as I faked a smile to my worried friend.

"I-"

"Do not tell me ' I told you so' again because if you do, I will kill you." I interrupted Hotaru as she was about to speak. I know she will say that but I did not mean the words I have told her. She's not even intimidated enough to be scared with what I say.

"Hey Mikan, I saw Natsu. . ." Ana was not able to continue as she received a glare from Hotaru.

"Er, nothing. Forget that I said anything."

"It's okay Ana. I saw him too." I said glumly as I began to write a poem. They grew silent and I know what they were thinking. I'm stupid, I admit that because I let myself fall for a guy who's never paid even such a short glance at me. I am not supposed to feel this way but I can't be blamed for this. Blame that guy with gorgeous looks and with a strong sex appeal. He stole my heart from the very start and I was not able to even get it back...

I stared at the window and there he goes again, making me love him. Perfect build, tall, neat, cool and so confident as he walked with long strides. Beautiful just like a piece of art that was made with great skills and effort but no one is able to afford the price to pay. I cannot possess him, cannot even say my feelings for him bounded by the culture that girls cannot confess their love first on the guy. Sometimes I wish I was born with confidence to speak up. Watching him so free and happy, busy with his work and with the woman he has fallen in love with, makes me want to just make the time fly and graduate now for as long as I see him everyday, I would not be able to get over and move on with my life.

Crying for once is enough for me to let go of my feelings for him but I know that it will be hard to forget him. If ever you see him, kindly say I love him even though he loves somebody else. I know this is impossible and I cannot change it anymore. I know time will come that it will be my day to be loved. For now, I'll settle with my feelings and love myself and the people that surrounds me with love. It is contentment. You can be curious at some times of your life,of course but let it be. For the experiences teaches you to be strong and you always learn from it.

That is the difficulty that a silly girl like me faces. That is the challenge that a girl like me has over my certain crush named Natsume Hyuuga.

-Mikan Sakura

The end.

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