Chapter 1 - Jakotsu

Disclaimer: I don't own anything in InuYasha what so ever. With the exception of the story's original character concept for "Ame"

This is a revision of an older story I've been re-writing on and off for about seven years. The entire story is written in a first person point of view. I think this is much easier to write like this, though it usually means shorter chapters.

He stared at me with cold amber eyes, grimacing as he shouldered his weapon. "Still alive, I see. You just won't give up, will ya?" he asked me. And to be honest, I did. He had no feelings for me and I knew that. I thought I had come to terms with it, no one has ever returned my love anyway. So what would one more rejection be? This time felt different somehow, a new set of feelings began to surface. It wasn't lust; I have felt that so many times before I could never mistake it. Is it possible that the feeling I felt was love? Condensation stung at my eyes. It was a strange sensation, I could feel when my skin would get tore wide open and yet I couldn't smell the sweet scent of the world. I didn't even need to breathe. Though I could cry and feel emotional pain that I never had before. It was the strangest thing.

I stared back at him; my throat was beginning to feel raw "Just long enough for you to finish me off."

"Hmph- I won't have to, judging from your condition." He sheathed his sword.

I pointlessly took in a deep breath "Please, Inuyasha,"

Inuyasha raised a brow "Why do you want to die so badly?"

"…Why not? If I am going to die, I wish it to be swift." I closed my eyes.

"A worthless specter like you isn't worth my time." He glared.

I winced. Right now, hearing him say that cut me worse than any sword. "Is there anything I can say to make you change your mind?"

"Nothin'." He turned around. I began to panic on the inside.

It showed. "Inuyasha, please don't leave me!" I implored him, feeling a little pathetic after those words escaped my lips.

He stopped "What are you talkin' about?" he asked with his eyebrow quirked high.

"I -I just don't want to die alone…" I admitted.

"What's that got to do with me?"

"I just want you to say here until I pass. Please." My eyes began to sting more, thinking that this will be how I remember him. Hating my very existence…Was I seriously that bad of a person? Heh, well, now that I think about it…Killing people for money really isn't very socially acceptable. I guess I should expect this kind of reaction from others, I suppose.

"How do you expect to change my mind?" he asked, now seeming somewhat amused by my desperation.

I shook my head "I can't… I wish…" my curse threatened my eyes again. I just couldn't take it I burst into tears "I wish you could love me too! I wish I could be everything you've ever wanted –ever needed- even if it meant becoming someone else! Anything to receive your love…"

"You're crazy." He shook his head and began walking away again.

'No, No… Please don't leave me… I love you.' I wanted to tell him, but the burning soreness of my throat and the crippling wrenching of my chest disabled me from talking. All I could do was watch. Watch as my unrequited love disappeared from my sight. I could still see those hate-filled eyes…Those beautiful, haunting eyes. I exhaled; and decided to think about how sweet death would seem with Inuyasha at my side. I imagined that the debris surrounding me was Inuyasha's embrace. I imagined that he kissed my forehead. I practically melted into him. And then, I did. My body began to conform into his very desire… then I realized that someone was watching me. I opened my eyes and saw brother Renkotsu staring down at me. I knew he had been hiding in the shadows waiting for me to die. And that was okay. If killing me would make my brother happy, then so be it. I was done for either way. I fought the pain circulating through my body and smiled at him.

He leaned down to me, simply saying, "Forgive me..." as he removed my shard.

I forgive you, brother. As my body began to fade, so did my thoughts. Goodbye, my love…I hope that if we meet again, you will be able to return my love.