In this moment, when I had this vision, I knew exactly what I wanted. I loved Jacob, this I was positive. I wanted more than anything those black haired children and the big, strong, warm werewolf I loved. I knew Edward would be wretched and torn apart. I would do what I could to comfort him and make him see how I felt. I could still decide to stay with him, but the thought suddenly seemed horrible. It was completely out of the question.

I pushed myself into Jacob, not wanting the kiss to end. But, it still was over way too soon. "I have to go" Jacob said. "Please don't!" I exclaimed, fear filling me. I didn't want Jacob to go so soon after making this life-changing realization. "I'll send Edward" I hurriedly shrieked. "What are you talking about?" he asked, his eyes full of surprise and hope. "I just realized something" I told him. "What?" He asked. "That I'm a better kisser than some filthy bloodsucker!" he continued. "That is true" I exclaimed. "But that's not it, there's more to it than that." He looked at me with an expression that said he had not been expecting the reaction I gave him at all. "If you stay, I'll explain." I negotiated. His lips pursed as he became lost deep in thought. "I don't know about that" he said unsurely. "I don't really want to miss out on the fight" he continued on.

"I'll send Edward" I repeated. "I'll explain to you and then if you want, you can leave." He looked at me with astonishment. "Ok I guess" he said and started to walk back with me. Now for the hard part, I thought as we came into Edward's view. He looked stiff like he was concentrating hard on something. I suddenly realized that he was probably reading Jacob's thoughts. I almost didn't want to know the images Jake was showing him. Edward was probably trying to figure out what my problem was as well. It's a good thing he can't hear my thoughts. It would upset him to much if he knew and I couldn't explain first.

"Jacob" I said. "I want you to go sit over there and not say or think anything bad" I told him. He looked at me confused, but obeyed.